I don't want to be a fuck up anymore

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my new blog is @bigheart-bigeden

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I remade!

Hey everyone, I have a new blog now @bigheart-bigeden ! I post art and such there if you wanna keep up with some of that or if you just wanna see my stupid posts. I wanted to start over because this account had been making me increasingly uncomfortable!

I remade!

Hey everyone, I have a new blog now @bigheart-bigeden ! I post art and such there if you wanna keep up with some of that or if you just wanna see my stupid posts. I wanted to start over because this account had been making me increasingly uncomfortable!

bigheart-bigeden

I'm going to make an updated commission post soon but I am currently at the vet's with my dog midnight. They're estimating a $2100 USD bill and, while we have the money, it equates to 2 months of pay for my mom, and I'm a college student, so it will be a huge dent. I'm hoping to atleast cover some of the damage by taking commissions

Reblogs are incredibly appreciated

I'm a 21 year old trans guy who loves art, nature, and animals. I dabble in all media but my favorites are traditional watercolor and digita

God’s Own Country (2017) dir. Francis Lee

get revenge on those who wronged you by continuing to like the things you used to enjoy together, then re-contextualize and re-interpret them to suit your own personal enjoyment without worrying about what they might think. it’s yours now. reclaim your joy

Ok im gonna be for real i need a new start this account makes me incredibly scared & knowing my ex is in the same community as me and could be saying anything and sabotaging potential friendships scares the shit outta me. Im remaking I'll follow y'all

I remade and followed most of you! Mobile tumblr was weird so i had to hop on a pc but i should be in most of ur followers. If im not feel free to ask for my new tumblr

Ok im gonna be for real i need a new start this account makes me incredibly scared & knowing my ex is in the same community as me and could be saying anything and sabotaging potential friendships scares the shit outta me. Im remaking I'll follow y'all

#ramblin' cowboy

kinda gay for a man to have dark circles under his eyes. why aren't you getting a good night's sleep? too busy thinking about other men?

#once again i must reblog this and say #yes i am #and also crying

I want to be loved on purpose. I want to be worth the work that comes with loving another person and being with them. I want to be worth someone's time and effort and compassion. I want to be someone they can lean on and I want them to be someone I can lean on. Someone who will look at me and tell me it's hard now, I know you're struggling, but you're worth it and I will be here and you'll make it through and I'll be there to be happy about it with you.

I think an issue is I cling while I tend to fall for people who are avoidant. And i take everything onto myself. I feel like I have to fix things, I have to communicate, etc, all on my own. But now I'm just stepping back and letting stuff breathe and whatever happens, happens. If he decides he wants to reach out again, and talk, I'm still around. It hurts like hell but it's all I can do. For now I need to focus on me, I just came out of what often felt like a one sided relationship, and I need to see that I am worth things I wasn't given.

Even though I do cling I don't deserve to be abandoned. You shouldn't treat other people like that. You don't just abandon people when they need support.

Hopefully one day I'll find people who care about me wholeheartedly and won't run the moment I'm not doing well.

#ramblin cowboy

most of us need to be shown how to be considerate

not as a criticism or anything, I just mean that

A. being able to care for other people is a skill that’s practiced and honed

B. being considerate for each person is so wildly different, 90% of the time you will have no way of knowing how to be considerate for someone until they show you

C. you can try to get better at figuring out what people need implicitly, but all that skill really is is listening so just get better at listening

D. being good at listening and adapting on the fly is maybe the most precise definition of being considerate I can think of, so strive for that and just know you’re never gonna be a telepath

“Sometimes when you meet someone, there’s a click. I don’t believe in love at first sight, but I believe in that click.”

— Ann Aguirre

neil hilborn, a place where someone loves you / [deactivated user] / @filmnoirsbian / anne sexton / sonnet by neil gaiman / caitlyn siehl, start here

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THIS THING WAS A MASTERPIECE TIL YOU TORE IT ALL UP

I want to be loved on purpose. I want to be worth the work that comes with loving another person and being with them. I want to be worth someone's time and effort and compassion. I want to be someone they can lean on and I want them to be someone I can lean on. Someone who will look at me and tell me it's hard now, I know you're struggling, but you're worth it and I will be here and you'll make it through and I'll be there to be happy about it with you.

I think an issue is I cling while I tend to fall for people who are avoidant. And i take everything onto myself. I feel like I have to fix things, I have to communicate, etc, all on my own. But now I'm just stepping back and letting stuff breathe and whatever happens, happens. If he decides he wants to reach out again, and talk, I'm still around. It hurts like hell but it's all I can do. For now I need to focus on me, I just came out of what often felt like a one sided relationship, and I need to see that I am worth things I wasn't given.

Even though I do cling I don't deserve to be abandoned. You shouldn't treat other people like that. You don't just abandon people when they need support.

#ramblin cowboy

peace and love on earth

Your behavior is most autistic today my love

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