too tired to leave

hard times enthusiast #1 genya lover ᘏ ⑅ ᘏ ഒ zᶻ ꒰˶ - ˕ -꒱ ⌒)ᦱ formerly too_tiredtomove

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i am poison in the water

——— and unhappy ————

⟡ hiii my names alyssa but i sometimes go by hayden or candy, u can use any •v• | they/she/i don’t really care, im not a person, i’m a piece of bug infested cotton candy | aroace fictoromantic ⟡

⟡ i’m 16 so please don’t be weird, i will find you and shoot you ⟡

⟡ nov 17⟡

bleeding whenever you want

⟡ this is mostly a jirai blog, i am unwell and post triggering stuff so if you deal with ed’s, csa, sui or sh or fucking anything then? idk leave. i don’t post pics and im not gonna send u any (you know who you are (·•᷄‎ࡇ•᷅ ) ⟡

currently in anorexia recovery. don’t try to purposefully trigger me (again..you know who you are), i’ll eat you too

⟡non sharing genya yumeshipper⟡

figuring out kins cause i’m not real (not irls, just relatable): jayden (short term 12), laura palmer, mitsuri kanroji, ethel cain, touya todoroki (shoto too lwk), suguru geto, janet webber, susanna kaysen, twyla boogeyman, pinkie pie

favs: ♡ genya shinazugawa ♡, mitsuri kanroji, touya todoroki, hitoshi shinso, mina ashido, katsuki bakugo, lady nagant, suguru geto, natsuki, kyoko sakura, apple jack, pinkie pie, sunset shimmer, jade west, rochelle goyle, leather face, archangel gabriel (mandela catalogue), ratthew, bucky barnes

my phone is shit and glitches a lot so sorry -.-

it’s just the way that you are

⟡ love: Ethel cain (and haydens other projects), scissors, llorommanic, winter, transmission towers, kny, Genya to an unhealthy degree, MY LITTLE PONY GAHHHHH, monster high, pmmm, bhna, dn, twd, breakcore/drum n bass, romantic goth, horror, jirai kei ⟡

⟡ hard times by ethel cain is genuinely the only thing that matters to me and i’m convinced she wrote it about me, pls listen to it ⟡

⟡ also if you message me i probably won’t respond because that’s scaryyyy but feel free! i promise im nice, just painfully awkward! ⟡

⟡ professionally recognized did, bipolar 2, bpd ⟡

⟡ diagnosed AN, autism, mdd ⟡

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⟡ pinterest: pvrasiite ⟡

⟡ ig: _tootiredtoleave ⟡

i apologize if i talk weird, idk what people mean but i tend to hear that a lot

just because im not recovering doesn’t mean im anti recovery. don’t come here with that bs

i block freely

go get a snack ml

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at the function twitching in the corner

[dakotadaytona]

It’s just not my year.

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so dads not going on vacation

not cause he’s a pedo

not cause he abused me

just so i dont relapse….thanks mom

so she can recognize being around him upsets me, so much so that i literally ⭐️ve myself, but fucking god forbid she actually believes he’s a bad person

at least he won’t be there ig

[meandmymadness12]

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i changed my url to match my theme!!! i was too_tiredtomove. not like anyone knows who i am but just fyi

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my entire life really is just me trying not to get nauseous (i’m failing)

[pmzaisamu]

If I spam you please know I'm trying my very best to show affection I'm just too socially stunted to talk like a normal person <\3

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You and Genya are canon!!!! /pos

HELL FUCKING YEAH WE ARE /lh

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maybe one day i’ll wake up normally and not be deeply afraid at 5 AM

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new hyper fixation. a re-theme isn’t enough i’m gonna start gnawing on my phone rahhhhh

i need to shake him around with my teeth like a rabid dog

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no actually my lungs work great when i sit perfectly straight and don’t move at all and try reaallyyy hard to breathe

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there’s a group of people in my head and they’re all trying to kill each other

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ooo!! alt music and electronic, right? i don't usually listen to that kind of stuff, but i'm 100% willing to if you recommend some songs! i'm a basic bitch and just listen to mitski, alex g, adrianne lenker, radiohead, cigarettes after sex, and a little bit of car seat headrest <3

fruitbat is so valid they're also incredibly cuteee!! i think i would pick a lion. they're so incredibly majestic aahhhhhgghhg!! i've also had a recent interest in snakes? so maybe a snake? i don't really know lmao!

YES! I SECOND THIS! psychology is so freaking interesting ugghhh!! i really wanted to be a psychology research assistant, and i'm definitely going to try and achieve that if i can't be a mycologist. i adore fungi <33

i saw your recent post and... i MIGHT not be fictional, nor am i a character, but i could give you a *digital* hug if you want one? if you think about it hard enough i'm basically just a jellyfish in your asks so i'm prolly really soft or something. i don't sting--i think??? if i was a jellyfish, i wouldn't sting you. so... hug? /nf

alright, i have to go to bed now!! sleep tight <33

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recommending songs is so embarassing for me lol but rn i rlly like 1444 by llwll and basically the whole ultraviolet album by usedcvnt yay hugs( っ´ `)っ good night!! <3 (also i love all those artists too lmao)

[taxidermycatgirl]

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my biggest fantasy is having fictional characters hug me and tell me i’ll be okay

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i wish my mom would trust me enough to leave alcohol out again..she still keeps it in a fucking safe

GIRL ITS BEEN A YEAR I WANNA BE DRUNK