Satan Lend Me A Dollar

Amymone. 22. Malleteer. Drafting student. She/her pronouns.

[starlingsongs-deactivated201608]

When trans women are mocked and made into jokes in the media, I get very upset, and I am often told “Kay, you can’t go through life getting offended every time someone makes a joke.” And I sputter and object but they don’t hear me. So I want to be clear for once, about why the jokes make me angry.

I learned to hate myself for being transgender before I knew I was transgender. I laughed at the jokes in stand up comedy routines, and prime time sitcoms, and animated comedy shows, and in the movies, and in books, and in games, laughing at trans women for existing, about “men in dresses”, about people who “got their dicks chopped off”, and I learned to think that was worthy of ridicule.

And then a day came when I felt a pang of envy at what my female classmates were wearing and I repressed it, and felt guilty, and a day where I felt incomplete because I had no breasts and I repressed it and I felt disgusting And a day when I realized the only images of romance that made me feel anything showed two women together and I repressed it and I felt like a monster And a day when I realized I felt sick when I looked at myself in the mirror after every shower before work and couldn’t bear to look at my own face, and I hated myself. And then there came a day when I hated myself so much, and I thought I could never understand why, and so I just wanted it all to end. And it was just a miracle that I swerved my car back into my lane in time.

And all of it started with a joke that I heard on TV, and then kept hearing from all the voices from the ether, over and over and over, worming an idea into my mind before I was old enough to realize I was absorbing it, the idea that a man in a dress is funny, and that changing your body parts makes you a freak, and that women who have penises instead of vaginas are liars and hurt men. And they’re still making these jokes. And somewhere out there right now, just like all those years ago, there is a little girl in a t-shirt and cargo shorts with buzzed off hair watching the TV, hearing that joke and absorbing it without knowing it, who will someday have to pry herself apart to tear it out of her head, just like I did.

That is, if she doesn’t kill herself first.

[starlingsongs-deactivated201608]

I know this is a really heavy post but if you read it and you appreciated it, I’d appreciate it in return if you reblogged it. This is really important to me and I want people to read it and understand it. Thank you.

[nevver]

Summer of Love, Marcie LaCerte

[parakeet]

[pdlcomics]

Stress

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TRAMAMPOLINE TRAMBOPOLINE

[aliencadaver-deactivated2021102]

this one’s better 😜

[blazeofgold-deactivated20190921]

has anyone else noticed there’s a very specific way women interrupt each other in conversation that’s quite distinct from the way men interrupt women in conversation? like, women seem to interject a lot more– not as a silencing tactic, but to show their enthusiasm or agreement, cause they perceive a conversation as kind of collaborative, organic exercise. but i feel like men get really annoyed if you excitedly interject when they’re saying something (most specifically in a debate/discussion context) because they perceive conversation as something combative or competitive and see an interjection as a threat or a challenge. i’ve also noticed men dismiss women’s way of talking as being sort of incomprehensible and nonsensical because of this habit we have of seeming to butt in or finish each others sentences excitably. 

[kaylapocalypse-deactivated20201]

This was actually very interestingly used in Mad Max and was a stylistic choice in the way the wives spoke to each other, or at other people as a collective.

They finished each others sentences, interjected constantly, echoed important points in reverence/understanding/agreement and relied on each other to complete the communication of a thought or a concept to someone outside their circle.  

So like, instead of one of them explaining something, they would all add fragments to form a complete thought. ____

The Vuvalini: What’s there to find at the Citadel?

Max: Green.

Toast: And water. There’s a ridiculous amount of clear water. And a lot of crops.

The Dag: It’s got everything you need, as long as you’re not afraid of heights.

Keeper of the Seeds: Where does the water come from?

Toast: [regarding Immortan Joe] He pumps it up from deep within the earth. He calls it “Aqua Cola” and claims it all for himself.

The Dag: And because he owns it, he owns all of us. _____ Capable: We are not things! Cheedo: No! The Dag: Cheedo, we are not things! Capable: We are not things. Cheedo: I don’t want to hear that again! Capable: They were her words. Cheedo: And now she’s dead! The Dag: Wring your hands and tear your hair, but you’re not going back. You’re not going back to him. ___ Interestingly, the Vuvalini do this as well. 

Everyone else in the movie (including furiosa!) speaks in short definitive statements or exclamations that cannot be piled upon or interrupted. So this was definitely done on purpose. 

its very cool.

 I wonder if this is just a thing in english/western culture or if other groups of women speak to each other like this?

[kaylapocalypse-deactivated20201]

also theirs a bunch of people in the notes fighting about “I HATE GETTING INTERRUPTED”

This isn’t so much a classic “interruption”.  like when someone talks over you to change the subject or say something unrelated or better than what you’re saying and stealing the attention from you,etc.

Its more like the person doing the interruption is expecting you not to really stop talking, or expects you to finish your thought, and is only interrupting to agree/ interject a footnote that is contributory, but not distracting.

So it would look like. Woman 1 and 2 telling a story to woman 3:

Woman 1 “We sat down and he brought out this really good green tea- Woman 2: –but it was the powder kind of green tea not the bag kind– Woman1: –yeah and he brought out these really cool whisks and let us do it ourselves– Woman 2: and Woman 1 frothed hers so much she had nothing left! Woman 3: omg did you like it? was it good? Woman 1 and 2 in unison: Yes!  Woman 1: We should go again together sometime. Woman 2- yeah I think you’d really like it too!

