Wish I had more of it. I feel like I wasted a lot of it with certain situations and people that didn't deserve it. I'm real flimsy with it. Careless too. Perhaps I think "what the heck it's just today" then today turns into tomorrow. Then tomorrow turns into the day after tomorrow and so on. I'm going to have rude awakening it's sad to say but I just know it. I'm one of those people who learn things the most difficult way. I don't learn my lesson until I've been rocked to the core. See there's the issue right there. I know the issue but certain issues I do little to change it. Why is that? Why am I so stuck in my ways like I want to change. Or do I? I have to work tomorrow that shit is whack. I mean at least I got a job. And it's not that bad. And I no longer have the fear of it being my last run because the force may be with me in worst possible way. I need to write more I wish I could hand write this shit. But when there's a will there's a way. My shorty has a short temper and shorty ALWAYS wants attention. And I'm not giving it to shorty especially in this moment because I'm writing. I understand but sometimes shorty doesn't. We'll figure this out