thursday 4th august 2016 5.42pm-ish
well shit ive purged like 10 times today ive been sticking my fingers down my throat whenever i feel anxious and puking helps i ate a single cracker just to throw it up and i feel pathetic i cant tell anyone that im feeling like this but the sink is clogged with vomit and i dont know what to do i think im going to purge and then get anything i'd want in hospital onto the table in case i relapse tonight and need stitches i really want to hurt myself and there is nobody i can talk to about it, lex is the only one that gives a fuck and he doesnt even give a fuck anymore i asked ally when she'd be home but she hasnt replied and i feel like she doesnt care

















