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[totallysilvergirl]

Solace and Joy, Ch. 102: With this ring

(Fluffbruary, July 14, 2026)

Summary: John and Sherlock marry without witnesses, church, or state. [This continues Ch. 100, which is short enough to reread if you ... you know. Ch. 103 will be ]

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I grasp Sherlock’s elbows, not his hands, which I watch startle and then settle. In the millisecond before I open my mouth to speak, a hundred memories push in to stop time.

His hands on his violin, on the bow. His calluses, known by touch and by heart.

His hand cuffed to mine in the most terrifying chase of our whole, terror-rich career.

His hands gripping mine when we strain and thrust to melt the boundary between us.

His hands newly scoured by some caustic chemical or other, the small wounds a matter of indifference to him but not to me.

His hands, dexterous as a magician’s (illusionist, John, he’d say impatiently, magic isn’t real), quick and precise as a surgeon’s.

His hands, the unseeing version of those mercurial eyes: both are like no one else’s, hungry for data that they can shuttle to the sense-making organ faster than most people can even register its presence.

read the rest of Ch. 102 on AO3

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The @fluffbruary prompts for June were grove, arbor, and formal, and a glorious patch of crocuses. June blew past me so um here we are.

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[versegm]

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[dduane]

Just a reminder about settings best turned off over at Instagram

To keep your stuff from being scraped by / remixed with AI.

…ETA, for those wondering: it’s possible that if your account is private, you won’t have these. Mine’s public and needed to have them turned off, so at least some folks will still be seeing them.

[lisbeth-kk]

Sherlock fandom. TW: canonical suicide, blood, depression.

It Was My Fault

Somehow, I can’t shake the feeling that I was to blame for Sherlock’s suicide. I should have observed more carefully. When I think about our last encounter – before the roof incident – God, I was so angry with him! But now, I’m able to peel away his obnoxious behaviour and to see how anxious he was. He already knew what he was about to do next - once he got me to leave - and it must have terrified him. Even the great Sherlock Holmes couldn’t have been indifferent to jumping from a building to his inevitable death.

“You have blood on your hands, Watson. His blood.”

This is a mantra I tend to torment myself with when I wake from a nightmare; a horrible dream where I see him fall in slow motion to prolong my agony. When I finally reach him - no one stops me this time - I place my palms on his beautiful face, wipes away the blood, closes his eyes, and pecks his lips.

“Sleep tight, Sherlock. I love you. I’m sorry.” I whisper in his ear.

The dream always ends with people appearing to take him away. I fight them like a tiger, but to no avail.

I wake with his name on my lips, tears streaming down my cheeks, and my heart shatters once more.

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He looked like twelve that day – his last day on Earth. Just like he did the first time I met him. Seen in hindsight, something was different, though.

There was a bone deep sadness in his features when he played with the stress ball as if he’d realised how I and his other friends would react once they realised that he was dead. And yes, he did have more than one friend; I was just one of many. 

Mrs Hudson, for starters. In fact, she was more like a mother to him. She grieves as if she were, for sure. 

Then there’s Greg, Molly, Angelo, Wiggins, Mike; his entire homeless network, for goodness’ sake! Not to mention everyone who owed him a favour; there must be dozens, if not hundreds.

And still, he was dead (pardon the pun) serious when he declared that I was his only friend after we’d solved the Baskerville case. I could tell that he wasn’t shamming; trying to get into my good grazes again. It was pure honesty. By then, I had learned to discern the difference.

I can’t spend too much time thinking about that, or I’ll break down. 

Why did he feel the need to take his own life when…

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I’ve stopped bringing Mrs Hudson when I visit his grave. She’s so fragile. It’s as if her sassy personality died that day too.

In the beginning, I always stood in front of his elegant gravestone like a soldier keeping watch, but now – if the weather allows it – I sit cross-legged on the grass instead. It’s oddly comforting to talk to the black stone as if it is actually him.

“Hi, Sherlock. I miss you. The flat is so quiet. Even when you were lying supine on the sofa, lost in your head, you filled the room with life. You were the most animated person I’ve ever known, even when you barely moved a muscle. I’m considering moving out, finding my own place. Too many memories and ghosts in 221B nowadays. 

“There’s a new nurse at work. Mary. She tries to flirt with me. It doesn’t work, but she’s quite persistent, I’ll give her that. Soon enough, she’ll realise that it’s a futile endeavour. I’ve even said so, but she just shrugged and winked at me. It was unsettling. Nobody has winked at me since you did it before you walked out of the lab that January day in 2010. I guess I should be flattered. Once, I would have been. Not after meeting you, though.”

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My nightmares are always worse after I’ve visited his grave. In this particular dream, I have blood smeared on my palms. I realise this too late. 

