More than words. Less than poems.

[crypther]

Drank coffee to pull an all-nighter and do something productive. Ended up doing the following:

 - chatted with my ex

- skip-watched a k-drama

- obsessively searched about diabetes online

- thought of having my blood sugar tested 

- blamed my job for my life style choices

- self pity

Haaaah. coffee is unhealthy i think

[crypther]

Saying this for the nth time: Self-care should not be seasonal. And yet I;m still with this soul-draining job.

[crypther]

Just realized how much my job is taking toll on my life style, and eventually to my physical and mental health wellness. 

[crypther]

So if I get tested, and it turns negative, I’m probably hypochondriac. That’s a shift from a physical health issue to a mental one. 

If i get a positive, I’m probably a sane diabetic ;)

Life is great!  

[crypther]

I should probably get tested alone

Options:

(1) Ask my grandma to come with me - No, she has enough health issues of her own. You’re not making her health better, so don’t make it go worse.

(2) My mom - Same reason in (1). Plus you don’t really feel comfortable doing that, do you? Quit the pretense.

(3) My brother - He has enough university student issues to deal with, don’t bother him. He has everything ahead of him, unlike you, so don’t be a drag.

(4) My dad - You never gave a centavo for his cataract treatment so why would you deserve his company on a time like this? You’d probably die of guilt as his unhealthy eyes stare at you with concern.

(5) The guy you’re so obsessed with but doesn’t feel the same way towards you anymore, but talks to you quite consistently anyway a.k.a. the first and last (?) ex-boyfriend - DO YOU REALLY THINK HE CARES ABOUT YOU AT THAT LEVEL???? GURL???

(6) The female best friend - Yes, maybe her. But she will have to take a day off from work. She’s on the early part of her career, so no. And what if she declines? That will surely suck. 

I wish my little sister can grow up now. It’s comforting to think that I have a dependable friend in my 10-year old sister. But what burden would it bring to her to see me at my weakest.

It’s probably too late to get insured. Yes, you, insurance people in facebook and linkedin. Yes, you are right.

I should probably get tested alone. Diabetes is manageable, anyway. Here’s to hoping that this is all hypochondria.

[crypther]

At 3 am, my dilemma is on whether or not it is okay to get tested for diabetes alone. At 22, these are the kind of things that triggers my tear ducts.

[crypther]

My grandma is a seamstress and so is my mother. While my grandma sews at home, my mother does so in a factory setting. I think they never saw the beauty of their way of making a living, how they actually create things using their hands.

They never wanted me to be like them. They wanted me to take the corporate path.

And I did.

But I think the craftsman in me never died. From childhood to high school, I made barbie dresses from scrap cloth. In college, I think I never had time for crafts.

But now, I’m christmas break readyyyy!

[crypther]

And I know loving him has taught me something about myself, it has broadened my understanding of the world. And if it has done the same for him, then it wasn’t all in vain. -Lang Leav just being so right again 🙂

[crypther]

Tinry ko na tumingin sa iba, Sa nerdy, sa good boy, sa borta. Pero sa dulo, Ikaw pa rin. Ikaw pa rin ang pagkakamaling gusto kong ulit-ulitin.

[crypther]

A realist can write poems too.

[crypther]

What if human energy becomes consumable and "non-renewable"?

[crypther]

"The LIFO formula, which had been allowed prior to the 2003 revision of IAS 2, is no longer allowed."

So First-in First-out na diba?

Pero bakit?

Bakit kung nauna akong mahulog noon,

hindi ako maunang makalimot ngayon?

(baka Specific Identification Method. Haist)

[spilledart]

“And I miss you. Not in the sense that you were once in my life and managed to disappear; but in the sense I never had you. I never felt your lips touch mine, or your heart beat loudly as I lay on your chest. These are things I’ve known I’ll never be whole without – things that leave me missing you. Missing the thought of what we could have been. Missing what we never were.”

a forgotten lover (via spilledart)

[crypther]

I wish I am taking this much health risk and sacrificing so much family time for something I am truly passionate about. Yeah, this is what happens when an artist at heart takes the corporate life instead.

[crypther]

Lang Leav's words being right as usual 👍

[kristensnotebook]

[crypther]

Bumili ako ng gelato Overpriced, naikwento ko sa'yo Sabi ko sana T-ice na lang Para sana stress ay bawasan Sabi mo i-try ko yung smirnoff Pero nung tinanong ko kung bakit, may extra ka na namang sagot. Ang sabi mo, nung nagkita kayo ni Agajona At tanging "Uy" lang ang sinabi nya Inubos mo yung stock nyo ng smirnoff sa ref Kasi besh ang shaket Pero kunwari cool ako Sabi ko, siguro kahit kape di ka uminom, nang ang iniisip mo ay ako. Pero sabi mo mali ako. Naalala mo. Ex naalala mo. Nung pinagtimpla kita ng kape, haha Nung tayo ay nasa simula pa, Nasobrahan ka sa empi, ayun bagsak ka 😂 At tinimpla ko ang pinakamatapang na kape... ~ ~ Ala-ala. Oo, alam kong wala na. Di mo na ako gustong mahalin Kahit ilang ulit ko pang hilingin. Pero sana pwede namang ngumiti Kapag naaalala ko ang masasayang sandali.