Cynical Hiccup

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Must I always be the one to do the arranging with him now? It was his decision to end the relationship, he should organise the meet up where we exchange our stuff.

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And I didn’t watch any news today. Steering clear and talking to friends for the first time in years instead.

I’d been so cut off. And for what?

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Too exhausted to come up with a proper comment.

But wouldn’t it be nice if Boris Johnson went to prison for all his lies. That could be a good thing, albeit unlikely. They always get off scott free.

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#destroymewhenitsallover #dreardiarydaily #dreardiarydigital2019 #wednesday29thmay2019 #ukpolitics #insomnia

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Oh yeah and the Brexshit party have replaced the ukippers in popularity. That’s what the EU elections has shown, amoung other rubbish things. What a crappy time to be alive.

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Additionally it was an alright day today.

Exhausted. Can hardly keep my eyes open. Which is nice albeit surprising. - -

#dreardiarydaily #dreardiarydigital2019 #saturday25thmay2019

#destroymewhenitsallover #sleepatlast

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So then, here’s today’s abridged summary. -

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Yeah things aren’t great.

And I was asked by someone to remove the last two drawings because someone else squealed. So I did, on Facebook, Twitter and Instagram.

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What have I become? Diminished and lurking in the shadows.⠀

She, meanwhile, is solid. Nourished vividly in his thoughts.⠀

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For years I thought we were secure. I though it was me you liked. What a fool. Were you looking for an opportunity all the time?

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Once

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I am left with a stalk of who I once was.

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Started drawing again.

Going through something horrible.

A couple of people broke me.

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Self indulgent post. Been sad. Free falling. But something else changed today. It is a glimmer. - - - #dreardiarydigital2019 #dreardiarydaily #1stApril2018 #art #writing #artistlife #desperatesadness #onthemend? https://www.instagram.com/p/Bvui_Wqj-eA/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=kchuy1dx550r

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A few blurry pics from the Idles gig on Thursday night. Would’ve taken more but was a) far away from the stage, and b) the show was so good I wanted to experience it properly instead of through my phone. The lighting for this gig was the best I’ve seen for a long while. Totally sympathetic to the music. Something that’s not often considered. So maybe I should’ve taken more photos to demonstrate that. Hi ho. Also was completely surprised by how skilled the band are. Just a phenomenal gig all round. Thanks Idles. That was one of the best Christmas presents I ever got for my mum. Marvellous show. #Idles #uealcr #gig #lovedit #loveyourself https://www.instagram.com/p/Bvr1K7yD76G/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1v1bcgga73wlx

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I love my mum. Happy Mother’s Day - - #mothersday #ukpolitics #motheringsunday #jeswecan #dreardiary2019 #31stMarch2019 https://www.instagram.com/p/BvrvvlBD9E6/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1nq33xzw505h

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Anticipation #idles #uealcr #cantfeckingwait!! https://www.instagram.com/p/BvkK1b3jwsa/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=ya4ggx0szjb