Definition: A rather serious, often chronic disorder which can result in long-term disability to perform basic daily tasks. Caused by either momentary or prolonged exposure to Benedict Cumberbatch. Symptoms include dazed smile, excessive salivating, frequent daydreaming and occasional emotional outbursts. So far no cure has been found. Thank goodness for that!
this is so crazy you guys don’t understand… actually i’m sure a lot of people understand perfectly but… it’s like slowly slowly something is awakening deep inside me… i feel the blood slowly rushing to my cheeks… i feel my smile growing wider… it’s hitting me so very slowly how fucking insane this OH MY GOD
I put off writing this for the last twelve hours, but I have no choice now, and I can't sugarcoat it. I was braced to move into my car indefinitely tomorrow, with my plan to park at various McD's, Dunkin's, and the Barnes & Noble in town, hanging out inside so I could have bathroom and electricity access, to keep my phone charged. Had a wee errand to run today, but my car wouldn't start. Long story short? I can't move my car anywhere now because the alternator died. Estimates for replacement & labor are $500-$1,000. So basically, I'm screwed.
I got two nights grace from a relative who can't really afford it, to allow me a couple nights more in a room before I'm out on the street. There's no way I can live in my non-working car in the motel parking lot. To try to walk to the nearest public restroom as needed is out of the question with my heart condition, let alone the heat. I'm nearly out of time and nearly out of hope. So here I am again, begging for the kindness of strangers--honestly, I'm so worn down by the Struggle to Survive, there are moments I just want to lay down, fall asleep, and not wake up.
Hey, but don't worry, I could never take my own life. First, because as I'm sure I've mentioned, I'm the most stubborn b*tch that you might ever meet. And more importantly, there's this quote that has stuck with me my whole life since reading it in my teens, from Samwise Gamgee in The Two Towers:
"...but where there's life, there's hope..."
Yeah, a Hobbit's wisdom. Tolkien's wisdom. Keeping me hanging on by a silver thread.
Anyway, if anyone can help, I'm setting the goal at $600, fingers crossed the job can get done, and soon, for less. Amen, Lord. AMEN. And bless anyone that answers this plea!
$0/$600
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As of Saturday, 4-11, I will be staying & sleeping in my car indefinitely; not the best situation with my health issues, but I'm out of options. My plan is to park at a strip mall that has a grocery store, a Dunkin's, and a McD's. I can probably get a hot tea at either place, and sit inside a few hours at a time. The toughest time will be 2-6am, when everything is closed. I'm on two powerful diuretics (to stave off fluid retention) because of the issues with my heart, and not having access to a bathroom that long is going to be problematic.
I got barely any response to my last help post, so I'm just paring it down with the hope it might help get this noticed.
I'm still on medical leave for my heart conditions; I'm at 45% heart efficiency (I don't think that's the exact technical term) & on six types of meds, several of which have side effects that keep me sidelined. My Cardiologist is trying to manage my conditions via meds & lifestyle adjustments, but he truthfully feels I will need a procedure sometime down the line. I finally got to see a Primary Care Physician last week who has forwarded paperwork to Walmart's leave approval company, and hopefully--finally--I'll get approved and can apply for State medical leave coverage. That has a 2-week window, and you can't apply again once you've been declined, so the timing is everything, and the Walmart end has to be thoroughly completed before I can turn to the State. Fingers crossed, it'll be May for a start date to collect 60% of my lost pay.
I'm praying this is the last time I'll need to plead for help. I know I've probably exhausted most of the good will extended to me here, I hate doing this, and I don't want to do it anymore. I'm setting my goal at $900, but I know that is nearly impossible. Still, hope guides me as it has from the start, and the worst that can happen is a no-go. Any help that anyone can manage would be as heaven sent.
$70 / $900
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As usual, I'll be reblogging this periodically, so if you'd like to avoid seeing it repeatedly, you can block the tag #coping with homelessness. Any signal boosts of this post will be greatly appreciated!
I've been very blessed to have raised $800 of my $1,000 goal (thanks especially to a couple of extremely generous friends here) for the month of April, and I'm still hoping to make up the difference. Unfortunately, I haven't been granted short-term disability pay yet, as my PCP hasn't faxed the paperwork justifying my medical leave to Sedgwick (Walmart) yet. I've been on the phone with the doctors office three times this week alone, and verified even yesterday that they had it in their hands, but hadn't filled it out yet. Walmart gave me a deadline of May 1st, and I'm frantic to meet it!
In the meantime, I'm going to reblog this in the hope of getting to the finish line soon.
$800/$1,000 leaving
$0 / $200 to go
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_Benedict Cumberbatch explored the world of Coral Gardeners, whose work is supported by SEA BEYOND, the project by Prada Group in partnership with UNESCO.
As of Saturday, 4-11, I will be staying & sleeping in my car indefinitely; not the best situation with my health issues, but I'm out of options. My plan is to park at a strip mall that has a grocery store, a Dunkin's, and a McD's. I can probably get a hot tea at either place, and sit inside a few hours at a time. The toughest time will be 2-6am, when everything is closed. I'm on two powerful diuretics (to stave off fluid retention) because of the issues with my heart, and not having access to a bathroom that long is going to be problematic.
I got barely any response to my last help post, so I'm just paring it down with the hope it might help get this noticed.
I'm still on medical leave for my heart conditions; I'm at 45% heart efficiency (I don't think that's the exact technical term) & on six types of meds, several of which have side effects that keep me sidelined. My Cardiologist is trying to manage my conditions via meds & lifestyle adjustments, but he truthfully feels I will need a procedure sometime down the line. I finally got to see a Primary Care Physician last week who has forwarded paperwork to Walmart's leave approval company, and hopefully--finally--I'll get approved and can apply for State medical leave coverage. That has a 2-week window, and you can't apply again once you've been declined, so the timing is everything, and the Walmart end has to be thoroughly completed before I can turn to the State. Fingers crossed, it'll be May for a start date to collect 60% of my lost pay.
I'm praying this is the last time I'll need to plead for help. I know I've probably exhausted most of the good will extended to me here, I hate doing this, and I don't want to do it anymore. I'm setting my goal at $900, but I know that is nearly impossible. Still, hope guides me as it has from the start, and the worst that can happen is a no-go. Any help that anyone can manage would be as heaven sent.
$70 / $900
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As usual, I'll be reblogging this periodically, so if you'd like to avoid seeing it repeatedly, you can block the tag #coping with homelessness. Any signal boosts of this post will be greatly appreciated!
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