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leo - twentysomething - australian - she/her do not repost or copy my work friendly reminder: i do not claim to know corpse, i am simply a fan while he is the muse for this blog, everything i write comes from a place of imagination, daydreaming and fiction my blog is a place to celebrate him and escape from reality for a bit it's all from a place of good nature and is just for fun and not to be taken seriously

[corpsedaydream]

🖤 corpsedaydream masterlist 🖤

🖤 muse: corpse husband 🖤

🖤 in alphabetical order 🖤

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🖤 a fright 🖤

🖤 a long week 🖤

🖤 beach baby 🖤

🖤 carrots 🖤

🖤 carry on 🖤

🖤 cloud nine 🖤

🖤 cold hands, warm neck 🖤

🖤 crash 🖤

🖤 dreamlike 🖤

🖤 flappy bird 🖤

🖤 fruit salad 🖤

🖤 golden hour 🖤

🖤 happy birthday honey 🖤

🖤 honey 🖤

🖤 i'm okay 🖤

🖤 it's been a while 🖤

🖤 it's fine 🖤

🖤 monthly 🖤

🖤 neon banter 🖤

🖤 not such a merry christmas 🖤

🖤 paint wars part 1 🖤

🖤 paint wars part 2 🖤

🖤 painted nails 🖤

🖤 pet names 🖤

🖤 point of view 🖤

🖤 puzzle 🖤

🖤 see you in the morning 🖤

🖤 sore loser 🖤

🖤 spooning 🖤

🖤 stay with me forever 🖤

🖤 stress & refresh 🖤

🖤 swing 🖤

🖤 tranquility 🖤

🖤 wine night 001 🖤

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🖤 concepts 🖤

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🖤 requests/prompts/questions/etc are always welcome - send them here 🖤

[corpsedaydream]

I've legit spent the past two nights daydreaming about corpse (and a very specific streamer!me au) in order to fall asleep

DON'T BE SHY TELL ME MORE ABOUT THE AU

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omg omg omg i missed your writing so much. AND THIS?! AAAAAAH I LOVE IT

consider me your biggest fan fr

yes, i’m waiting for part 2 but this was very relatable. back in july i broke up with my ldr bf after being together for 1.5 years. BUT after a few months we started talking again and it felt exactly like this. turned out we still have feelings for each other. (we’re not back together tho, the relationship itself was super toxic and ugh, it needs work that it’s hard to do over the phone)

i’m hoping for some tears or maybe a kiss in a possible part 2, just saying🤭👀

thank you for not giving up on this blog, i hope you’re doing better now

vik x

oh my god bby angel love tysm for this!!!!!!!

it just kinda felt to write about a break up considering i'd kind of just ghosted the corpse fandom for the past 11 months but i've been like lurking from the sidelines to kinda keep up with him lmao but ugh just felt good to write i missed fic writing fr fr

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SHE HAS AWOKEN FROM HER SLUMBER! Welcome back to the land of the living😂😭

HIIIIIII FRIEND i have risen tysm <333

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it’s been a while

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omg hello!!!!!!!!!

it has been almost eleven months since i posted a fic here

i haven’t written freely and creatively in so long and i needed to again it felt good to just write. this might be a little rough bc i’m rusty but i still like it. 

it’s kind of angsty, potentially leading to a part 2?? but also i like how it finished

lmk what u think

word count: 2.1k

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it’s been a while

You’d found yet another reflective surface to look at yourself in. Part of you wish you hadn’t because the more you looked, the more things you noticed you didn’t like and the more you convinced yourself you didn’t look good. You’d already changed your outfit eight different times, and honestly it would have been more had you had more clothes available in your suitcase, but you were only here for the weekend and you’d already overpacked for that. Besides that, you had to redo your hair a couple of times too. Because of it getting messed up with the outfit changes and you didn’t want to go over that again, you would make yourself later for the event then you already were.

However this time, you couldn’t change even if you did have more clothes available, for you weren’t at your hotel room anymore and the reflective surface you were looking in was the wall of the elevator taking you up to the floor of the party.

You’d been in this elevator once before, taking you to a party to the same place the one was tonight and you had been nervous for a different reason. But that was a long time ago, and you were much happier and you weren’t standing here alone like you were now, you were standing with him. With Corpse.

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“What if they don’t like me?”

