hi ml i js heard abt what happened and ik we don’t rlly talk alot but my dms are always open if you need to talk <3. i lost my dad a yr ago in an accident and it wasn’t easy at all but what made it slightly easier was talking about him 🤍.
i heard that it helps to talk about the ones you lost so if you don’t mind me asking what was one of his favorite things to do ? <3
aw, that’s honestly so sweet of you 🥹 thank you for saying that. i really appreciate it, it means a lot 🤍
i’m in a bit better headspace now, but your offer is super kind. talking about him does help… since he was also friends with some of my friends, we’d end up chatting about him sometimes—not always sad stuff—but it still took weeks for that emptiness to fade. he was so young, and losing him like that… the person responsible is in jail now, but that doesn’t change anything. i just try to remember he probably wouldn’t want me sad all the time.
and he loved playing chess, haha. he’d literally pull out the board randomly and make me play with him at least once or twice a week. if not in person, online. even now, whenever i think of chess, he’s the first person i think of 🫶🏻
thank you again for asking… it means a lot. and honestly, you must’ve been so strong to get through your own grief too 🤍 ily, stay safe and stay happy!
It has been 3 weeks.. are you good girl? 😭 I’m genuinely so worried !!
this december was honestly one of the hardest times of my life. right when I was about to come back, I lost a close friend in an accident. I was there when he was taken to the hospital, and seeing that happen… it stayed with me. I wasn’t in the right headspace at all and ended up spending most of the month just trying to get through each day and grieving quietly.
I never thought the year would end like this. I’ve accepted that he’s gone, but some days it still hits out of nowhere. I’m slowly starting to feel okay enough to continue again, but I want to take it slow and be gentle with myself this time.
Thank you so much for checking in and worrying about me. It genuinely means a lot, more than I can put into words. 🤍
Decided to come back and apparently everything went a little downhill for no reason? Like… hello??? Stop coming after my bae @kaikaikoi over a joke or because she chose to speak up—rightfully, might I add. 💀
And can people please stop making sexual comments about the other members? This isn’t just about smut—I’m talking about the straight-up inappropriate comments people make about the 09z and 08z. Just because someone turns 18 does not mean they suddenly exist for you to sexualize. And being a minor doesn’t give anyone a free pass to write smut either.
This is definitely not how I planned to announce my return, but… here we are. 👉🏻👈🏻 Thank you to everyone who replied to my last post—I feel so much better now. I’m coming back stronger. 💗
I really want to be transparent about what’s going on because I’ve genuinely been feeling so lost lately. When I first started writing, this was not what I had in mind—yes, I always knew I’d be cramming time to write because I love it, but not like this. Pushing myself to finish the ‘bts’ on time despite having a fracture, dealing with bad period cramps at the same time, typing slowly with my left hand, studying for practical + oral exams because they’re still happening—all of it piled up until it finally spiraled into a two-day high fever.
I don’t want writing to become a torture chamber for me. I write because I love it, not because I want to chase other people’s expectations. I’m not sorry for taking time for myself, because I need that time instead of cutting into my sleep and burning myself out. And I genuinely appreciate everyone who’s been so positive about me prioritising my health instead of the draft.
I know it can be disappointing when things aren’t posted on time. And I’ll be honest—I could have easily finished the bts by the 28th of November. So why didn’t I? Because it started feeling like a burden. I couldn’t even open the doc without calculating how much I had to write, and it made me start resenting my own blog for making commitments. I couldn’t bring myself to answer asks, even though all of you have been nothing but sweet and thoughtful, always updating me on things.
The funniest part is that most of the times no one is actually pressuring me. Almost everyone has been fine with waiting—if they weren’t, they wouldn’t have stayed for a whole month. The only person who has been pushing me this hard… is me. And starting today, I’m going to try being a little kinder to myself. I’ll take breaks. I’ll write when I want to write.
