Crypt in a Mind of Flame

DID system. Lycanthropy. Dark thoughts.

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I feel like some of you need to hear this:

Just because you don't feel human, doesn't mean you shouldn't treat your body human. That doesn't mean you can't feel that way. It doesn't mean you can't do things to make you feel at home in your body.

It means you should do things that make your body feel good. The human body isn't made for the life of other species. But also it definitely isn't made for the life society tries to put us into.

Maybe find things you like about your body. Then care for those things so they become the best version of themselves. You will too. You like your hair? Look into hair-care! (That's the easiest one I could think of. For other things you might need to get creative. But hey, that's something humans are made for! Creativity!)

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Halloo. Hot take: Deities live in symbiosis with humans.

They make each other's lives better.

Aber von nichts kommt nichts - Austrian saying for "if you give nothing, you get nothing".

Deities live from connection and they get weaker when connections get weaker. Also deities didn't create us as it's told in the stories. They did create us some other way.

Your connection to a deity shouldn't be "Ohhh I love you I give you everything I have so you like me my respect is nearly fear". It's really more like symbiosis. You should be respectful, yes, but don't fear them. They can do powerful things that can in theory be bad for you. But if you are respectful and communicate like you would with your loved ones, they are more likely to respond kindly than if you treat them like some higher majesty.

Of course they're still of higher rank than you but that doesn't mean you have to treat them like some king or queen.

Deities are powerful but you come first in your own life.

If they want to have contact, they will reach out to you. You just have to read the signs. And they will accept you as you are even if you don't accept yourself. They still don't want you to do harmful things of course.

When it comes to offerings, and you want to give something special but the only way to get it is by violating the deity's values, don't offer it. Even if you betray your own values. The deity won't like it, if you do something bad to strengthen your connection to them. Their values are important to them.

If you have symbiosis with some nature related deity, do not under any circumstances harm nature in their name!

~Merton, Shapeshifter Alter

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In nature I grow tired quickly. I'm always stressed. That's because I can't express emotions right. I think I feel safe in nature. I know nature can be dangerous. I know nature kills. I know nature doesn't trust humans anymore. I still feel safe in nature and I trust her in ways I wouldn't trust mankind. I don't feel safe in my own bed. I'm restless. In nature I feel peace. I feel like I could just fall asleep. But I know, what happens if I do. The cold will take me and I won't wake up again. Maybe death isn't such a bad choice though. Still I want to stay alive as my instincts tell me to. I know life is a chance and if I throw it away I'll pay the consequence. I heal. Healing is a long and hard process. I'll make it through. I heal.

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"Well, see, you're not the only one who thought about that and tried to find a solution. People have been trying for decades now."

"Why did they only think and not do something? Why haven't they found a solution by now?"

"Because there is no solution. It's just how it is."

"But there has to be!"

"Well, good luck finding one then."

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being a fictive means looking up character playlists of yourself on Spotify and being appalled by the song choices 😐

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Yeahh like an Ellie Williams playlist! Our Ellie likes "Through the valley" and "Hayloft II", but songs in a Joel Miller playlist fit her better than songs in the average Ellie Williams playlist. Though we found a few really good ones!

OMG imma continue watching The Last Of Us with Ellie! She doesn't talk very much while watching but she cried when Joel died and she constantly says she's gonna kill Abby (we didn't watch everything yet). Oh and sometimes she makes comments that are completely in character :)

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Often I'm like: Am I the only one who cares if humanity survives this dystopia?!

And then I get the irony. Because I'm not human. I hate humans, I hate society. But I care about human cultures, human rights, human lives.. I care and I'm not human. They don't care but they are.

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Did you guys know, wolves could be talented in Maths?

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All my wolves begin to howl, wake me up the time is now. Can you hear the drumming? There's a revolution coming!

Revolution - The Score

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That is society. It's a conservative rule system that thinks it can control everybody. It hasn't been exactly nice to us but it still thinks we can become friends.

This is us. We are individuals who can't adjust. We hate coservativeness and we won't be controlled. We want freedom. We can get it in many different ways but all of the easy ones seem to end with us being lonely. We hate loneliness.

We want a community. Some of us will call it a pack.

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I will need an angelkin to help me out. I am an angel. An alter in a DID system. But I don't remember. I will remember with your help. Write me.