ophelia’s amalgamation of interests

24 / they/them / nb lesbian / used to be cottagecore focused but now a mix of everything i like. hema, books, marine biology, nature, life updates

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10/24/25

currently reading: some desperate glory by emily tesh; harrow the ninth by tamsyn muir

just finished: house of many ways by diana wynne jones; private rites by julia armfield

up next: translation state by ann leckie

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just finished reading the unspoken name by a.k. larkwood and i LOVED IT, it has made it onto the small list of “books i love enough to want to buy for myself and read over and over again” along with the locked tomb and imperial radch series

i listened to it on audiobook which really enhanced my experience, i loved the accents and inflections the narrator avita jay did that really brought the characters to life!!

i wish it was an anime bc i can See a csorwe x shuthmili all the things she said amv in my mind 🧠🧠🧠🧐🧐🧐

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loving grad school but idk why i thought it would be easier socially than undergrad…. i feel so isolated being a neurodivergent nonbinary student in my group. it feels like i can’t relate to most people here, none of the new students want to sit with me or talk with me, i don’t know how to initiate conversation, and the other alt/queer people here seem to already be friends and i don’t know how to get into that. i fear this will be a repeat of undergrad where i am doomed to eat lunch alone and study alone and go to class alone every day unless i do something different but i don’t know WHAT!

i wish i didn’t feel the pressure to socialize so i can just be happy studying hard and not worrying about other people. but i feel very much like i have to be likable and have a network and be funny and entertaining to prove i belong here

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my type of dark academia is sitting in my modern minimalist school cubicle, taking notes on physical oceanography, drinking black coffee, dressed all in black but it’s like sporty and comfy black, listening to sisters of mercy….. i call it laidback dark ocean academia

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the queer urge to have an aquarium date with someone

[Image description: A pixel illustration of a couple in front of an aquarium made using shades of blue. On the top there is a whale shark in dark blue, a school of fishes, small sharks and a manta ray. On the bottom, in lighter blue, there is some rocks, seaweed, crabs and seahorses. On the foreground there is the silhouette of a rail and a couple leaning against eachother while holding hands. One person has short hair and wears a skirt while the other has long hair and wear pants. End description]

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this is so awesome scrolling through old posts on my blog bc i DID GET TO DO THIS on my japan trip this year!!!! still gay and in love and obsessed with sharks!!!

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i started my phd program this week and it feels SOOOOOO GOOD to be back in academia!!! not to be dramatic but during the orientation i was so overwhelmingly happy i could have cried. i have great classes, everybody in my program is nice and cool and nerdy and passionate about marine science, i have an awesome advisor and my own little cubicle to decorate, i get to have HOMEWORK and READINGS and ASSIGNMENTS and MEETINGS again!

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i just finished reading heavenly tyrant on audiobook and it was so good 😭😭 i love zetian and her endless malewives and i cant wait to see what happens in the third book!!!! waiting on it as eagerly as alecto the ninth

[emriscoscept-blog]

But when the Black-eyed infant showed her face to her, Alecto recalled her. For it was a face once dreamed in Alecto's dream. And Alecto stayed the sword.

Anastasia The First: @ditafyme

Alecto is me! 🖤💀🌊

📸 @gfxsoulstudio

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nerding out over my introduction to quantitative ecology textbook so hard that when i scrolled to the next chapter and saw that it was on bayesian statistics i felt my pulse jump and out loud i said “woaaaahhh bayesian statistics!!!” i’ve heard a lot about it and seen it mentioned a lot in college and now i get to learn about it! incredibly exciting, huge win for marine biologists

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i got a hard copy of translation state!!!! it’s the only book in the imperial radch universe i haven’t read yet since i can’t find an audiobook for it. super excited to read it when i have time and to be starting my physical collection of ann leckie books!

[herzspalter]

It's been so long since I've drawn Kakyoin!!

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GOT INTO MY PHD PROGRAM 🦈🦈🦈🦈

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does anyone else get embarrassed about wearing underwear. like i have a second secret set of clothes that i wear under my regular clothes, a stupid idiot pair of underwear for my stupid dumb idiot genitals and a stupid idiot bra for my stupid dumb idiot tits. and its embarrassing to have them showing apparently but everyone wears them. does anyone else feel this or is this just me and my gender dysphoria??

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i want to open a coffee shop that’s kind of like dick’s last resort where the schtick is that the baristas are mean to you but they’re just regular mean or disinterested, not like trying to be mean to be funny or make customers laugh or make silly hats.

like i want to work in a cafe where i don’t have to smile at all or be polite or make connections with customers. just be able to say “what do you want” “hurry up and decide” “go to the back of the line since you clearly don’t know what you want”.

OH and my least favorite thing is when customers fight over who’s going to pay for the group order and thrust their different credit cards at me… would love to go off on them how it’s not cute and it’s annoying and they should have figured this out before order.

also i don’t care if you’re a regular and you think i know your name and your order, i’ve probably forgotten and im sure the other baristas don’t know either. tell me what you want in plain words.

and if you forget to specify size/hot or iced/flavor i will just pick for you!

also i know more about coffee than you do and if you ask me for something stupid like a latte with milk then i will tell you how wrong you are and make it how i feel like it.

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i think if i were to write a memoir it would be called “i drank my protein shake too fast and now i feel like i’m going to throw up”. need that on a bumper sticker too

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good luck on ur grad apps!!

thank you!! i only applied for one program bc that was the only lab that had funding for a phd student to start next fall lmao…. but the PI seems very enthusiastic about having me join so im cautiously optimistic i’ll get in

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about to get a little crazy and apply for phd programs… ahahaha…. what if i fucked around and became dr. ophelia