Cynical Rosy

here lies my thoughts

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i will heal in time

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4:12 AM

writing has always been my best escape since elementary. it all started with a diary until i was introduced to wattpad then tumblr then quotev. a lot of platforms for writing were introduced to me.

writing became my hobby cause i'm an opinionated person who always have cents in everything and i need to let all my thoughts be expressed.

but as time goes by, as i grew older, priorities were changed, mind became preoccupied, schedule became hectic. i couldn't find time to write. i couldn't find time to sit down and think thoroughly. but during those times, i was a mess. but it was kind of mess that i don't regret to become. i was a mess but i met people who understood me during those messy times.

the passion i had before is something i want to have again. i wish i didn't stopped writing. i wish i gave time to it. what if i pursue writing? would i excel?

i hope it's not the end for me. i hope it's not too late to still pursue writing.

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besties

have you ever felt so invalidated? like, all the shits you've been through was taken as a joke by the people you once called "friends".

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11:35 PM

have you ever felt so lost? so empty?

[cynicalrosy]

Jungkook shoulder dance

not a bts fan but that fan cam of jungkook, gahd i wanna squeeze him huhu <3333

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GRADUATE

been a week since graduated. ya bitch is a degree holder huhu this is all for my papa and mama. i love you both so much huhu

[cynicalrosy]

got also an endorsement for board review

[cynicalrosy]

post graduation anxiety # 1

should i start applying for a job? or should i just focus on studying for boards?

[cynicalrosy]

GRADUATE

been a week since graduated. ya bitch is a degree holder huhu this is all for my papa and mama. i love you both so much huhu

[cynicalrosy]

book review entry #3

it's 3:00 am and i am reviewing abnormal psych. chapter is jampacked huhu Lord pls let me pass all the exams i am about to take. i don't know if i can retain all these in just one week. i still have 4 subject to review. i haven't got to 50% of the book wtf

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daylight by tayluh

daylight is so underrated. it calms me to the core. listening to it makes me wanna cry of happiness. i mean, did the i don't wanna look at anything else now that i saw you. i don't wanna think of anything else now that i thought of you made you wanna love being in love cos same 🤧

the i once believed love would be black and white BUT IT'S GOLDEN 😭🤧🥺😌☺️🥰🤗😩

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graduating???

I am about to apply for graduation. is this it?

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the love hypothesis

this book is really overhyped huhuor maybe this isn't just my cup of tea T.T I was like "that's it?"

[cynicalrosy]

ang sarap maging paborito.

ang sarap magmahal.

ang sarap mahalin.

kalmado lang ang buhay.

ctto. just saw this on fb huhu 🥺

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board review entry #2

i think i'm regretting why i chose psychology as my pre-med. i don't want to study the human behavior anymore. i don't want to understand human anymore huhu.

the level of understanding i have for human is because of this course. i couldn't get mad of someone. it made me the bigger person. i don't want to be the bigger person. sometimes, i wanna punch someones face,

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board review entry #1

i don't have the energy to review or to read the books i bought. the anxiety i have everyday because of this review plus this one prof adds up in our anxiety for making us recite huhuhu. instead of listening the discussion, i'm anxious of getting called.

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Get To Know Me | Favourite TV Shows [2/?]

↳ Dark (2017-2020)

We trust that time is linear. That it proceeds eternally, uniformly. Into infinity. But the distinction between past, present and future is nothing but an illusion. Yesterday, today and tomorrow are not consecutive, they are connected in a never-ending circle. Everything is connected.

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the price i'd pay to watch this series again for the first time

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