I already have almost 20k words done—just need about 10k more, which honestly could be written in a day, especially over a weekend, if I wasn’t being so hypercritical of every step I take. And so much has happened too. Apparently we’re called coer now, and our boys won best artist (as they should) :D
As I end this, I hope every single one of you is doing well. I miss you all so damn much. I’ll get to all your loving messages as soon as I’m able, I promise. And sorry if this turned into a bit of a rant—I just needed to clear my head and be honest about what’s really going on with me.
I would never compromise quality for quantity. That’s simply not who I am. 💗
Gurllll seriously when is the cortis bts coming out cause first it was the 5th then 10th then 25th and now 28th like gurll stop playin pls😭😭
it's gonna drop this month til the 30th without fail 😬 promise I'm not playing with you guys on purpose. The dates were changed at first because of my exams, and then again because of my fracture. It's taking me more time to type with my left hand, and I’ve honestly just been sleeping the past two days because of a high fever. So I'm planning to write the entire BTS (25k-30k words mind you) in like two or three days, then take one day to edit and one day to review before posting. It’s really not easy to write long chapters that fast, so I hope you understand that none of this is intentional on my part 🥲💗
Okayyy here me out sista but nerdy!cortis?!?!?!?? UGHHH I jst can't get it out of my head.
OKAY, I’M NERDY ! (소년) ♡
❪ 그를 ❫ fluff - scenarios - cortis x f!reader ノ highschool au, not proofread 〃 ★ cortis as types of nerds. (📝)
riri’s note , the way I had so many other nerd cortis fics... which led me to just write this one as cortis as different types of nerds. I SEE THE VISION TOO, DW! :D . . request sent , october 6th.
ZHAO JAMES
the ‘over-prepared’ nerd.
At this point, you’re convinced James, your seatmate, has an entire stationery store hiding inside his pouch. He’s got color-coded notes, sticky tabs for every possible detail, and flashcards so neatly arranged it’s almost intimidating. Three different pens—all part of his so-called ‘organization aesthetic.’ But deep down, you know he just loves showing it all off. Especially when your plain black pouch looks like the brooding emo kid sitting next to his rainbow explosion of stationery pride.
And honestly, you can’t even be mad about it—because James is just… James. Sweet, thoughtful, effortlessly annoying in the best way. Like today, when you find a sticky note on your desk, probably left before he ran off to his next class—the only one where you two aren’t stuck together. A neat little square of yellow, marked with his handwriting: ‘Remember to drink water :)’ accompanied by a ridiculously cute smiley face.
He always acts like he knows everything—and maybe he does, or maybe he just pretends really well. Stays up all night studying, ditches every hangout plan, and then has the audacity to show up the next morning with a perfectly straight face claiming, “I didn’t even study.” Sure thing, James. Sure.
Now, he’s flipping through his notes, distracted as ever, tapping a pen against the desk. “What chapter were we on again?” he wonders aloud, though you both know he already finished it twice. Classic James when you’re around.
You glance down, and that’s when you notice it—your name, written in neat cursive down the side of his arm, traced in highlighter ink. A soft laugh escapes you before you can stop it. Maybe James doesn’t know everything, but he sure knows how to make your heart skip a beat.
EDWARDS MARTIN
the ‘sarcastic’ nerd.
Martin is practically the top of the class—the golden boy everyone seems to adore. And maybe you would too, if he wasn’t such a know-it-all. Sure, he’s smart, but the way he acts like everyone else is beneath him makes your blood boil. He’s that infuriating ‘I didn’t even study’ type who still ends up getting full marks. Always with his earphones in, pretending to be too busy for small talk—but you know better. He’s not listening to music; it’s those boring science podcasts that put you to sleep in seconds. And somehow, that makes you even angrier.
So, you start competing with him. Studying harder, staying up late, determined to knock him off that first-place pedestal.
But when the teacher calls on you one day, you fumble—“I’m not sure.” The words stumble out before you can stop them. The teacher looks at you, confused since you always know the answer. From beside you, Martin leans over, voice low and smug. “You didn’t even try.”
