coping in my own shitty way

prince - 19 - he/its - NSFW / PROSHIP DNI - i make shitty vent art sometimes - kinda stopped using tags on non art posts srry

[cry1ngpr1nce]

protecting onto The Character once again

[cry1ngpr1nce]

lets play how many times can i relapse in one night

[cry1ngpr1nce]

i know i need to isolate myself when i get like this. when i feel so horrible and miserable and angry. when i feel hatred towards anyone who isnt the pinnacle of nice towards me and gives me their undivided attention. when i feel like i want to cut myself til i bleed out or jump in front of a moving car. when i want to fucking scream at anyone or anything that mildly inconveniences me. im a fucking spoiled brat. i know why i am this way. i couldve gone through worse. people go through a lot worse. im not special. im not important. the world wouldnt be any different if i were here or not.

[cry1ngpr1nce]

eugh.

[cry1ngpr1nce]

i cant even make it a day now. fuck

[buck-forever]

[cabi-leodrann]

That's a big boy right here. Vent post I did a while ago, finally felt the courage to post it I hope it'll reach the people who needed to read this. Edit: Took my sweet time to do it, because I kept forgetting- But the original comic that inspired this one has been found! Thank you very much!

[itsemobunny]

Being passively suicidal is funny as fuck like yeah i don't plan on doing anything and knowing me i never will but the idea of a gun to my head sounds really fucking good right now.

[musteliddisco]

i really dislike being vulnerable, as said in this piece, but im hoping someone else feels the same as me and knows they arent alone

[cry1ngpr1nce]

i can smell his deodorant from under my door and im asthmatic and its suffocating me this is beyond poetry

[cry1ngpr1nce]

finally looked at what she might've replied to me with and i see 4 messages and "i guess goodbye" fuck man

[cry1ngpr1nce]

guy who was groomed on discord when he was 12 voice: will you be mad at me if i use one of my blankets instead of shivering pathetically in bed. i dont deserve the warmth because i got upset with you

[kineticallyanywhere]

about anger

[cry1ngpr1nce]

realisations that you're not a good person, and the realisation you cant do anything about it.

[cry1ngpr1nce]

the yields of a mentally stable man (i should know. im mentally stable)

[cry1ngpr1nce]

how did my morning go? glad u asked

- midnight - 1am, hang out with friend til she falls asleep. not tired

- 2am - 6am , fuck about, get upset over small shit, chat to bf

- 6am , boyfriend wants to talk ab shared abuser, says its fine to talk ab them (lie), he asks if im sure and i say idgaf

- "but iii gaf'

- doesnt vent but i still try to help

- 6:30am, he goes to bed

- 6:45am, vent about the friends of server G in server H

- everyone says these guys suck

- reaaallly unload months of pent up frustration and pettiness

- namedrop a guy

- owner of H threatens to ban bc of his paranoia

- shit.

- realise i was splitting on server G and i dont want drama and actually i still want to be their friends

- 8am, get breakfast and talk to friends mum

- 9am, get home, get dressed, grab wallet and start walking to town

- buy boxcutters

- walk to sainsburys to buy cookie mix

- they dont have cookie mix

- walk to tesco and buy cookie mix

- also donuts

- pay and leave

- eat 4 donuts (1000cals) on the way home so fast you feel sick and think about how youre gonna fix what i did during my pychotic break

- get home

- write this post

- cut <3

[cry1ngpr1nce]

i am excited tho. i get to cut with fresh blades that are made for cutting and not sharpening on pretty much unscarred skin

the past few days have been so shit, this better get me the relief i need

i might even grab sum sharpeners while im in tesco

[cry1ngpr1nce]

briefly looked @ the blade on the way to tesco to get cookie mix and its small but looks pretty sharp. its been so long since i used box cutters tho. year 10?? maybe even year 9??