up until these past few months I have lived my entire life in a state of instability, always unpredictable and unwell, with brief fits of mania that were almost as distressing as the lows. I have wasted so much time with such fucking nonsense, with drugs and poisonous relationships that drained me of love and wore me down to nearly nothing
I am so heartbroken for the time and the life and the love that I have lost. I am unbelievably thankful for all that I have learned
I have come further than I ever thought possible and I intend to keep moving forward, slowly but surely. I have big plans and I will make them happen and I am excited for the future and I am finally awake















