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Le Saint-Motel photoshoot 2022 This place is so much fun! I'll definitely come back more prepared next time, but it was an amazing experience My dress was a loose A-line that I made shorter with safety pins and the "corset"-belt to create a more common lolita dress shape (idk the brands of the dress or the belt sadly) Headbow : Angelic Pretty Shoes : Demonia Socks : Ardène Thights : Aliexpress @lesaintmotel #lolita #halloween #gothiclolita #gothiclolitafashion #saintmotel #photoshoot #photography #montreal #japanesefashion #goth #gothic #altfashion https://www.instagram.com/p/Cp2YwhKLr3F/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

#lolita #halloween #gothiclolita #gothiclolitafashion #saintmotel #photoshoot #photography #montreal #japanesefashion #goth #gothic #altfashion

Mana-sama inspired, old school lolita day (October 2022) @euseuga dressed me, @geminishowtime and @vytalia_cosplay up and did our make up~ My waifu @coco.surprise also joined us ♡ It was the first time since 2009 that I wore old school lolita fashion, and it reminded me how much I love old school lolita ♡ Mana-Sama was my inspiration to start alt-fashion in 2003, after that I started being more inspired by other vk artist like Izam, Kazuki, Kengo, Arisu Arisugawa, etc - but it was fun to go back to the source. I had a swollen eyelid, so I had to wear an eyepatch, for once it wasn't just for the look! Hahaha #lolitafashion #lolita #visualkei #visualkei #gothic #goth #loligoth #gothiclolita #makeup #japanesefashion #eyepatch #vk #mana #manasama #malicemizer #moidixmois https://www.instagram.com/p/Cp0V8RyrRwE/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

#lolitafashion #lolita #visualkei #gothic #goth #loligoth #gothiclolita #makeup #japanesefashion #eyepatch #vk #mana #manasama #malicemizer #moidixmois

2022 It was a great year, I did gain some weight from stopping smoking, which made me a bit insecure, since it changed my face shape a little and many of my clothes didn't fit me anymore. On the second half of the year, @euseuga dressed me up in old school lolita fashion for the first time in a while, it changed something in me, I realized that I don't NEED to keep doing gyaru fashion or feel bad when I do other styles. I was feeling stuck for a while in my style and in my creativity, so realizing that nothing is stopping me from being inspired by old vk and clown again was life changing. I dont need to fit in a specific box either! So I bought some new clothes and went back to my old styles and having fun doing whatever I want again. At the end of the year, I did a parapara video project on the song Whiteness by Lareine, I was a sad Christmas tree hahaha. https://youtu.be/wJTNTThk-Ns https://www.instagram.com/p/CpuyhFTsqka/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

2020 first half - 2021 second half I was one of the "this is going to be my year!" person in 2020, because I was going to finish my therapy during the year and 2019 went pretty well, I was really motivated to do modeling and projects again. Of course it didn't go that way, and I couldn't even do it at home, because I got a horrible skin problem for 6 months + other life's problems, so for the other half I was just sick and overwhelmed basically Until the second half of 2021, where I slowly started getting my self confidence back, taking pictures of myself a little more, it wasn't easy and near the end of the year, I started wearing cute clothes and make up again like before~ I've quit smoking in november 2021 https://www.instagram.com/p/CpsGHHarmv7/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

2019 I started therapy during that year and it shows haha I started working again, did many photoshoots and modeling, went out more, life was getting better! (Brand I modeled for that year : Putré-fashion, Ghost Spaces, Spaceberry Clothing, Gamins Urbains, Cherry-line Apparel) https://www.instagram.com/p/CppzcForYIG/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

2018 My life took another dark turn during the second half of that year, but I also felt free to be myself a little more again. I did some meeting with Gyalaxie, became a huge Takarazuka fan, went to a lolita meeting for the first time in forever, and did a photoshoot with the Royals I had a haircut inspired by Majima Goro by the end of 2017, but I felt insecure about it, so I hid it under wigs until it grew long enough. I changed it to pink for a Haruno Sakura cosplay and then went back to blonde. https://www.instagram.com/p/CpndpecJT9W/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

2016-2017 I started cegep in 2016 and dropped out the next year. Yuki hareem ended, I tried to start my own gyaru-sa : Gyalaxie, but didn't quite took off like I hoped. Gyaru was still my passion of the time, I didn't do any style outside of it. In 2017, I moved to Montréal and participated in projects with the Royals https://www.instagram.com/p/Cpk5dGIrgyx/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

2015 My focus that year was finishing high school, since I dropped out, so I was dressing up less and less often outside of gyaru-sa meeting and events like anime conventions and halloween I did some photoshoot as well~ At the end of the year I made the uneducated choice of having braids, so we're going to skip those as well https://www.instagram.com/p/CpiBPTNrs5A/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

2014 My life started becoming a bit more stable, but now my lifestyle was really deeply rooted with gyaru fashion. I did a vk-inspired outfit for halloween and did my first cosplay for Otakuthon. I changed my hair twice that year (the pink and black hair are wigs) https://www.instagram.com/p/Cpft6bULq7H/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

2013 My life took a dark turn in 2013, my life was highly unstable as my mental health was and trying to find my life purpose at the same time was a nightmare. So I poured all my soul and energy in gyaru and parapara, which came in direct counter with my original inspirations (clown and vk) - many things I liked were seen as tacky/weird in the gyaru world so it was the start of me becoming more focussed on one style. https://www.instagram.com/p/CpdQ_9dLPEE/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

2012 second half Gyaru was still my main style, but I tried some different things, my lover at the time loved the same weird things I did, so it pushed me to wear things outside of gyaru fashion and still embrace my clown-vk self. https://www.instagram.com/p/CpaolYprwTw/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

2011-2012 first half Since I was accepted in the gyaru-sa Yuki☆Hareem at the end of 2010, those years revolved a lot around gyaru. The only style that wasn't gyaru related was my halloween costume of 2011. https://www.instagram.com/p/CpXqiMurBiF/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

2010 My hair were now a good length, so in February I got them back to blonde (despite everyone's disapproval), but I learned from my mistake and took good care of my hair haha Around june I started really getting into manba fashion, and tbh I'm going to skip all those pictures because I don't want to be associated with that style anymore, so those are some of the other styles I did during the year, I also did a lot of modeling for Putré-fashion that year as well! https://www.instagram.com/p/CpVFi-xrzkq/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

2009 second half More of the same, I really liked shironuri during that time but since it wasn't as popular I didn't know how to do it properly haha I just deep dived into my visual kei inspiration during that year My real hair started growing back to a good length as well (like we see in the last 2 pictures) https://www.instagram.com/p/CpS0nXrpK9Y/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

2009 first half And now we enter the clown/kanaderu otogi + kote kei era! With a better and more natural looking wig haha During that time I wore mostly kids' clothes, some lolita items and some of my own designs and self made accessories. I'll probably make a post later with all my designs and creation after I'm done with the nostalgia posts haha https://www.instagram.com/p/CpQToIAJglU/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

2008 second half Bleaching and dying my hair over and over like this made them fall, so I shaved my head - we now enter the wig era! My first wig was a really cheap blue wig from a costume store that I wore everyday haha Idk how to describe my style from that period, it was a transition between cyber vk to clown vk I guess LOL https://www.instagram.com/p/CpNc5h0r3sY/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

2008 first half Stayed in the cyber-ish vk style and I really liked dressing up as a nurse for a while too haha I said goodbye to my super long hair that year as well, making me super excited about changing my hairstyle really (too) often Started modeling around that time as well https://www.instagram.com/p/CpK95-Vr-H6/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

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