One Last Kiss

I love you like an alcoholic.

[crustuu]

"I need you like I need a gaping head wound."

karl / it+its / 21 / main @gemharvest

PERSONAL SIDEBLOG!!!! SENSITIVE AND SUGGESTIVE CONTENT FOUND WITHIN!!! No minors 🔞; I rarely get notifs from people I don't know on this blog so I will vet new interactions.

DO NOT REBLOG MY VENT POSTS; I WILL BLOCK

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NOT a dedicated vent/ nsfw/ etc. blog, just a personal blog. An explicit quarantine zone of sorts. There will be all of that on here, but I have a tagging system so those who don't want to see certain things can block and stick around for the rest. Tags include:

karl.txt: talking tag

karl.art: art

karl.vnt: vents

tmi: really personal shit, usually just stuff I find weird/ gross to talk about

gore/ blood: tags to block if you don't like gore or blood

nsft/ suggestive: ditto, but for nsft/ suggestive posts; i will not distinguish more than that because it's already hard for me to understand the line between suggestive and straight-up nsft

I am OKAY with new followers & interactions with my posts (likes/ reblogs), including vents. My only boundary is I do NOT want anything tagged as a vent to be reblogged, even if I didn't disable reblogs. Anything else is fair game, I don't care, just don't reblog my vents.

Given the nature of this blog, I will talk a lot about my mental health struggles/ vent pretty openly a lot. I do not want anyone to take any of these to heart, especially by my friends; often I just need the catharsis of having something out. While writing it out completely privately helps sometimes, it doesn't always and as such I will use this for vents often. Please do block the tag I listed above if this could trigger you or anything. I do try to make sure to tag particularly triggering subjects if needed. 👍 Can tag more if any friends need me to.

Pro-recovery. I will block any anti-recovery blogs/ anyone who posts stuff encouraging things. Just because I have dips and relapses into things doesn't mean I don't find encouraging things harmful.

System; regular text posts will be tagged [fronter].txt if we know/ care to distinguish our posts. karl.txt is used as a catch-all. Pronouns.cc below if knowing who's talking is important to you:

Karl (@barnmates)

@barnmates goes by Karl and uses it/its pronouns.

Despite sometimes distinguishing ourselves on here, we generally prefer to be seen as a single person in most ways still. Not a fan of being called plural for the time being; "system" works fine. Thank you!!!

[enameledcoppergirl]

Make your haters become incubators when you wield the ovipositor of success

[crustuu]

i think i just need to stop thinking forever. life would be so much easier if i went through it in a constant fugue state. they need to give me a lobotomy.

[crustuu]

we need to remember to freshen up our beef skin after this revamp is fully done

[crustuu]

google dot come Is it normal to feel like i need to be taken out back and shot

[crustuu]

it sucks that a stress response can be the brain spitting out "i need to kill myself." it's annoying. im sat here Knowing what's stressing me out and knowing its nbd but it's still overwhelming and that jumbles in the brain and the response is "I need to kill myself." No We Don't we just need to get these final things done. and maybe take a walk.

[crustuu]

Probable autism and some flavor of dissociative disorder combine to give you a sort of hell I wouldn't wish on anyone else.

[crustuu]

also managed to pick something on our face and now its going to be bleeding for the next minute or two. ama

[crustuu]

wait FUCK we had something we needed to do

[crustuu]

thinking about guys with stubble hmmmmmmm.

[qelflinq]

post-werewolf-rampage meet-cute

[twirlingfreckles]

they call it bloodlust because it’s meant to turn you on

[mon3trs]

some of you, i think

[crustuu]

god i am so unfathomably tired

[locustsummer]

[crustuu]

The fact that the brain can just dissociate as a survival tactic is fucking bulllllllllllshit. Actually no I don't want my head to fog up the second someone sounds slightly mad at me or I have to have a serious conversation. Literally who does this help.

[crustuu]

fighting for my life to try and AT LEAST finish lining this animation. someone else in here wants to drop everything and draw pomni though. PLEASE can we lock in on this one thing PLEASE .....