Your glare could probably melt steel, but he doesn’t stop there. Of course not. He spends the rest of the period explaining the question you already understand—talking just to talk—while you try your best to ignore him. Subtle hints don’t work on him; he’s immune.
By the next class, you catch him staring. You ignore it, obviously, deciding he’s probably just practicing black magic or something equally dramatic to keep you from topping the next exam. Later, when you finally call him out on it, he just waves you off. “You were sitting in my line of sight.” Right. So he was staring at a wall, then? Because that’s exactly what you were sitting against.
KIM JUHOON
the ‘shy’ nerd.
Juhoon is weird—but he’s also weirdly good at math and coding. Always the first to finish, always the one everyone turns to for help. So when you ask him for a weekend study session, it’s not entirely about the exams coming up—you just want to spend more time with him. With how shy he already is, getting him to make a move feels impossible, and neither of you seem brave enough to address the feelings quietly buffering in the air.
When you show up, tiffin box in hand, his desk looks like a disaster zone—wires tangled with soldering tools, empty energy drink cans stacked like trophies. You’re in silent awe until you instinctively reach out to touch one of the half-built gadgets. “Don’t touch that—it’s delicate,” he blurts, quickly leaning forward to form a little barricade with his arms. But the moment he spots the tiffin, his tone softens, his ears turning pink.
He hesitates before digging in, taking small bites and savoring each one like it’s a full-course meal. And somewhere between your teasing and his quiet fidgeting, he ends up programming his little robot to say your name. The voice box crackles out the syllables, sweet and glitchy, and Juhoon immediately flusters, mumbling, “Didn’t do it for you though,” while the screen flashes ‘it’s a lie’ in bold letters.
He disappears into the bathroom soon after—probably to calm down—while you sit there biting back a grin, the tiny robot repeating your name again and again in the soft hum of the room.
EOM SEONGHYEON
the ‘sleepy’ need.
Seonghyeon was more known for his ability to fall asleep anywhere, anytime, than for his perfect grades. He’s always in those half-zipped hoodies, hair a mess, a pencil tucked behind his ear as he drifts off like the lecture couldn’t matter less. It never really bothered you—not because you were particularly patient, but because you’d never really spoken to him anyway.
That is, until one day, he ended up sleeping through the entire period. When the bell rang for lunch, you hesitated for a moment before quietly shrugging off your uniform jacket and draping it over him. The room was chilly, and you were warm enough—but something about seeing him there, fast asleep after being online in the class study group till past midnight, made it impossible not to. You could tell he’d been up late again, cutting into his sleep just for grades.
When he finally woke, he didn’t make a big deal out of it—just rubbed his eyes and glanced at you with that lazy calm of his. “Thanks. I was freezing,” he mumbles, already flipping open his notebook to catch up on what he missed.
You end up explaining the parts of the lecture he slept through—practically the only reason you even paid attention in that dull class—but halfway through, his focus fades. His head tilts into his palm, eyes half-lidded, watching you solve a problem like he’s fighting to stay awake but losing.
By the time you finish, he’s still there, half-conscious and blinking slow. And as ridiculous as it sounds, all you can think about is how someone like him—who studies all night and still manages to fall asleep mid-equation—will even make it home in one piece at this rate.
AHN KEONHO
the ‘accidental flirt’ nerd.
Keonho’s the kind of person who’d go out of his way to help you study—but somehow, every single thing that leaves his mouth sounds like a confession.
“And then you have to integrate it,” he explains, voice low and steady, eyes locked on yours like he’s afraid to blink. You’re trying so hard to focus, really—but how are you supposed to concentrate when those thin-rimmed glasses keep sliding down his nose? They don’t even fit him properly, yet he insists on wearing them, pushing them up with that same absentminded motion every time he starts thinking too hard. It’s distracting. Way too distracting.
