Chaotic Scales ⚖️

Just your average mentally unstable Latina 👅

[insaneyve]

I'm not pretty, I'm not smart, I'm not interesting, I'm not funny, I'm not talented. What the fuck am I.

[cristalthekat]

If I'm being honest with myself I doubt the rest of my life is going to be happy 24/7 realistically maybe one, two at most three happy moments and then the rest of the time I'd be miserable. I've never been good at math, but if I had more sad days than happy days I'd rather just take myself out of the equation. It makes sense to me

[deathgasmic]

how it feels to be a lovergirl who just wants to be loved out loud in a "i'm going to be so casual and nonchalant about you but i want you to be obsessed with me" culture

[professionallyunstable-deactiva]

i will not die of natural causes, i will end it myself

[sapphos-roommate]

I think something is broken inside of me.

I am in love with the idea of falling in love

I want so desperately to be known

and touched

and seen

but I shy away when it is offered to me

Even when I have the courage to grip it tight

somehow it slips through my fingers

Why is it so hard for me to just be happy?

I just want to be happy.

[cristalthekat]

As my birthday approaches the few people I call friends are all too busy to spend time with me. While I understand I also feel a pang of sadness because I really enjoy their presence. Not one person noticed when I was dropping hints. I've never had someone plan something for me I've always had to plan it myself so I guess it was foolish of me to assume that because I move mountains for them, they'd do the same. I should probably just stop assuming my value in people's lives.

[cristalthekat]

Being a temporary person in someone's life is absolutely despicable

[cristalthekat]

Well that was short lived. I wonder why I always get the shitty guys. No one I'm attracted to ever treats me the right way but yet I have people I'm not attracted to showing me they'll bring me the moon and the stars if I wanted, but for some reason all I get are emotionally unavailable boys.

[lovelualdi-deactivated20240905]

"till death do us part" but death could never? if you die, i'll die with you. if you're in hell, i'd fall from heaven to be with you.

[cristalthekat]

He got me flowers 🩶

[cristalthekat]

I feel ugly and gross so it looks like I'm isolating again hooray

[wishiwasanyonelse]

I remember when I couldn’t understand why people sh.

[condemnedbody]

Sometimes killing myself doesn't feel like enough. Sometimes I think I need to be erased from history

[cristalthekat]

I feel so unloveable. I just want to know what I keep doing wrong. I thought "everybody deserves to be happy." Or am I the only exception?

[cristalthekat]

You ever wanna rip off your skin and roll around in salt because at least that will make you feel something other than worthless? No? Just me? Ok.

[insanityflopera]

In my worthless piece of shit era 😍

[stp-lying-2-urself-ur-not-hungry]

Why does hating yourself and just being alive have to be such a struggle like I constantly try to find fake happiness and it's pointless because at the end of the day I will always have to see myself in the mirror and be reminded of how much of a pathetic, f@t, ug!y wh@le I am who only finds happiness in cutt!ng and ⭐ving like b!itch I need to stop being pathetic and just get on with this sh!t I call a life and stop searching for happiness and focus on keeping myself alive because at this point I don't think I'll be capable of doing that for much longer