“Honey.” Corpse shut his eyes and released a deep breath as he slightly dropped his head back. He was positive this had to be about the thirtieth time you’d ask him this question today. But he knew you were feeling anxious, he could see it in the way you chewed on your bottom lip and continuously balled your hands into fists. And he wanted you to feel reassured, so once again, he’d go over the almost exact conversation the two of you had, had every time you’d ask him this today. “They like you already.” He’d respond, while opening his eyes and picking his head back up to hold eye contact with you.

“But it’s different.”

“No it’s not.”

“They’ve only met me online.”

“And they love you online.”

“But what if they only love me online,” You were talking about his friends he’d met through streaming, and sure they had become your friends too through your time streaming, but you knew they were friends with Corpse first and this would be your first time meeting them in person. “what if they meet me in real life and hate me?”

“How could anyone hate you?”

It was almost word for word the same conversation you’d had only moments ago in the car, and just like in the car, you huffed and looked away from your boyfriend. You wanted to believe him, but you were believing your irrational thoughts more.

And there you went again, bringing your bottom lip between your teeth however this time, Corpse brought his hand to your jaw and brought your vision back to his. His eyes were on your mouth and he placed his thumb on your lip, puling your bottom lip back out. “You gotta stop doing that, you’ll hurt yourself and wake up with a bruised lip.” His thumb grazed over your tender bottom lip. “It’s already swollen and extra red.”

“I’m nervous.”

“I know.” Then he kissed you. And fuck, his mouth meshing with yours always made you feel better.

-

But he wasn’t with you to do that now, he hadn’t been for a long time. Shaking your head, you finally pulled your eyes from your own reflection to stop anymore of the insults you were giving to yourself and instead, to the little screen that displayed the floor numbers. You were going to the top level and as the numbers continued ascending, so did your anxiety.

Tonight would be the night you’d see Corpse again. It was strange how once you were convinced you couldn’t go one single day without him, how you once thought you’d spend the rest of your life with him but now he was your ex boyfriend. You hadn’t seen him since that fateful day that was almost eleven months ago now.

-

“When did things start changing so much?” You were on the verge of tears, but you didn’t care, you just felt so helpless and blind sighted. The relationship had been so incredible, everything had been going so great.

“I’ve been feeling like this for a little while.” Corpse responded and your heart broke more.

“What?” A tear of yours fell then and your voice cracked. But Corpse didn’t repeat himself, he knew you had heard him and you were saying what moreso out of shock then anything else. “Why didn’t you say anything?”

“You’ve just been so busy.”

“So this is my fault?”

“No...no,” He was getting frustrated, perhaps this conversation was overdue. “that’s not what I’m trying to say.”

“I don’t understand.” You were completely honest. Your career had been changing lately, you’d been becoming more and more popular, your followers growing substantially by the day. So you had been busier, but Corpse had only expressed how happy he was for you. But now here you were looking at each other in silence and you couldn’t believe what was happening. “Do you feel like I haven’t had enough time for you?”

“No, (Y/N), fuck. That’s not what I mean either.”

“Then what do you mean?” You raised your voice slightly then, you were feeling overwhelmed by your emotions.

“I just can’t be with you right now.”

“Why?”

“Because, baby-”

“Don’t call me baby if you’re literally breaking up with me right now.”

“Sorry.”

“So you are?”

“What?”

“You’re breaking up with me?”

He just stared at you. And that infuriated you. “Fucking answer me!”

“Yes, fuck, okay. I guess I am.”

Your heart was crushed and you turned away from him then.

“Say something.” He spoke again, reaching out to touch your shoulder but you jolted away upon his feeling his hand meeting yours and you refused to turn back. “Please, (Y/N).”

“I don’t know what to say.”

You were crying and he could hear it your voice. “I’m sorry.”

“Are we really about to break up a week before Valentine’s day?” You knew that wasn’t what was important, but you were so caught off guard, your mind wasn’t working quick enough to process the intense emotion you were feeling.

-

The elevator doors opened and the action brought you back from the memory that had been replaying in your mind.

You could feel your anxiety bubbling more as you entered the party. Almost all of the people here you’d met pretty much only through your now ex boyfriend and after moving away after your break up, you’d barely seen any of them, too.