 See how Woman 1 is the alpha speaker (the person telling the story) and Woman 2 is the…. hype man? for lack of a better word. Every sentence that Woman 1 says is the story, and woman 2 is adding smaller clarification related details. And when she adds a dynamic detail  “had nothing left!” it is an excited interjection that continues the story, without taking ownership of the topic.  Woman 3 will walk away from this conversation feeling that Woman 1 was the expert on this situation, but that Woman 2 had a particularly exciting time.

[bakasara]

there was a study on this precisely that I read about, though I’ll need my pc to retrieve it. It was about how women tendentially see conversation as collaborative while men tendentially treat it as competitive, thus women usually interrupt to agree/interject to encourage, while men more often interrupt to talk over and/or demonstrate superior knowledge on a topic.

[you-had-me-at-e-flat-major]

The study was probably Deborah Tannen, she found that women use more of what she called overlapping speech, such as “yup”, “right”, etc. and men are more likely to change the subject. In either the same study or a similar study she found that in the case where someone such as a friend talks about a problem or negative experience or feeling, women are more likely to respond with emotional support and understanding, whereas men are more likely to try to offer practical advice, and this can lead to misunderstandings.

[crawlspaceinvaders]

My ex fb would always stop talking and look at me annoyed when I tried to overlap with him. Like can't you talk and listen at the same time?

[crawlspaceinvaders]

My Brain: Eat

Me: Okay, what should we make?

My Brain: No make!!! Only eat.

[crawlspaceinvaders]

"I hate country music.": eh

"I hate new country music because the genre has shifted from being retelling of folk tales and tales of the underprivileged working class of the American south and has now boiled down to bragging about your truck.": absolutely

[nest-deactivated20181209]

disney’s gonna release the live-action little mermaid movie and the director’s gonna do an interview for teenvogue where he says the crab sebastian is gay and everyone’s gonna laud it as the most woke moment of 2019 and a horde of 21-35 year old women on tumblr will draw human aus where he’s a young white redhead and he and king triton are fuckin’

[thechanelmuse]

Hazel Scott playing two pianos at the same damn time with ease

[erinbowbooks]

Hazel Scott was a musical sorcerer and a civil rights hero.   She:

 was admitted to Julliard at 8.  

was performing in top venues by 16.  

pioneered “swinging the classics” and made the equivalent of a million dollars a year doing it.  

was the first person of color to have their own national TV show.  

went to Hollywood but refused to be cast as a “singing maid.”  Demanded and got control over her casting, her wardrobe, and how footage featuring her was cut.  

refused to perform in segregated venues and led charges for integration in several northern cities, notably Spokane.  

She was brought down by the House Committee on Unamerican Activities, and has been largely forgotten.  But she was a sorcerer, and a hero.  

[domduongart]

@theladyragnell

[violent-darts]

Let’s un-forget her.

[officialcrow]

the white girl on your dash with bad bangs and “male tears” mugs that posts “kill all men” glittertext gifs is dating this guy irl

[bibliographic-cat-deactivated20]

i will never ever ever get over this post. i found a screenshot of it on my phone like 5 days ago and lost my shit all over again. it’s just too real

[toshio]

[weloveshortvideos]

[babyionian-deactivated20200611]

was she teleported there

[carnival-phantasm]

[megamanfour]

challenge accepted

[orchidvioletindigo]

No you don’t understand, we’ve had a massive surplus of cheese since the Great Depression. The national government was determined to maintain the dairy industry when our markets crashed and so they developed a policy of buying up surplus cheese that regular citizens couldn’t afford. 

We’ve been shoving the stuff into caves in Missouri because there’s so much of it we haven’t really had anywhere else to put it because you can’t just destroy cheese. You try to burn it and it melts. It’s so heavily processed that it doesn’t biodegrade, and it can’t be fed to animals or turned into anything else. Our only other alternatives would be to dump it into the ocean which we would absolutely not do ever since the whole medical waste thing or to launch it into space which is way too expensive.

In the 1980s Reagan began a government cheese program to distribute some of the excess to welfare and food stamps recipients. And since then we’ve had the Got Milk? campaign which was a government scheme to get the general public to consume more dairy products to help slow the stockpiling. (By the way, cow milk may not be as good for us as we’re led to believe. There’s a lot of debate in the scientific community about whether the hormones present in the milk might have a link to cancer.)

Our surplus cheese is also why so many restaurants put so goddamn much of it into absolutely everything. A division of the federal government known as Dairy Management heavily promotes any restaurants that push cheesy menu items, even as the DoA’s Center for Nutrition Policy and Promotion warns of the health risks associated with a cheese-heavy diet.

Basically the feds are conspiring to kill us all with dairy products because they got so buddy-buddy with the dairy industry in the first half of the 20th century that they’ve dug themselves into a hole and they’re paying Big Dairy too much to back out now.

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[chillyfeetsteak]

this is honestly very impressive

[nemfrog]

A baby and an adult compared as if they were the same size.  Using Modern Science. 1951. 

[glumshoe]

Thanks! I hate it.