“Do you get it?” he prompts again, and that gaze of his—so unshakably calm—makes you forget what numbers even are. Then, before you can gather your thoughts, he leans closer to adjust your grip on the pen. His fingers graze yours—warm, careful, deliberate.
“You were holding it wrong,” he remarks softly, like he didn’t just knock every coherent thought out of your head with a single touch.
Moments like this make you realize exactly why this nerdy classmate—the same one everyone once called a ‘loser’—has somehow become the reason your heart skips. It’s the way his voice lowers when he explains something, the way he gets so caught up in equations that he doesn’t notice you staring.
Okayyy here me out sista but nerdy!cortis?!?!?!?? UGHHH I jst can't get it out of my head.
OKAY, I’M NERDY ! (소년) ♡
❪ 그를 ❫ fluff - scenarios - cortis x f!reader ノ highschool au, not proofread 〃 ★ cortis as types of nerds. (📝)
riri’s note , the way I had so many other nerd cortis fics... which led me to just write this one as cortis as different types of nerds. I SEE THE VISION TOO, DW! :D . . request sent , october 6th.
ZHAO JAMES
the ‘over-prepared’ nerd.
At this point, you’re convinced James, your seatmate, has an entire stationery store hiding inside his pouch. He’s got color-coded notes, sticky tabs for every possible detail, and flashcards so neatly arranged it’s almost intimidating. Three different pens—all part of his so-called ‘organization aesthetic.’ But deep down, you know he just loves showing it all off. Especially when your plain black pouch looks like the brooding emo kid sitting next to his rainbow explosion of stationery pride.
And honestly, you can’t even be mad about it—because James is just… James. Sweet, thoughtful, effortlessly annoying in the best way. Like today, when you find a sticky note on your desk, probably left before he ran off to his next class—the only one where you two aren’t stuck together. A neat little square of yellow, marked with his handwriting: ‘Remember to drink water :)’ accompanied by a ridiculously cute smiley face.
He always acts like he knows everything—and maybe he does, or maybe he just pretends really well. Stays up all night studying, ditches every hangout plan, and then has the audacity to show up the next morning with a perfectly straight face claiming, “I didn’t even study.” Sure thing, James. Sure.
Now, he’s flipping through his notes, distracted as ever, tapping a pen against the desk. “What chapter were we on again?” he wonders aloud, though you both know he already finished it twice. Classic James when you’re around.
You glance down, and that’s when you notice it—your name, written in neat cursive down the side of his arm, traced in highlighter ink. A soft laugh escapes you before you can stop it. Maybe James doesn’t know everything, but he sure knows how to make your heart skip a beat.
EDWARDS MARTIN
the ‘sarcastic’ nerd.
Martin is practically the top of the class—the golden boy everyone seems to adore. And maybe you would too, if he wasn’t such a know-it-all. Sure, he’s smart, but the way he acts like everyone else is beneath him makes your blood boil. He’s that infuriating ‘I didn’t even study’ type who still ends up getting full marks. Always with his earphones in, pretending to be too busy for small talk—but you know better. He’s not listening to music; it’s those boring science podcasts that put you to sleep in seconds. And somehow, that makes you even angrier.
So, you start competing with him. Studying harder, staying up late, determined to knock him off that first-place pedestal.
But when the teacher calls on you one day, you fumble—“I’m not sure.” The words stumble out before you can stop them. The teacher looks at you, confused since you always know the answer. From beside you, Martin leans over, voice low and smug. “You didn’t even try.”
Your glare could probably melt steel, but he doesn’t stop there. Of course not. He spends the rest of the period explaining the question you already understand—talking just to talk—while you try your best to ignore him. Subtle hints don’t work on him; he’s immune.
By the next class, you catch him staring. You ignore it, obviously, deciding he’s probably just practicing black magic or something equally dramatic to keep you from topping the next exam. Later, when you finally call him out on it, he just waves you off. “You were sitting in my line of sight.” Right. So he was staring at a wall, then? Because that’s exactly what you were sitting against.