However, you were greeted warmly. A chorus of hello’s and I’ve missed you’s being told to you again and again as you embraced friends you’d missed dearly. Amongst the catch up conversations, one friend noticed you continuously glancing around to the people you hadn’t yet said hello to, but you were only looking for one face, to which they said to you. “He said he had a work thing tonight, he’s not here yet.”

Yet. So he was coming after all.

However, seconds turned into minutes and minutes turned into hours and you’d settled into the night, talking, laughing and drinking with friends who’s company you enjoyed so much had successfully distracted you.

But then you heard his voice. Followed by his laugh. And your heart started to beat so loud and hard you could feel it your ear drums. You were sitting in a way where you couldn’t directly see him, in order to do so you would have had to turn around. But you already felt like you might pass out, so instead you got up quickly, mumbling a swift, “I need air,” to the person you were making a dash from.

You knew there was a balcony you could have a moment’s peace on. You remembered because the last time you were here, it was actually Corpse who needed a moment’s peace from that party, and so he had brought you out here. But now, it was you stood alone, trying to catch your breath as you contemplated ways you could make an escape from the party without running into him. You went to grab your phone from your pocket to see how long an Uber would take only to realise it wasn’t in your pocket.

“Looking for this?”

Instantly, your head snapped up. And there he was, holding your phone up in his hand. Your breath was stolen from your lungs and your eyes danced over him quickly. Even though just a mere few seconds ago, you were imagining ways to flee to avoid this exact moment, now you couldn’t deny the part of you that was so happy it was happening.

“Yeah.” You managed to find your voice again and answer his question regarding your phone. You tried to fight off the smile that was growing but you couldn’t. You had just missed him so much and it was so good to see him again. Then he started to walk towards you and at first it made you step back, to which he hesitated.

“Sorry-” You both apologised at the same time. “It’s okay.” Once again, you spoke in unison, to which you both laughed.

“Here.” Corpse closed the rest of the remaining space in order to hand you your phone.

“Thanks.” Your fingers brushed his as you grabbed the device from him and if you were both robots you were positive that visible electric sparks would’ve shot off from the contact.

“You look different.” Corpse commented and you brought your eyes back up to his.

“It’s been a while.”

“Yeah.” It was silent for a few seconds. “You look good.” He complimented you and you couldn’t help but to laugh and shake your head slightly. “What?” He questioned your response.

“Well,” You shrugged one shoulder and tucked your hair behind your ear on one side of your head, Corpse noticed. “I was having one of those days where I just super stress about what I look like, you know?” You were honest with him, it was something the two of you really understood in each other.

“I know.” He confirmed. “I promise you do you look good, though.” He complimented you again.

“Thanks, Corpse.” You turned your head to the side and brought your bottom lip between your teeth as you could feel a blush growing in your cheeks.

“Still doing that?” He questioned and that made you look back to him with a questioning look. “Your lip, you know you’ll make it all swollen and sore doing that.”

“Oh,” You released it and your lip fell back into its place. And you noticed Corpse looking a little longer at your mouth than what was probably considered appropriate for someone who was an ex lover.

He noticed his lingering stare not long after you and quickly his eyes snapped back to yours before looking away from you completely. The air grew thick with tension between you both.

You cleared your throat before deciding to be the one to break the silence. “Maybe we should go back inside.”

“I only came here to see you.” He blurted out so fast you almost missed it.

“What?”

He knew you had heard him, you were just saying what out of shock. “I just, I really missed you.”

Butterflies you hadn’t felt in so long appeared within you.

“(Y/N)?” Corpse spoke again, you hadn’t realised you had gone quiet with surprise.

“Sorry, you caught me off guard.”

“I did spring it on you.”“

“Yeah.”

“Is it okay that I said that?”

“I don’t know.” You answered him honestly, it felt so good to hear. But god had he hurt you those eleven months ago. You knew you had missed him too, but you weren’t ready to announce that yet. Your guard was still up and he could tell.

“I meant it.” He attempted at reassuring you.

“I just don’t know what to say.”

“Do you want me to leave you alone?”

“No.” You answered maybe a little too quickly. But Corpse was happy with that response. “There’s too much going on here for me to have this conversation.”

“We could go somewhere?” Truth being told, he wanted to suggest this from the second he saw you, but he didn’t want to overstep.

“Yeah, my hotel’s close.”

