🎖"styromaker"🎖

[That Fran Bow shed person]

[cr1msonarms]

I will make people regret underestimating me.

I'm a menace to the whole world once I will enter my prime.

Entry 29.05.26

[cr1msonarms]

I can't do this anymore. I'm gonna cut. I'm capable of nothing, I just wanted to make myself feel powerful for once but I'm not powerful. I never was. I'm pathetic and I should die.

[cr1msonarms]

Overbinging again

Fatass

[cr1msonarms]

Wow, I am way more uglier or pretty than I thought, idk which one is true though I'm so blind to my worth that now b6 trying to be more confident I appear narcissistic, though it was never my issue. My issue is always the impostor syndrome I will not get a rid of.

Not that I surprised though. Everyone who have a stable self-worth always appear like they belong to someone who are narcissistic.

[cr1msonarms]

Wow, last time Parliament costed 9,50. Same pack (which Ig contains just as usually 20 cigs) now costed me 9,00.

I literally have some money left actually. I thought at first I'm gonna because of cigs be left with some pathetic 8 cents.

And they're long ig cuz they're just as usually don't fit into my case unless I put only 4 on each side diagonally.

I need to recount them again cuz they're suspiciously got cheaper out of blue. Not that I complain (unless I really paid 95% of my money for less cigs, like bro, I am cmoking them away too fastl

[cr1msonarms]

"Her bird is fucking dying,

do something"

Tw: severe animal neglect

My mother treats her own parrot so badly I'm tempted to just steal him for her and give him the best life, just like I always imagined for him, his own room so that he can chew whatever he wants without destroying my stuff, gorgeous big cage for resting (when I can't let him flying around for some time), bird stand for him, good nutrution, or even teach him after all these years of his around 20 or so years of existence to sit on my shoulder and go for a walks with me. He's such a gentleman I swear to God, he's such a precious good bird that literally says to your good morning and good night and never sweared even though I used to live in enviroment where after each 3rd word you WILL gonna hear a slur or a swear. He deserved better.

And now he got a yellow snot for the 2nd time because my bitch ass mother sometimes neglected him so bad his cage was FILLED with flies and those fucking midgets that I despise so much I'm gonna invent some mini flamethrower against them so that they will be not just squished, but BURNED down. And the worst is, she isn't eager to finally show him to the vet. And yet that bitch once tried to make me refuse to take my own animal with me into a new country because they lacked any documents, even though HER parrot is the only animal in this crazy family I don't want to be a part of since very long time ago, has NONE, not even fcuking vaccinations, while all animals I personally ever had did, and I always even paid mostly myself for those vet check ups and vaccinations that almost cost now for one small animal in this fuckass economy as much as a tiny laptop I wanna finally buy because my latest computer had very long since is broken (I had last time a computer around when I was 10 or younger).

Ugh... what a life. I wanna buy myself Jack'o Daniels and just fucking survive all this. I need something to supress my feelings.

[cr1msonarms]

Okay I convinced that person to actually take the parrot to the vet and it's just like I thought, bacterial infection. She's gonna be away for a few days and I promised I will take care of her parrot and give the prescripted med from the vet. I'm so glad it can be cured and I pray God that he's gonna be okay. He's such a gentleman sweetheart birdy, I lwk love him.

[cr1msonarms]

I couldn't care less about humanity. Nuke yourselves, why woukd I care

[cr1msonarms]

"Her bird is fucking dying,

do something"

Tw: severe animal neglect

My mother treats her own parrot so badly I'm tempted to just steal him for her and give him the best life, just like I always imagined for him, his own room so that he can chew whatever he wants without destroying my stuff, gorgeous big cage for resting (when I can't let him flying around for some time), bird stand for him, good nutrution, or even teach him after all these years of his around 20 or so years of existence to sit on my shoulder and go for a walks with me. He's such a gentleman I swear to God, he's such a precious good bird that literally says to your good morning and good night and never sweared even though I used to live in enviroment where after each 3rd word you WILL gonna hear a slur or a swear. He deserved better.

And now he got a yellow snot for the 2nd time because my bitch ass mother sometimes neglected him so bad his cage was FILLED with flies and those fucking midgets that I despise so much I'm gonna invent some mini flamethrower against them so that they will be not just squished, but BURNED down. And the worst is, she isn't eager to finally show him to the vet. And yet that bitch once tried to make me refuse to take my own animal with me into a new country because they lacked any documents, even though HER parrot is the only animal in this crazy family I don't want to be a part of since very long time ago, has NONE, not even fcuking vaccinations, while all animals I personally ever had did, and I always even paid mostly myself for those vet check ups and vaccinations that almost cost now for one small animal in this fuckass economy as much as a tiny laptop I wanna finally buy because my latest computer had very long since is broken (I had last time a computer around when I was 10 or younger).

Ugh... what a life. I wanna buy myself Jack'o Daniels and just fucking survive all this. I need something to supress my feelings.

[lovedotexe]

[angel--cassie]

[stitchedsewnjirai]

may jiraiblr drama never reach this blog

[wuthering-on-ur-ashes]

In the mood for going on a walk today

[wuthering-on-ur-ashes]

NEVERMIND ITS RAINING

[cr1msonarms]

YOU BRO I WOULD HAVE GONE FOR A WALK ANYWAYS I LOVE RAIN

[cr1msonarms]

Broooo why the f--- I even bought those stockings (I thought they included those cvnty belts and shi), I'm damn out of money for new cigs. I'm not even mentioning how much it costed me to finally buy that 20s style cig holder I was talkin' about in the latest posts of mine (but I really needed it otherwise there's will be no sense in smoking because I'm more burning my throat than actually enjoying and relaxing). My cigs cost 9,50 $ approx and from all the cents I have accumulated I have only straight 6,00 $, God have mercy I don' want out of desperation picking up the cigs from the street, ew.

My mother is literaly wasted a lot of money for a new furniture that doesn't look rich despite it's over 600 $ prize, wtf, they're not even some closets, they're just drawers that are half of my height.

[cr1msonarms]

I'm so tired of womanhood and all the horrors and agony I have been through as AFAB. I think I'm gonna go under transition but not in a trans way since I'm not a trans (but have only huge issues with my species) but in like self-development, becoming something greater of my own self. Plus, putting misandry aside, men are awesome. And since I'm graygender slash apagender, well.. heh, I don't care about what I have, (clarifying for universe) in the way which gender I was assigned with or what I have. Because of my body I am experienced in womanhood, sure, but my gender is overrided with personhood tho. So at some point, since I have been all my life more into things that usually left for men by stereotypes, I will be finally less shamed by everyone for my mostly lack of keeping myself pretty and stuff.

I was btw way worse at that than now because crnt I just realized how disgusting I probably looked like so I just trying not to make people uncomfortable. I still care about people, in a way.

By the waaaay... how's the new theme? (This is my the most fav aesthethically post I ever made)

[cr1msonarms]

I'm literally suffering because I'm an adult and having a bank card is so fuckass in the country I' in because wdym I have to pay 10$/m just for HAVING it? I probably will barely even manage to get money to both pay for having a bank card and overall able to finally after all these years (DECADES*) buying something, like those gorgeous gothic things or finally some clothes I actually want instead of shit that sells in usual normies nearby stores.

[darkholyangel]

[thevo1dosphere]

I GET SO PISSED OFF WHEN I ACCIDENTALLY CLOSE SOMEONES BLOG IN THE MIDDKE OF SPAMMING THEM AAAAAAA