Sad Of Trying

She | her | They Don’t mind us. Just an undiagnosed OSDD 1b system with a lot of mental issues. Also we reblog way too much fandoms post so sorry in advance. (We are legally an adult. Thank you very much)

[cravny]

We are like a fish stuck in the sky

no one knows what he’s doing there

Trying his best

Suprisingly, still alive

He’s stuck

[cravny]

Real question that i will probably never have an answer cause theres no white and black answer to that one:

If we were both children and the little boy wanted to replicate what he had seen somewhere else, is that SA?

Both of us didnt know what we were doing, how do you classify that?

[cravny]

Im stressed, im scared and i just want a hug

[cravny]

Desesperately trying to look pretty and sexy to trying to attract someone who could love me… im at that stage of desesperate

[cravny]

I wish i knew how to communicate properly

I wish i didnt freeze whenever i try to make myself food

I wish i was one of those people who can eat whatever without even having to know what it is or what’s in it

I wish i was able to postulate to places to have a job without procrastinating for 2years

I wish i wasn’t afraid i wouldn’t be able to pull up if i had a job

I wish taking a shower and brushing my teeth were part of my everyday routine

I wish i didn’t have ocd and having to ask reassurance 24h/24 or else i think i’m the worst being on earth and i’m unlovable

I wish i could love normally and not having to wait for someone else to love me and accept the fact that i can’t love them back

I wish i wasn’t insecure about everything i do and feel like i need supervision for everything

I wish my brain was just wired differently, more appropriate for this society

But it’s not and i’m just wondering why the fuck do i keep fighting

[local-lesbian-tree-demon]

they should invent a body that feels normal to be inside of

[cravny]

I wish i was a better person

I wish i could do all the things i want without being limited by time or tireness

I wish i had someone i could call home

I wish i could just always unmask and not being percieved and mean or mad

I wish i was someone else

[diippingdots-deactivated2026053]

MANGOBALL IS SO FUNNY LMAOOOO

[cravny]

Chat this is serious, im lowkey desesperate to be loved, how do i find someone who loves me romantically?

[cravny]

Im such a broken human, i’m tired of being here

[scamguy]

the few minutes between the moment u yap in someones dms and they dont answer and you feel like you should get painfully dismembered for the crime of talking to someone vs the instant relief of normalcy you get when they text back and no ones killed you yet

[cravny]

TW: rape

Its not even funny anymore, why is rape such a recurrent thing in my dreams? I don’t recall ever being touched that way irl

[cravny]

I don’t think i was meant to live that long

[cravny]

I just wanted her to reconize my pain and apologize for it… was it too much to ask..?

[cravny]

I think im too broken to know what hapiness is

[cravny]

I hope one day, someone is gonna get to know me and will be able to love me

[cravny]

At the end of the day, i’m just a broken bitch who’s trying to fix herself to fit in