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i come back here every few weeks to reread everything you posted and just wanted to say that your writing helped me through some tough times. it makes me cry when i want to cry and it makes me smile when i want to smile. but most importantly, it makes my heart feel so full and for that, thank you so much

love, vik x

omg :((((((((((((((( thank u so much for saying this wtf, i did contemplate deleting this blog at one point but this made me so glad i didn't pls <3 <3 <3 i hope ur having a rly good week

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are you ever gonna come back to this blog? miss you & your writing :(

maybe i'm just about to post something hehe

[corpsedaydream]

hi

if u read this, hope ur doing okay. consider this a mental health check. have a drink of water. take 5 deep breaths in. unclench your draw. relax your brow bone. drop your shoulders. r e l a x

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What clip where he says what kind of hugger he is?

ahh i really can’t remember which stream it was exactly but he said it when he also said who is mario kart main is, if i can find the clip i’ll post it for u if that’s something u want?

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i bet corpse gives that best hugs and loves hugging

I AGREE W U ANON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I REALLY DO BE THINKING ABOUT THIS A LOT!!!!!!!!!!! 

i like to think if he’s close to u and knows u well, he pulls u in real close, everytime as well. like he’s never out here giving a half assed one arm, barely come close to u, lets get this over with kinda hug. he’d put effort into it, bc i like to think he enjoys it for himself, and wants u to feel it too. his arms would have a holding feeling of security, they’d feel so present around ur body and when ur arms go around him, he’d only make his hold stronger. his torso would probably press right against yours, there’s not gonna be any space left between u two bc he wants to be close and so do u. his hands would press flat against your back, his palms and fingers of both his hands laid flat and spanned out, i imagine him to be the type to keep his hands still through a hug, he’s concentrating on the closeness and holding you in his arms against him, but his hands are very much present against your back. but i also imagine he’d like the feeling of your hand rubbing on his back though, in slow, deliberate up and down motions. one side of his face would be squished into yours, both your chins resting on the others shoulder and finding comfort in feeling the others chest rise and fall with each breath they take. i can also see him shutting his eyes for it, so he could concentrate on the physical touch, while he’s turning his head ever so slightly to nestle in closer to your neck. 

damn i rly need a hug from corpse

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just gonna self reblog this bc i rewatched the clip where corpse said what type of hugger he is and ugh i could rly use a hug rn

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“well i’ve got both, so-“

NOT ME CLICKING ONTO CORPSE’S LIVE WHILE I HAVE A BIT OF SPARE TIME AND THIS IS THE PART I HEAR LMAO

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aLSO- sleep like right now go to sleep - 💃

I DID GO TO SLEEP LMAO but ty sometimes i do need to be told

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also- i know for a fact that corpse is a hopeless romantic even if he doesn't want to be in a relationship. hopeless romantic i tell ya. - 💃

H O N E S T L Y i see it i feel it i taste it !!!!! he would be 100% there’s not a doubt in my mind

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okay okay i know i've been gone for a while- i was going through stuff but guess who got a girlfriend at the end of it!! - 💃

OMG YES BITCH I’M SO HAPPY FOR U

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HES DOING A QNA

i know!! i’ve been watching/listening hehe! but it’s 3:23am here and i rly gotta get some sleep smh

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Why are doc appointments so scary 😭 I'm at the age where you get yourself an appointment and go alone without any problem, but I still have to ask my friends or mom to do it for me and go with me for emotional support ✋

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ahhhh see the doctor is nothing to me now tbh. i had some health issues for a good few years of my life and so i got over that fear really quick bc i was in and out of hospitals and doctors offices a lot during that time. but bc i never go to the dentist i’m like ?????? i do NOT want this but HELL yeah i’m a bitch who can book a doctors appointment 😤 just not a dentist rip

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Omg your having dentist issues too? I need to find someone to do my rootcanal AGAIN cus the last person messed it up

bitch YES!!! tell me why the dentist is SO scary! my mum asked about it today and i told her that i had my whole fucking wisdom tooth out now and she was like i’m gonna make the appointment for u if u don’t do it soon AND I BELIEVE HER SHE WAS DEAD SERIOUS 💀💀💀 my mother hasn’t made an appointment for me since i was a child but honestly ??? she might have to bc even if i make one i know my ass is gonna cancel it the day of