ʳᵘˢᵗ & ˢᵗᵃʳᵈᵘˢᵗ * ! ( ᵃᵖ )

indie alien - original universe original character / private & fairly selective.

[cosmette]

i miss pav ... sm

[cosmette]

arc two: i.

most, if not all,queries pavka poses  focus primarily on internal matters rather than the external. being inquisitive is merely nisharian nature, but given recent events, introspection is to be expected. no longer do human customs or ideals prove to be the most confounding facet. her lack of memories & understanding of her own existence, however, is baffling.

the practical cutting of what were once lengthy pink locks proves to be symbolic. it is not uncommon knowledge that pavka deems her hair the most beauteous aspect of her physical being, but it was also the one feature tihana & amo't-li ( her parents ) did not opt to surgically alter. in short, it has been a consistent aspect within her life, & consistency is something of a rarity.

many relationships of importance formed from her first visit to earth are neglected. not entirely intentional, but this works in pavka’s favor. as such, she feels less explanations are provided for her departure ( pavka only told one companion. others were not notified purposefully )   & shift in appearance.

in regards to the latter, aside from short hair, pav now has rough patches of rough skin upon the bridge of her nose as well as her chin. scars litter her body, a product of not being able to return to nishar & have them smoothed over with new skin. as such, she typically sports long sleeves along with pants or shorts / skirts / dresses with leggings. when alone she examines them thoroughly. she is not, nor has she  ever been, a stranger to insecurities.

combat & brawling do not  satisfy her in the same degree they did once before. limbs still ache. movements that once brought forth comfort now spawn unwarranted flashbacks of memories of war once repressed. the only thing pavka held confidence in now furthers her suffering. as such, she can’t help but feel worthless.

[cosmette]

☆ ° —— INVENINA !

“ yeah, you do. ”

carmilla’s no idiot. she might not have the details, but she knows pav didn’t come back just because she missed roller coasters. she can see pav’s not alright. carmilla won’t try to comfort her; girls like them don’t do things like that. they aren’t good at it. she’ll do what they do best and just be honest.

“ that’s alright, you know. you should keep your secrets. you’re not a book, pav, i don’t need to know your whole story. no one does. not matter how much me or you know about - about anything, we’re still gonna’ be us and that means we’re still gonna’ be friends. ”

              as per usual, TRANSPARENCY proves a formidable foe. the inadvertent appearance of such a trait seems unfitting for a woman whose early years were dedicated to the most calculated of fibs & fabrications. perhaps poor execution was simply the product of a mind muddled —— MARRED. however,  through this haze, one longing was clear: comfort via companionship. she could recognize this, at the very least, despite lack of vocalization & poor attempts at deflections to queries not yet posed. it was in her nature to WITHHOLD ; a nature of which, she is now reminded, she should not ashamed.                  ❛  ——  we are ?  ❜ inflection suggests question, nod that follows implies statement.  ❛ the knowledge i lack regarding the completion of my mission and the period that follows renders me ... unreliable. the only aspect of which i am certain is, following my return, you are the only companion i have sought out. ❜

[cosmette]

☆  ° —— BLEDMISERY !

       ❛      look  who’s  out of luck.     ❜

*   @cosmette       /       ♡     .

               ❛  i do not subscribe to luck. the universe does not work in my favor, nor against it. as i simply just am, it simply just is. despite this turn of events, i will continue to operate as planned. ❜

[aadvena-archive]

what? how much do i love you? 

how much sand is on the beach? a gotdamn lot right? how all that sand get on beaches? what is sand forreal like its clean dirt forreal. wtf is a beach too this shit wild to think about. baby where you going

[maryjblige]

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[cosmette]

pav, always: when. will i get .. the girlfriend .. . . i Deserve . ?

[90sfashiongal]

Miss Fine working the black.

[cosmette]

@wonwars / ♡ / GOODNIGHT MOON !

              ❛ well. goodnight moon ! ❜  she’s sad to see the body most analogous to night descend ; even so, she refrains from resorting to DESPONDENCY. rather, accented tone is of the saccharine sort. focuses the bright beauty dipping below horizon betwixt index & thumb. hums n’ smiles. with eyes downcast from that which she most often remains faithful, a most startling statement hurls forth from form. way she leans forward, it’s almost like a bout of courage has resulted in confession. ❛  ——  i want the SUN. ❜

[cosmette]

* COSMETTE : WOMAN OF THE COSMOS ! ! !