KIM JUHOON
the ‘shy’ nerd.
Juhoon is weird—but he’s also weirdly good at math and coding. Always the first to finish, always the one everyone turns to for help. So when you ask him for a weekend study session, it’s not entirely about the exams coming up—you just want to spend more time with him. With how shy he already is, getting him to make a move feels impossible, and neither of you seem brave enough to address the feelings quietly buffering in the air.
When you show up, tiffin box in hand, his desk looks like a disaster zone—wires tangled with soldering tools, empty energy drink cans stacked like trophies. You’re in silent awe until you instinctively reach out to touch one of the half-built gadgets. “Don’t touch that—it’s delicate,” he blurts, quickly leaning forward to form a little barricade with his arms. But the moment he spots the tiffin, his tone softens, his ears turning pink.
He hesitates before digging in, taking small bites and savoring each one like it’s a full-course meal. And somewhere between your teasing and his quiet fidgeting, he ends up programming his little robot to say your name. The voice box crackles out the syllables, sweet and glitchy, and Juhoon immediately flusters, mumbling, “Didn’t do it for you though,” while the screen flashes ‘it’s a lie’ in bold letters.
He disappears into the bathroom soon after—probably to calm down—while you sit there biting back a grin, the tiny robot repeating your name again and again in the soft hum of the room.
EOM SEONGHYEON
the ‘sleepy’ need.
Seonghyeon was more known for his ability to fall asleep anywhere, anytime, than for his perfect grades. He’s always in those half-zipped hoodies, hair a mess, a pencil tucked behind his ear as he drifts off like the lecture couldn’t matter less. It never really bothered you—not because you were particularly patient, but because you’d never really spoken to him anyway.
That is, until one day, he ended up sleeping through the entire period. When the bell rang for lunch, you hesitated for a moment before quietly shrugging off your uniform jacket and draping it over him. The room was chilly, and you were warm enough—but something about seeing him there, fast asleep after being online in the class study group till past midnight, made it impossible not to. You could tell he’d been up late again, cutting into his sleep just for grades.
When he finally woke, he didn’t make a big deal out of it—just rubbed his eyes and glanced at you with that lazy calm of his. “Thanks. I was freezing,” he mumbles, already flipping open his notebook to catch up on what he missed.
You end up explaining the parts of the lecture he slept through—practically the only reason you even paid attention in that dull class—but halfway through, his focus fades. His head tilts into his palm, eyes half-lidded, watching you solve a problem like he’s fighting to stay awake but losing.
By the time you finish, he’s still there, half-conscious and blinking slow. And as ridiculous as it sounds, all you can think about is how someone like him—who studies all night and still manages to fall asleep mid-equation—will even make it home in one piece at this rate.
AHN KEONHO
the ‘accidental flirt’ nerd.
Keonho’s the kind of person who’d go out of his way to help you study—but somehow, every single thing that leaves his mouth sounds like a confession.
“And then you have to integrate it,” he explains, voice low and steady, eyes locked on yours like he’s afraid to blink. You’re trying so hard to focus, really—but how are you supposed to concentrate when those thin-rimmed glasses keep sliding down his nose? They don’t even fit him properly, yet he insists on wearing them, pushing them up with that same absentminded motion every time he starts thinking too hard. It’s distracting. Way too distracting.
“Do you get it?” he prompts again, and that gaze of his—so unshakably calm—makes you forget what numbers even are. Then, before you can gather your thoughts, he leans closer to adjust your grip on the pen. His fingers graze yours—warm, careful, deliberate.
“You were holding it wrong,” he remarks softly, like he didn’t just knock every coherent thought out of your head with a single touch.
Moments like this make you realize exactly why this nerdy classmate—the same one everyone once called a ‘loser’—has somehow become the reason your heart skips. It’s the way his voice lowers when he explains something, the way he gets so caught up in equations that he doesn’t notice you staring.
