Mary

[stupidbpdb1tch]

I've been feeling so empty lately... Like... Damn...

[stupidbpdb1tch]

Hi, so also bpd, I’m just wondering if you’ve been Medicated at all? I know how hard it is to live with this disability. It’s not easy, but I will say there is a light at the end of the tunnel. I made it there, and I hope you can too because I don’t want to see others like myself take the path to no return when I’ve learned what I’ve learned. There are still hard days, but I’ve made it so far as to not let my mind be in control. I don’t know how old you are, but I’m in my mid 30s now. I didn’t get diagnosed until I was 30 and at my worst. It feels like everything and everyone is against you, and the paranoia could eat you alive. Your own brain is the enemy half the time if not all of the time. I am sure this sounds like preachy or whatever, but I just wanted to give you some home from one borderline to another. I still crave human connection in a way others don’t understand because of the abandonment, but I’ve found those who appreciate the type of love and caring I give who don’t take advantage of it. I learned my boundaries and my worth, which sometimes is still hard to keep in mind that I have so much worth and value in this world, regardless of how small others have made me felt. You do too. ❤️

Thanks for your words. That's really sweet and I appreciate you sharing your story and telling me there's the possibility of a brighter future...

Yes, I'm medicated and I'm not proud of saying that I've stopped medication by myself a lot of times... And I've got so many therapy sessions with different psychologists but I always end up giving up...

I'm so glad you're doing well and you're capable of finally seeing some light in the dark.

[stupidbpdb1tch]

Failing a suicide attempt after so many... I can't even do this one single thing right...

[stupidbpdb1tch]

At the end of the day, I always end up all alone on my own... Way too many people saying they'll be there for me but yet I'm still here crying alone

[stupidbpdb1tch]

I know it is a permanent solution for a temporary problem... But 12 years is not so temporary tho...

[mistermachoman]

the worst part about moodswings are when i know i'm being irrational over something so i have to sit there and seethe.

[hitorinori]

La terapia y las pastillas ya no son suficientes, matenme o borrenme la memoria.

[stupidbpdb1tch]

I wish I could kill myself as easy as dying for a silly accident like slipping in the shower

[youlookkindadead]

bitches with bpd be like : are you mad at me??? (worrisome)

bitches with npd be like : are you mad at *me*?? (accusatory)

bitches with aspd be like : Are you mad at me? (curious)

bitches with hpd be like : omg are you mad at meeeee (teasing)

[stupidbpdb1tch]

Just had like 4 panic attacks today, all of them caused by my mother

[stupidbpdb1tch]

I hate fitting in the toxic trait of BPD stereotype. Especially because I'm way too conscious it's not ok to think like this, to feel like this and to act like this. I try my best to hold it and mostly just keep it to myself so I don't hurt the other person. But I'm genuinely feeling like I'm gonna explode at any time soon

[stupidbpdb1tch]

Is it that hard to just notify when you're not doing well and need some time and space instead of just disappearing?

I know it's kinda selfish and it's wrong maybe... But I need to convince my mind you're not ghosting me or you didn't get tired and bored of me.

[stupidbpdb1tch]

Having a favorite person is literally a living hell for both sides... Like-

First. What do you mean my whole mental stability relies on one single person...

And second. What do you mean one single person has the burden of keeping me stable...

[stupidbpdb1tch]

Like fr... That person is allowed to not talk to me 24/7. Why can't my brain understand that that same person has its own life and bs to deal with and probably has nothing to do with me

[stupidbpdb1tch]

Having a favorite person is literally a living hell for both sides... Like-

First. What do you mean my whole mental stability relies on one single person...

And second. What do you mean one single person has the burden of keeping me stable...

[stupidbpdb1tch]

I urgently need to switch off my mind.

[macabrevampire]

all it ever takes is one thing to set me off and I instantly turn to suicidal ideation

[stupidbpdb1tch]

"Your mom does love you… She just doesn’t know how to handle stress, and maybe she feels comfortable enough with you that she uses you as a place to dump all that stress."

Replace “your mom” with “my partner” and everyone would scream at me to cut off that relationship immediately.