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I capture moments that I want to last forever.All work by Curlygenius

[curlygenius]

Theres a place for you under the moon

Where everything isnt so out of tune

This is a place where you become immune

From the all the darkness thats consumed your room

Under this light you will bloom

To be left in peace in clouds of marijuana fumes

Oh, how i hate to leave so soon

I'll be sure to save a space for you under the moon

~curlygenius

[curlygenius]

2:39

I want to be left alone, yet I crave interaction.

[curlygenius]

foreboding

Days bleed when dreams die

Afraid to fail, so you don't try

You're here, but don't know why

On gloomy days we watch the sky cry

Do what it takes just to get by

Don't feel anything, so you get high

Didn't understand your pain,

Until i looked at the world through weary eyes

[curlygenius]

november 2017

I get a text, but its not you

I jump at every vibration & notification

But its still not you

I'm stuck in a moment i don't know what to do

Is it time to move on?

Am i overthinking?

Are these decisions even mine to be making?

I don't know what to do

I get attached way to easy, its true

Is it too much to ask?

To be with you

[curlygenius]

~I'm tired of feeling blue, need something fresh, need something new~

[curlygenius]

[philautia1]

When my time on this earth has come to an end, I will leave a legacy of acceptance and love. From what I’ve learned, at this point in my life, Many think that ‘love’ is only subjective to romantic or intimate experiences. Others may not believe in love, or they have adverse assumptions about it. No one can tell you what love actually is. Your best choice is to explore what love means to you. Is it a person or a place? Can love be measured? Do you value love? 

[philautia1]

You've never questioned her ability to mold herself into countless different forms? “How is someone this extraordinary living so quietly?” The way she walks, and talks. She makes it look effortless. Admire her beauty but do be warned… She is nothing but a figment of your imagination. 

[philautia1]

Taking control of yourself and your environment starts with emotional management. Stop reacting to things that don’t benefit you in any way. Not everything deserves your attention, let alone a reaction. Take the time to learn yourself. Learn what pisses you off, what makes you cry, what makes you truly happy, what brings you pleasure and act accordingly. No one should be able to disrupt your well-being, no one should know you better than you know yourself.

[philautia1]

- Part 1 -

Happiness is such a fickle being. She’s lovely, yet destructive. She’s the embodiment of a kalon, with such beauty and purity. She’s a goddess. Am I the only one who finds her a bit frightening? Her ability to take on so many different forms. One day she’s your lover, the next the ceiling you wake up to after surviving another night. She comes and goes, but she does come with gifts. Now, when you see these presents, keep an open mind. There’s no guarantee that they all will be pretty. But some of the ugliest ones can teach you something that will bless you in the future. Accept that gift with an open mind and an open heart.

[curlygenius]

My Affection

I love your body & all of your curves

I try to tell you how I feel when I'm with you, but I can never find words

It seems pointless to keep repeating what you've already heard

So I'll let my actions speak louder than these words

[curlygenius]

•random thought•

What if I suddenly die?

What if I tell you the truth, without all my white lies?

What if they don't ask why?

The truth hurts, so let me tell my last lie

Someone's gonna care if I suddenly die

~curlygenius

[curlygenius]

The Night

I fell in love with the night

I fell in love with the moon

I fell in love with the cold, she has a vulnerable bite

I fell in love with the time, although it goes by too soon

An elegant sway, she moves to her own tune

I fell in love in the night

Underneath her full moon

[curlygenius]

~we were the best of friends in the worst of times Life is a movie, but we always forget our lines I need you to come back, so I can make you mines You told me love doesn't hide Well explain to me Why's it so hard to find~ -Poem & Photo by curlygenius Model:Parnel

[philautia1]

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Many of us yearn for the meaning of our lives or the purpose of our existence. What I’ve realized is that ‘meaning’ is not something you just find. Meaning is something that is constructed, something that you can create. With this being said, to construct meaning, you have to be aware that you’re building something subjective to whatever of your choosing. The meaning of life isn’t as abstract as we tend to think. Instead, it is actually very subjective to the self. Everyone is completely different, from our physical looks to out mindsets. The same object shown to two different people have easily had two different meanings. All meaning can only mean something for a ‘who.’

-B.Sanders-

[curlygenius]

Thoughts

•December Thoughts•

This year I let a lot of people in & I let those same people go. This year was the year for me to grow. I like having a small circle & not getting caught up in everyones drama. Its refreshing. Being able to feel comfortable alone & not having to be surrounded by crowds. I've started choosing the people that I actually care about & I don't feel the need to please everyone I talk to or know. No one really knows me & that's how I like it. But I feel like you've been peeling back the layers & I've let you. I couldn't have come to this mindset if it wasn't for you, of course you know who you are. This year has had its ups & its downs. This year taught me that nothing in life is permanent. People will walk in and walk out of your life as they please, but once they walk out you gotta keep that door shut.

I've also built upon the existing relationships I have with friends & have made them even stronger than they ever were before. Right now, I'm at a great point in my life. Its like I've been driving through a tunnel for twenty years & I'm just now seeing that light. I don't think I could've seen this light without you. I feel that light in me, I feel that energy. This is the first time I've felt that something really good is coming & I'm gonna keep working as hard as I can to make sure it does.

~curlygenius

[curlygenius]

A Flame

The way you moved last night, dancing like a flame

Once I met you I knew nothing would be the same

You're something special, not just another name

There's no reason to walk alone in this November rain

Why do you carry so much pain?

Whys it always yourself that you blame?

I want you to know

As long as I'm here you'll never have to feel like you're alone

Been here for two years now & it just started to feel like home

All the hurt that we've been through

Its starting to clear up now

Please don't worry, we'll make this feeling continue

-curlygenius