creepie crawlie

i feed my Sloober farm fresh eggs and vegetables from my emo garden, he has acres of fields to play in it's very happy here on my farm

[creepiefarm]

creepie ⦻ its/her ⦻ 20s ⦻ marble hornets + horror

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[kayla-denker]

Hey, you, cis girl that's very (correctly) vocal about women being allowed to talk about their periods, do you include trans women in that?

I ask because every single time I've tried to talk about it to anyone that isn't a trans woman they get fucking angry. Which has caused me to have to just suffer in silence every single month. So I really relate to cis women when they talk about literally the exact same thing; being shamed by everyone around them their whole lives for talking about their periods, so they just suffer in silence every month as it negatively impacts their work and social lives. But I don't even feel like I can voice that I am literally dealing with the same exact thing because most of y'all react like you want to throw me in front of a bus for saying it, even those of you who act like your such big great transfem allies.

[kayla-denker]

I guess I'll take this opportunity to talk about trans women periods. The first thing any tme person thinks when they hear this is always "how can trans women have periods? They don't have uteruses!"

The answer is: the uterus isn't what causes your period, it is effected by your period. What causes your period and what causes trans women's periods is the same thing: the endocrine system.

HRT changes the sex of your endocrine system. Feminizing HRT makes it a female endocrine system, giving us a 28-day hormone cycle just like cis women. At the end of that cycle, the hypothalamus floods the body with prostaglandins. Those are what cause all but one of the period symptoms, because they make muscles inflame and contract. They are what make the uterus shed its lining, they are what cause intestinal cramps, they are what cause body aches, they are what cause headaches and migraines. The only period symptom not causes by the release of prostaglandins throughout the body is depression, and that is caused by your endocrine system simply not processing as much estrogen and from simply feeling like shit.

So, the only symptoms trans women don't get every 28 days is menstrual cramps, because yes we do not menstruate since we don't have uteruses. But migraines, depression, body aches, intestinal cramps, and the infamous "period shits" don't exactly add up to us having any better of a time. Except we have to pretend that we're fine and nothing is different because no one believes that we get periods, not even cis women.

"But you can't call it a period then because that refers to MENSTRUATION!" is another one I hear all the time. This is incorrect. You use the word "period" instead of just "menstruation" because it doesn't just refer to menstruation. It refers to a period at the end of the hormone cycle where we experience a host of symptoms. And not all cis women experience all of the symptoms that encompass the period. Not all cis women get migraines, or body aches, or have severe depression. If a cis woman gets a hysterectomy she doesn't menstruate either! In that instance she experiences an identical period to what trans women experience. Yet, I doubt you'd insist that cis women who've had hysterectomies don't have periods.

[kayla-denker]

Oh, another thing that I personally discovered after bottom surgery: vaginal odor changes for trans women during our periods too. I was not expecting that because I always thought it was just from menstruation. But nope, the ph levels of a trans woman's vagina are the same of as a cis woman's vagina, and it changes during our periods just the same.

[autogynophelia]

One of the ways transmisogyny manifests is in default-uncharitable interpretations of ambiguous meaning.

Last week I was at a meetup where I was the only transfem. I checked the groupchat when I arrived and there was a message from the organiser: "We have a newcomer called X, can you look out for him if you get there first?" I located X, introduced myself, sent a message to the chat say, "I have located X," and continued to talk to him until the organiser arrived. When the organiser arrived, she was not happy with me. It turned out my phone had autocorrected, "I have located X," to, "I had located X," which the organiser interpreted as me passive aggressively telling her that I had already done the thing she was asking about. Her conclusion: I was unreasonable and aggressive in responding to her reasonable request. My explaining what had happened didn't convince her otherwise.

A different occasion last week: in a local trans groupchat, a trans man sent a link to a drag event happening in our town. A few people said they were already going, some said they might go. Then a trans woman replied saying, "Thanks, but I don't really like drag." Her tone was immediately called into question. Her words were assumed to communicate: "I think you are a terrible person if you like drag," even though she never said that. Several non-transfems who had never even heard that drag might not be universally-beloved by everyone were upset to discover that fact. A trans woman simply saying she didn't like this thing became A Big Deal.

Meanwhile, at a different event again, a trans man told a group that he was straight and attracted to women, but he wouldn't feel comfortable bringing home an "AMAB woman" (yes he actually said that). It was quickly brushed over, and after he had left even trans women tried to defend him by saying "he probably didnt realise people would be offended" etc etc. In contrast to the examples above, he is not even aware that anyone was upset by what he said, never mind worrying about what consequences he might face.

Whenever I go to an event, I often spend the next 24-48 hours ruminating over every single thing I said to check if I did anything at any time that could even vaguely be construed as annoying to anyone. I have often put this behaviour down to severe anxiety, but I think I am realising that it is actually a rational response to a world where even the slightest social misstep could be blown way out of proportion and result in my later social exclusion. It's one of those things that existed long before I was aware of my own transness but while I was nonetheless transmisogynised by society, a crippling fear of the slightest imperfection that I assumed everyone else felt too but apparently they don't. I guess when other people go out of their way to smoothe over the damage your words or actions might cause, you don't need to stress about that damage because there are no consequences to it! It sounds very nice to be able to live like that.

[disoda]

a window

[sandeewithtwoe]

I love Amy she’s fun to draw :)

[a-mimic-and-a-jester]

Surreal jesskully art yippee

[creepiefarm]

Masky in the Backrooms, what will they see?

[creepiefarm]

exploring

[creepiefarm]

we went to see Backrooms last saturday :)

image id: a masky plush is held up in front of a backrooms movie poster with the words "now showing" underneath. masky plush is wearing a colorful beaded kandi necklace that reads "maky". end id

[oranye766]

Lead me to the ark.

(Happy Halloween Eve! 🦇)

[medyrick]

[aphrodite-is-tma]

okay. when we say that a transandrobro is simultaneously occupying the position of the rational male who's so much smarter than everyone else and the position of the delicate AFAB who must be protected, it's not because the transandrobro thinks of himself as occupying these positions, but rather because of how he positions us.

he positions us as simultaneously irrational women who must be controlled, with all these crazy radical opinions, and as dangerous AMAB aggressors threatening and harassing him, who are hateful and bigoted.

those are both relational social positions, that are occupied in opposition to the rational male, and to the delicate afab.

so by leveraging transmisogyny against us, THAT is how he is able to occupy these contradictory positions, regardless of whether or not he realizes he's doing it.

[jellyjampuddingg]

[crowsenjoycrime]

Saw the little Jessica plush in the corner on stream and had to draw her

[aquiboni]

(￣o￣) zzZZzzZZ

[roboremy]

Petscop

Petscop house! Outside is the Newmaker Plane, inside is Care/Paul's house on their birthday, including the bedroom Care is kidnapped from. Sorry for not having a bathroom to check. Upstairs is a representation of what happened with the windmill.

[miyunnnaise]

dance of the corpses

[angelspecimens]

Same as it ever was

[melonfiend]

ISSUE 5 TOMORROW HYYYYPE