                   —————— IT’S ALL RUST & STARDUST .  •  ╰   *   °  ☆  * /  that night i lie out under the stars again. the PLEADIES are winking at me. i am no longer on my way from one place to another. i have changed lives. my life is now as black & white as night & day. a life of fierce struggle under the sun, & peaceful reflection under the night sky. i feel as though i am floating on a raft far, far away from any world i ever knew ...  indie alien - original universe original character / private & fairly selective !

[cosmette]

☆  ° —— SMUGREBELLE !

           ❛ Well, I can assure that I knew EXACTLY what I was saying. ❜ A cocky smirk rested on the rebel’s face, hands placed on his waist. His eyes stared at the other, unsure what would come of this interaction. His eyes narrowed as he looked at the other, questioning what he had stated before. ❛ Why does it matter about what I said? ❜ Overall, the words came out very defensive and accusatory, but he only meant to ask why. 

               ❛ do you not feel that perception is imperative to communication  ——   to SUCCESSFUL communication  ? ❜ perhaps not. however, maybe evoking confusion is the result of calculated aim. such a plot would be sure to conjure an air of uncertainty ( clearly, for it has already done so )  —— pavka briefly toys with this thought. but alas, it is fleeting& floats ‘bout brain but a moment. seems fitting to proceed despite the uncertainty that hangs about the interaction.   ❛ while what you say holds far less merit to me than what you do, it factors into my ... understanding. so, it would seem i am unfamiliar with the saying you’ve used and it’s intent. is usage of such FREQUENT where you are from ? ❜

[cosmette]

☆  ° —— RIDDLMAN !

          ❛ Prison isn’t so bad if you’re SMART. ❜

@cosmette — STARTER CALL.

              ❛ any form of BAD proves less than ideal. smart, but not smart enough to avoid imprisonment ? ❜ cue noncommital noise. ❛ ——   mm. ❜

[dangerous90s]

[aadvena-archive]

dangerous90s:

cliffs edge // hayley kiyoko

[cosmette]

@occultiist / ♡ / STAR SHOPPING !

              ❛  ——  music’s the only thing keeping the PEACE when i’m falling to pieces. ❜ smiles shortly thereafter, as if to dismiss the latter portion. yet, action doesn’t quite reach the eyes & falls short of being wholly convincing. these days, such behavior is commonplace. as such, one should not render previous statement any less veritable. seems tunes truly are the only thing 'pon this planet that can ease a MIND MARRED. palm reaches up then, plucking earbud from appendage. betwixt index & thumb object remains. but, only momentarily. for soon, unsteady digits presents it to the other.

[cosmette]

@repcrters / ♡ / HOT AS ICE !

               ❛ if you have ever been to HEAVEN, this is ...  ❜ exclamation stops short. woman merely aims to use “ heaven “ as a metaphor, for she does not truly suppose the other has ascended to the realm deemed akin to the sight she beholds. comparison is merely made due to the white that blankets all. blindingly beautiful. snowfall does not occur ‘pon planet nishar, otherwise she’d be unlikely to be phased. pavka turns ‘round to the other then  & lips quirk. ❛ ———  twice as nice !  ❜

[cosmette]

 @smugrebelle / ♡ / QUICKSAND !

               ❛ should i assume you didn’t mean it  like that ? ❜ just then, as query tumbles forth from parted lips, silence threatens to reign. latter speculated outcome might prove promising if it were not know that this one could not maintain such a state for long ; especially not when the other held answers only credible when falling from his tongue & not that of any other. needless to say, his use of inflection & lack of transparency has left her in a state of WONDERMENT. fortunate for him, she supposes, that it has yet to shift to VEXATION.  ❛ or ——— ❜ optics narrow. ❛ should i assume you knew exactly how you said it ? ❜

[cosmette]

@cyniceds / ♡ / LUV !

               ❛ i can see GOD from here ... with my own eyes, ❜ pavka proclaims. head is titled upward, optics of gold trained upon the cosmos. each heavenly body a seductress, for they tempt planted limbs to carry her to lands long sought after. their magic is undeniable. in fact, s each star that lies within the vast sea atop flickers & flashes, it is their light that brings a woman void of faith to call upon an ENTITY with which she has never desired a connection. while G - O - D is used to emphasize the images the beauties above illustrate within her mind, pav would be a liar to deny that they could make a BELIEVER out of her.