all i wanted was to be safe

[blackleatherchrist-deactivated2]

[lavenderlemniscate]

feels like im always recovering. when do i get to live

[lavenderlemniscate]

"it's okay to rest for as long as you need from burnout" how long is it actually going to take though. there's stuff i wanna do.

[sioltach]

[enyasellamaba]

[cryxngxnrxd]

I am in a bathtub slowly i turn the knob. there's a crowd cheering me on. My clothes are drenched and my hair is wet but the crowd pulls out their notepad and start jotting things in it. The water fills the tub. I am jolted by the sound of someone clicking their pen. I instantly grab the hairdryer, 2 girls rush over to me and shush and coo as they gently take the electronic device from me. Someone shows me their notepad— my squandered dreams.

[cryxngxnrxd]

Wow recovery is so fucking hard sometimes. Like yea i am actually more comfortable being myself and assertive of the things i like n dont like. Then BAM, I get a reminder of what i felt when i was 19 and i am actually going to create a makeshift gun

[bloodswan223]

[roomsick]

[cryxngxnrxd]

Honestly im scared of going back to the hospital. What if they weigh me again. What if. I just hate it. I dont want to do that ever again.

[wowlookwhosspirallingagain]

bpd is feeling nothing and everything at the same time

[wowlookwhosspirallingagain]

the “i wanna go home” never leaves my head even when i’m physically sitting in my bed

[stupidbpdb1tch]

Ppl see me all peaceful and calm, they don't know that my mind is thinking about different ways to kill myself 24/7

[1anonyymous1]

In the mood to delete everything and go missing .

[gruesomeghost-b0y]

Relapsing feels so good, the rush of it all and the relief of not holding it in anymore

[kehoeni-deactivated20230929]

My guardian angel is constantly whispering "whaaat theeee fuuuuuck"

[plumslices]

Im aware of it all unfortunately

[greelin]

what’s really cool about spending a vast majority of your life in Survival Mode is that you forget what personhood means completely and you have no clue who you are, at all, but especially outside the realm of what other people say about you and do to you. they don’t tell you this.