Changing things

/SEMI-HIATUS/ How to pronounce my nick: TCHERVEEK (tʃe'rvi:k) Country: Poland BUT PLS TAKE ME SOMEWHERE ELSE Analog photo blog mostly, sometimes nice gay butts or doodles COMMISSIONS: OPEN REQUESTS: CLOSED Currently obsessed with: Stranger Things, Dark, God's Own Country, Call me by your name

[czerwik]

Are you genderfluid? Bc from what I’ve seen in your last post you signed it with a female polish name...

that’s a good question. Dominika is my birth, real name, no moremistery.

For the past year I’ve been growing my inner girly side, foundout I can feel pretty, desirable and loved by MYSELF as a girl. Fewyears ago it was impossible. But I was not pretending or trying to becool or different, when I was identifying myself as genderfluid. Bythat time I felt it. Now I understand one thing - feelingdifferent from boys and girls in my childhood was, in my case, notbased on a gender identity, but on this ‘feeling different’itself. More - it was actually completely genderfree, I didn’t feellike I was part of a girls/boys group NOT because I didn’t fit in agender stereotype, but because I simply didn’t fit to thosechildren AT ALL.

Many things on this beautiful planet are constant, but genderidentity and sexuality are not among them. At least I believe so. AndI feel so. Cheers. 

[czerwik]

punky-thera

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Hi there, folks! I’m glad you still kinda remember...

It’s good to see you back, and I’m happy you’ve gotten happier! It’s wonderful to see you grow and to find other things to make you happy

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Hi there, folks! I’m glad you still kinda remember...

i will always love your blog ❤️ people move on to better things that help them grow, and that is a change for the better!

Thank you so much! Feel accepted and comfy again!

[czerwik]

Hi there, folks!

I’m glad you still kinda remember me. Long time no see,- I admit it, I had a hard, hard time accepting reality and embracing it, but it worked and I don’t run away from duties into imaginary world anymore, also doing things always wanted to do, but felt not good enough. Analog photography, mixing art with poetry and doing very different things from what I was doing are going to be new content of this blog, from now on.

I'm not going to delete previous content,- it's showing me my own, long way of an artist I am now, also you like it, so I feel like there's no point in doing this.

I’m sorry - people are changing and I hope you’ll accept it. Sometimes I might post some doodles, but not from fandoms I was crazy about before. Now I'm more into stuff like Stranger Things, Dark, other Netflix series, existential literature or good, lgbt cinema – in general not into comic books or manga. That's what keeps me entertained and happy rn. Please, respect it – you're free to leave and unsubscribe. I’ll understand it.

Previous year was both great and awful – I was depressed, I was stressed, I was suicidal, but I'm not that kind of person, who's making drama out of their problems and suffering. I reached for specialist help, got meds, also my beloved mahameni was by my side all that time. We've came a long way, but from now on it can only get better.

I'm working on final artistic project and bachelor thesis, also making my first steps into photography and designer world. I still hope you're gonna accompany me in this journey.

Also, I do think about changing url, still haven’t decided. Sorry to bother you and welcome again, lovelies. czerwik, aka dominika

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Matt — [1] [2] [Hania]

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Witam, mam nadzieję, że ASP nie daje za bardzo w kość i święta mijają spokojnie. Jako anon podziwiający z daleka twoje cosplaye na konwentach i fanarty z ulubionych serii, będzie mi ich trochę brakować. Ale najważniejsze to być sobą i robić to, co się na prawdę lubi (zainteresowania z czasem się zmieniają, wiem coś o tym...). Życzę dużo weny artystycznej i pozdrawiam serdecznie!

<3! Nie pozdrawiaj serdecznie, anonie, bo mam ochotę poczęstować kawusią (to taki nieodłączny polski zestawik forumowo-facebookowy) :D Dziękuję, tulę mocno, piąteczka! ;u;

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Oh Sangwoo; chapter 13 “Okay! Be my guest!”

[czerwik]

I’m alive, folks, I’m still here! Just thinking... Any Fallout fans? Because lots of things have changed, I don’t really watch anime recently (for year...), rn I’m into good netflix series, into games, into creating my own stuff... ... I feel like I don’t fit my own tumbler account anymore, that’s why I don’t post or share stuff as often as before. vnv

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fallout 4 + mbti

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Guys, let’s face the truth : I need money for certain cause, and that cause is my sexuality correction: I’m just a man who wants to feel 100% ok with himself and have a long way to go. First I have to visit many specialists to find myself in that mess and even if i have a job, i cant afford to more than 1 visit per month… I don’t want to be literally donated, I offer u commishes instead! Here’s my e-mail: [email protected] . Please - if u’d like to see ur favorite character/OC in my artstyle, let’s make a deal!  5 slots will be ok, because im a freelancer and have some websites to make so im gonna balance between commishes and my duties rn. 

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Every once in a while I have to reblog this because it’s so important to me.

[czerwik]

Life-and-art update

I'm alive lovelies, I'm working as a barista in the nicest cafe ever and I'll probably draw coffeeshop AU one day cuz now I know whats like and know the coffeeshop memes. What do you think? QuQ

[czerwik]

I love your asanoya fanarts *.* more please!

Thank you! In a spare time I'll try, altho... I feel I've lost most energy and inspiration for fandrawing, for drawing AT ALL :< the largest crisis :<

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truptutupta skomentował(a) Twój post “Hey, I'm polish but haven't been there since been there since moving...”

it's weird bc when i came to cracow to university i saw nothing but gayness everywhere. Unlike back home???

I used to be super social, ‘ve been meeting and gettin to know a lot of ppl in my city, NONE OF THEM (except one of my uni profs) was openly gay, none of them was even openly LGBTQ+. Now, even in art uni, I experience the same. That means to me that even if there are many LGBTQ+ people, they don’t (or dont wanna?) come out ;; You’re lucky then!

[czerwik]

Are you male or female ?😅

stop

[czerwik]

Hey, I'm polish but haven't been there since been there since moving to the uk. How are LGBTQI+ people viewed?

Hello! ;u; I’d say it depends on where you live actually. For example, as far as I know, in Warszawa, Wrocław or Poznań LGBTQ+ community is active and consist of many members of all ages and ‘social classes’. That leads to the conclusion, that also more non-LGBTQ+ people (than in the other cities) are rather tolerant - when you’re surrounded by something different, it slowly starts to become ‘no-longer-different’ for you, that’s my opinion. Or... maybe still different, but acknowledged and familiarized.In Cracow, where I live, the activity is way more, I’d say... dainty. The most noticeable difference (which is also pretty cliche) is that you don’t really see for example homosexual couples holding hands, there are maybe two LGBTQ+ pubs/clubs that are known to be ‘the community clubs’, no draq shows, also a huge lack of psychologists who’d be experts when it comes to gender issues. And sometimes I’m personally scared to hold my bf’s hand in public or to show an affection. I’m not that brave.Of course it’s not like the jocks/chavs/hooligans/rednecks/right-wingers are all gathered in Cracow,- they’re everywhere, but from my point of view in other cities I mentioned before the community is strong enough to deal with those people and fight (a metaphore!) against them. Also I should mention feminists here - the community itself is huge, but the representation in TV or social media makes people think we’re some kind of freaks. Journalists in the most popular tv stations choose the most loud and warlike women (usually women, mass media force the way of thinking there’s no men among feminists...), who are satirized on the vision. 

[czerwik]

Look at your little hair sticking up in your selfie! So cute! Is that how you pick up your wifi, cuz I'm picking up some signals between us ehuehue 😘💖✨