I’m so sad after watching the Cortis yt video bc they had a day off nd all went to visit their parents except janes he spent his day off alone but I lwk imagined sixth member reader to spent the day w him or force him to visit her parents with her
aww dw tho, sixth member reader would take him to visit her family. Her parents already love the guy the most out of the five 🫡 there's gonna be side notes related to the reader’s family after the fashion BTS too, so there will be more drama with that hehe 😝💗 now onto the realistic side, I already feel sad without even watching the video knowing that James couldn't visit his parents :(
Hii!! Sorry to bother you but I’m wondering if you’ll do the ‘WYW’ conceptual performance BTS??
maybe not the entire thing, but moments from here and there? mostly because I wanna progress the series to debut right after the BTS finishes 🤧 you're not being a bother tho dw, cutie! 💗
HEYY!! i js wanted to ask if i could be a 🐋annon mut if its taken then 🐻!! also could i be in your taglist? (for all works?) also i love your writings!!! highkey my first time sending anything so nervouss af😓😓 (ALSO WHOS UR BIASS?)
HIIII!! you can be my 🐋 non!! :3 but but but I can’t add you to the taglist since you’re on anon 👀 hehe just send another ask without anon asking to be tagged, or just comment it—i’ll most probably reply to comments today 🫡 & dw, it’s okie hehe! Nobody’s judging you here! thanks for finding the courage to send the ask pooks! i appreciate it! 🤧💗 my bias is literally OT5 atp because it used to be Juhoon but honestly I'm not sure anymore, it’s very very hard to choose 💀 have a nice day tho!! ilysm!! 🫂💗
yeah i am!!! i’ve been so locked out tho i need to clock in
currently been working on my own gg concept 🔥🔥🔥 it’s acc so much fun
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👀 OHHHH??? a gg concept actually sounds cool. feel free to tag @/ririzrecs if you ever post it, I'm kinda interested 😝 I get why it must’ve been fun. 💗
HELLO !!! i just wanted to drop by and say that I LOVE UR WORKS SM AHJXNCQJXIQ 😔 I LOVE WHAF U MAKE LIKE LEMME KISS UR BRAIN ??
THANK YOU THANK YOU!! 🥹 appreciate it very very much babes!! 💗 I'm hoping you'd keep on loving what I put out in the future as well! :3 and another day, another reader giving smoochies to my brain 🤭 lots of love to you!! stay healthy and happy!!
hiii!! i recently downloaded tumblr again and i came across your works and OMG you’re so good at writing!! i love your layout and i literally just binge read the sixth member diaries (while i have a very important test tmr😬)
anywayss i just wanted to ask if maybe if the sixth member is a fan of other groups? maybe army, moa, fearnot etc etc. what would be her bias in each of the group? maybe the member she sees herself the most in, or just genuinely choosing the one catching her eye? this isn’t urgent so please take your time !!
continue working hard and get well soon!!💓
Hellaurrrr, first of all hehe thanks so much!! it took me so long to come up with the layout <3 it means so much that you appreciated it! 👀 And lmfao I'm getting flashbacks because I used to binge-read stuff too even when I had exams the next day 💀. I genuinely hope your exam went / will better than mine ever did when I did that.
Now, getting back to your actual question—she is definitely a fan of other groups and idols! I won’t specify the reasons though… and thank you for understanding that I might have other things to prioritize 🥹 it’s so rare to see. She’s part of the uaena, engene, and once fandoms—she listens to other groups and idols too, but these are the only ones she’s actually in. Thank you for this!! I’ll hopefully get well soon, especially after this sweet ask!! Take care babes!! 💗
riri how are you feeling!! Also is your arm okay, I just heard abt the fracture! 🫂🫂
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it's okieee dw!! I'm actually doing pretty fine, never loved my left arm more than I am these days 🤧 you're so sweet for stopping by though 🥹 i love you, take care, warm and fluffy baked-with-love bread. ❤️🩹🫂