Like I usually do, I place my hands on his cheeks, but instead of wiping bloody off his face, I add more. In desperation, I try do clean my hands by rubbing them on my jeans, but it keeps pouring out of my palms like small fountains. We both drown in it. 

When I finally wake, the bed is damp. My t-shirt and pants are soaked. For one horrible moment, I thought I’d peed myself, but it is only malodorous sweat.

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“It was my fault,” I tell Mrs Hudson when we have tea together the day after I thought I’d drowned in my own and Sherlock’s blood.

“Nonsense, dear. You know there was no stopping him when he had made up his mind. Silly boy.”

She cries a little and I hold her gently until she manages to gather herself. 

We watch the last Bond film, which she takes great delight in. Strangely enough, this makes me miss Sherlock even more. 

Despite that I chided him for ridiculing the plot and the insane stunts, I secretly loved it. I guess he knew that, because he never stopped commenting, and he had this smug expression on his face while doing it. 

If I concentrate, I can hear his voiceover. 

“That stunt is impossible to survive, John. He doesn’t even have a scratch, for God’s sake! This inanity kills your brain cells, you know.”

I smile when Daniel Craig – against all odds - survives yet again, regardless of Sherlock predictions.

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To my surprise, I sleep well that night, and I wake more rested than I have in a long time. Perhaps this is a sign that things are about to change for the better.

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[totallysilvergirl]

beautiful treatment of the prompt.

[allthingswhumpyandangsty]

[paverics]

“my father is a boy and my mother is a girl so i’m mixed” is the funniest possible response to someone asking your gender and it came from 6’5 Viking footballer and notable weird little guy Erling Haaland on a Snapchat

[paverics]

comedians can only dream of writing something this funny

[catchymemes]

[infinitydivine]

I am not taking a risk

[darlingsstern]

Not risking it pals

[doralimasstuff]

U know what I want potato of luck

[shrewreadings]

Damn right I’m reblogging. See previous post re wrath of whatever from high atop the thing.

[everythingismadeofchaos]

Tomorrow is election day. I'm reblogging

[blueandbluer]

I don’t normally like these superstition posts, but considering what day it is, I’ll take anything I can get.

[blueberries87]

November 4, 2024. Do it, chaps.

[chriscalledmesweetie]

15: From Officer Dimmock

John may crack it open tonight If it goes with their dinner alright. ‘Cause Sherlock can gauge If it’s better with age And whether it’s red or it’s white.

'Tis a Gift is on AO3.

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[totallysilvergirl]

[lokijiro]

Sherlock regularly makes tea, but never makes coffee. This is partly because he lived with Mycroft during his teen years/early twenties, and there was usually no coffee at Mycroft’s house - he’s much more of a tea guy. (And Mycroft, who was extremely attentive to Sherlock’s health, considered his little brother to be too young for coffee until he was about 16. He didn’t think that a heavily caffeinated Sherlock would be a good idea.)

[holmesian-adaptationsrose]

And Mycroft was right but Sherlock doesn't like to talk about that. There was, ofc, "the incident" that led to him and Mike Stamford being friends, and though it ended up good it still isn't a very fun thing to think about

[lokijiro]

Yessss. Mike is addicted to coffee. Sherlock was with him in the mortuary and decided to drink lots and lots of coffee (with sugar). . .

[holmesian-adaptationsrose]

Whether it was the sugar rush or the caffeine rush that caused Mycroft to pick him up later, covered in feathers and eyeballs (stuck to his person, somehow) is anyone's guess. He spent the whole way to the hospital changing his position and talking about who's eyes they were.

[lokijiro]

Mycroft rolls his eyes, but Sherlock manages to convince him to play deductions with him about the owners of the eyeballs.

[woodelf68]

The bears are staying at a lakeside cottage for a week. The Art of July day 16!

[lokijiro]

Would he accept a sand castle building partner?

[michaelnordeman]

Värmland, Sweden (17 July 2020).

[porterdavis]

This is perverse and obscene.

[politicalantibody]

Of course they denied all those claims. It made them more money, and it wasn’t illegal. Corporations are amoral by nature, and healthcare is not an exception.

[todaysbat]

Image description: photo of a brown sign with white text that reads: "You can't save everything cute, eat everything that tastes good, and kill everything you're afraid of and expect a working ecosystem to come out of it." -- Flip Nicklin, wildlife photographer

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[derinthescarletpescatarian]

[linusbenjamin]

Sherlock 1.02, The Blind Banker

[hotja]

Click

[of-magpies-and-murders]

‘One more miracle, Sherlock, just for me…Don’t. Be. Dead.’

[clytemnestraaa]

always such a struggle when you get to the sex scene part of the fic you're writing and you're not horny at all. i don't know. their things were touching. without ANY underwear. the end.