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30 💀 She/Her 💀 🏳️‍🌈👩🏻‍❤️‍💋‍👩🏻 lesbian •

[d--isturbing]

The date was amazing 🥰 this was the look. I’m seeing her again 😇

[d--isturbing]

Soo things are going amazing. I have a job and I just got a car! I’m in love with it. We are working opposite shifts though and it’s been really hard not seeing her but things are still so much better than before. We’re going to a local resort this weekend to celebrate our 6 month anniversary. They have pie.

I came home to this today though and it melted my heart ❤️

[anotherblueday]

[chromekittyy]

[d--isturbing]

I keep going in and out of dissociation. I think because this just doesn’t feel real. I spent so many years imagining getting out, and every thing that I hoped for, happened. Once I left, all of the pieces fell together in the most perfect way.

Everything is so perfect and it’s terrifying. I just want this to be real.

[d--isturbing]

I wish the girl I was, last April could see where I am. Or the version of me from 2022-2024.

This wasn’t on my bingo card. I hadn’t planned this far ahead. I planned on getting out of the abuse and coming home and being with family and figuring out how to start over.

I just woke from a nap. I know that you weren’t allowed to nap but now whenever I feel tired, I have the peace to just fall asleep. I just moved in with my girlfriend. She is the most amazing person I have ever met and she loves me so much and this is the most peaceful relationship I have ever had. I wish you could see what the hell that you went through and how hard you fought to get out, how it got us here. I’m still learning how to feel safe, but things are so much better.

[d--isturbing]

Thank you for visiting my dreams. When I woke up and realized that you had, I cried.

I miss you so much and it was so lovely to see you again.

Things are better now and I wish you were here to see how everything changed. It took me a long time but I made it out of the abuse, I made it home, and now I’m with someone who treats me better than I could have ever imagined and I really hope that you’re doing okay wherever you are because neither of us deserved to go through that.

[d--isturbing]

I’m moved in!!

I’m halfway unpacked, doing laundry, and going to try to take a nap. It still doesn’t feel real though but I’m here and I don’t have to leave ever again

[d--isturbing]

Moving day is tomorrow!! Idk how I’m going to sleep tonight, I cannot wait to close the distance and be with my girlfriend every day 🥰

[a-mind-in-ruins]

"how can you be so calm, like nothing bad is happening around you?"

I answered, "because everything I was scared of happening, happened."

[d--isturbing]

I have had such a peaceful day, spent alone in my girlfriend’s apartment. This is my favorite place in the world even when she’s not here and I just want to stay here forever.

I’m still having health issues so I’ve been in pain all day. But I managed to clean a little, worked on my job hunt, watched dr who, and ordered dinner and now I’m in bed just trying not to be in pain.

[d--isturbing]

She landed and we made it home and I feel so much better ❤️

[deadn0w]

put your clothes back on, we're not having sex I need you to sit with me for an hour and tell me you don't hate me and I'm not a terrible person.

[d--isturbing]

This morning after my interviews, I had therapy.

We went in depth about my nightmares and the fears they bring up.

I also mentioned that now that I feel safe, my anxiety is increasing. I mentioned how I’m afraid to walk away from my house alone. I can go to work and the store but I am terrified of being in open space alone.

I was supposed to start taking steps to go on walks. Either with someone or with something for self defense but not to just jump into trying it alone right away.

I’m currently at the airport waiting for my girlfriend. I’ve been here for two hours and have 3 more to go. I’ve already had a panic attack. I cried. I’ve been tapping. I got matcha. I’ve been listening to my current favorite artist. But eventually went back to my car and got my book and hoping it keeps me distracted enough.

I hate it here. I am so anxious and afraid.

[d--isturbing]

I’m finally at her place, picking her up from the airport tomorrow 🥰

[d--isturbing]

Sooo I told her this morning how I was feeling. It wasn’t planned, it just happened. We talked about it and just that alone helped so much. I cried so much. But I have been fine ever since. I haven’t cried since this morning. I had a good day today. It went by fast. Annnd I got to FaceTime my love and now I’m in bed. Finishing a movie before sleep. I only have one more day of work before I get to see her.

[lesbianb1a1r]

i’m being so dead serious when i say i need a makeout session with grinding and dry humping rn. like, right this instance right now in this moment i need it like oxygen