The Renaissance Man Made Man

I am a 24 year old, FTM, dabbler in the arts. I paint/draw, partake in photography and DIY projects. My transition, my work, my interests and disinterests reside on here for the world to see.

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My reaction to this season's 'Merica Election Coverage. Gggggooooodddd lord. I'm drinking a double shot of whiskey in that mixed drink y'all. This is ridiculous. #unitedstateselection #2016election #trumpvshillary #Canadian #ashamedofmyneighbors #disgusted #americanhitler #ftm #minority #proudtobecanadian🇨🇦

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Bought some cinnamon amongst other herbs and spices. Love the smell. Prosperity to all of you who needs it most; great to keep around the home. #cinnamonsticks #Wicca #prosperity #stockingup #cinnamonsmell

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Ginger Process Step 2: Apply le Ginger hair dye. Et Voila!! Now the only soul I got is in my sangin voice! #gingerscruff #Ginger #scruff #ftm #tattoos #tattooedguys #toplessselfie #spacers #bodymod #ifeelcute

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Had to sate that tattoo itch!! Triskel love. 'An it harm none. Do what ye will' #Triskel #Wicca #tattoos #fyinktattoos #mannyfaces #blacktattoo #tattooitch #addicted

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A good start. I doubt it will stay this neat for long Lol. Witchy shelf in progress. #Wicca #incense #dragon #booksonwicca #candlemagick #crystals #modernwitch #miniapothecary #skull

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I'm doin stuff!! #pinkhairdontcare #timeforchange #hairdye #hairstylist #ftm #scruffy #silly

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Finally! Got these in the mail. Let's see if I can't get my beard game on real quick! #beardgrowth #supplements #ftm #beards #scruff #czar #healthyhairandskin #toolongawait #onemonthsupply

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S'cuse the tired eyes. I tried a thing. #haircut #ftm #scruffy #highnakedfade #Batman #pinkhairdontcare #queer

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Right side. #alexanderkieths #tattoo #pinkhairdontcare #piercings #bodymod #ftm #scruffy #highnakedfade #new #different

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Resting her head on my thigh, I can't feel my feet Lol. So cuutee ttthhoo. #kismet #fatnfluffy #catsofinstagram #givesmekisses #kittycuddles #ftm #scruffy

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New temp. Hair y'all. Been a couple years since I had this colour. Thought it was time to bring it back. Lot has changed. #ftm #hotpinkhair #pinkhairdontcare #scruffy #queer #shirtless #hairdye #Batman #geeklife #traps #smoulder

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Loss

We all experience it. But what is it about the loss of a pet that ruins you? I've been in tears on and off since last night, and I had to hold it in until I got home just a bit ago. I have another cat in this household, though she is my dads gfs' cat, I can always count on her to comfort me when I need it.. I plopped onto the couch, already in tears, and she starts to head bump and nuzzle my face, inadvertently wiping some of the leaking emotions from my eyes. Casper is my cat. He's now 14, with a possibly cancerous tumor on the left side of his neck; bulging. He has barely eaten and lost weight, won't meow save little chuffs. He's part Siamese so that's a big deal. He's always been an old grump, but he's MY old grump. Come tomorrow we've all felt it best that he be put down, rather than try to save him, only prolonging the inevitable and obvious pain he's in. I don't want to lose him, but this is for his sake, not mine. I'm a mess, I'm crying harder than I have in years. And all I want, all I need is a hug that won't end until it's over. I have to work tomorrow, but even if I had the day off I wouldn't see him off. I know it'd destroy me. So instead of heading to bed in my own room. I sit, teary eyed, with a fat fluff ball for comfort on my side, on this couch, until I feel I'm ok enough to pass out and face the music tomorrow. I have an early morning and all I want to do is hide.

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Yyaaaa! So happy with this puppy. Better picture soon, but dis is what y'all get for now. #mannyfaces #fyinktattoos #harrypotterreference #deathlyhallows #always #nerd #geeklife #tattooedguys #bdaytattoo

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All done! Could have gone a bit lighter on the blue, but oh well. Ya like? #silverhair #oceanstormblue #haircolor #ftm #scruffy #alternativehair

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So, I fucked up my wrist at work today, gotta wear a brace. Hopefully this helps some. At least enough for tomorrows shift. #dishwasherlife #yaybrunch #brace #bumwrist #sore #ftm #scruff #irked #middlefinger #thankgodimarighty

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It's the most, depressing time, of the year.

Christmas has been hard every time since you've been gone the last 4 years. And every time it's been harder to muster any tears. You would think that a good thing though, no? Well I unfortunately disagree, since it makes me feel empty and hollow. I should be in better spirits, but my heart can never be fully mended. I'm fine enough considering, but without you my heart has descended. I love my family, my friends and cats too. But it's hard when I wonder if I'll ever love another, as much as I do you. Happy holidays to those in higher cheer. I'll be fine after some sleep. I'll still be here, Riley

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Spray paint piece for my aunt. My family does a secret Santa type thing. I of course picked my aunt Shannons name out of the hat. And I usually like to make gifts. #Christmas #present #family #secretsanta #spraypaint #art #turtle #monk #Zen #canvas #artist #DIY