Crybaby Milky @crybabymilky - Tumblr Blog

･°˖✧˖°･˚₊‧꒰ა ☆ ໒꒱ ‧₊˚･°˖✧˖°･ ── ⋆⋅☆⋅⋆ ── ☆ ── ⋆⋅☆⋅⋆ ── ~˚✧。𝕟𝕒𝕞𝕖: ℂ𝕣𝕪𝕓𝕒𝕓𝕪 𝕄𝕚𝕝𝕜𝕪 ~˚✧。𝕟𝕚𝕔𝕜𝕟𝕒𝕞𝕖: 𝕄𝕚𝕝𝕜𝕪 𝕠𝕣 ℂ𝕣𝕪𝕓𝕒𝕓𝕪 ~˚✧。𝕡𝕣𝕠𝕟𝕠𝕦𝕟𝕤: 𝕊𝕙𝕖/ℍ𝕖𝕣, 𝕗𝕚𝕟𝕖 𝕨𝕚𝕥𝕙 𝕒𝕟𝕪 ~˚✧。𝕒𝕘𝕖: 𝟚𝟚 𝕚𝕟 𝕕𝕖𝕖𝕣 𝕪𝕖𝕒𝕣𝕤 ~˚✧。𝕘𝕖𝕟𝕕𝕖𝕣 𝕒𝕟𝕕/𝕠𝕣 𝕤𝕖𝕩𝕦𝕒𝕝𝕚𝕥𝕪: 𝕄𝕥𝔽, 𝕡𝕒𝕟𝕤𝕖𝕩𝕦𝕒𝕝,

~˚✧。𝕡𝕠𝕝𝕪𝕒𝕞𝕠𝕣𝕦𝕤 ~˚✧。𝕚𝕟𝕥𝕖𝕣𝕖𝕤𝕥𝕤: ℂ𝕦𝕥𝕖 𝕥𝕙𝕚𝕟𝕘𝕤! 𝕄𝕪 𝕓𝕠𝕪𝕗𝕣𝕚𝕖𝕟𝕕𝕤! ~˚✧。𝕗𝕦𝕟 𝕗𝕒𝕔𝕥: 𝕋𝕙𝕖 𝕔𝕦𝕥𝕖𝕤𝕥 𝕕𝕖𝕖𝕣 𝕚𝕟 𝕥𝕙𝕖 𝕗𝕠𝕣𝕖𝕤𝕥 ~˚✧。𝕥𝕣𝕚𝕘𝕘𝕖𝕣 𝕨𝕒𝕣𝕟𝕚𝕟𝕘𝕤: 𝕋𝕙𝕖𝕣𝕖 𝕨𝕚𝕝𝕝 𝕓𝕖 𝔹ℙ𝔻, 𝕥𝕣𝕒𝕦𝕞𝕒𝕔𝕠𝕣𝕖 𝕒𝕟𝕕 𝕖𝕒𝕥𝕚𝕟𝕘 𝕕𝕚𝕤𝕠𝕣𝕕𝕖𝕣 𝕔𝕠𝕟𝕥𝕖𝕟𝕥, 𝕓𝕖𝕨𝕒𝕣𝕖! ── ⋆⋅☆⋅⋆ ── ☆ ── ⋆⋅☆⋅⋆ ── ･°˖✧˖°･˚₊‧꒰ა ☆ ໒꒱ ‧₊˚･°˖✧˖°･

Me and the pookies. source

I'm being really childish and avoid Pup but I'm really really scared. He hasn't spoken to me since our fight months ago, he wont ask to see me, he wont ask to talk to me. I know everyone is right and I should just dump him but I'm so scared.

He said he has no idea if he can love someone romantically, but I was the closest he's ever gotten. I really really love him, I felt so happy and so safe. I don't feel happy or safe anymore. I don't think he wants a girlfriend, I think he wants a pet. But he refuses to tell me anything, and now I've found out not only has he been doing drugs but it hasn't been for just a week, its been for months. He's been lying to me for months.

He hates physical touch, he can barely tolerate holding my hands. And now I think of that time he just suddenly made out with me and I'm terrified. If i hadn't of froze up, if I hadn't kept turning my face away, what was going to happen? Was he sober? He'd already lied about drinking in my house that day. He'd already lied about communicating with me. What if he hurt me? What if he was stoned or drunk?

He could have hurt me.

I could have hurt him if I didn't know and let it keep going.

I hate myself for not knowing anything. What kind of girlfriend is so untrustworthy her boyfriend can't tell her he's struggling? I have to force it out of him, I have to beg and threaten. But he tells my cousin so easily.

He's always had a crush my cousin. I'm so fucking stupid. What do I even do now?

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