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Some Silco drawings before bed^^
oh Drifter my Drifter you did not stand a snowball's chance in hell at hiding your attraction to either of your love interests. zero for two bc your lovers are
Eleanor Nightingale: actual empath and mind reader
VRGCA Roathe: had to know how to read people to survive
rip drifter, rip
same๐ซ
found this in the folder and i have no idea what comment of his made me think of and drawing this lol
Immovable object ( roathe ) meets unstoppable force ( my operator )
so I had a thought the other day that ended up spiraling
basically I was playing uriel and looking at roathe's clawed hand for whatever reason got me to thinking how on earth he manages to type on the pc to chat with the drifter with those fucking knives on his fingers
like;
his ass ain't typing with those things he'll put a hole in the keyboard provided he doesn't miss
one could suggest that maybe he used something like talk to text or some shit since he does the voice mail thingies anyways BUT my brother and I were joking about it and came up with a much funnier solution
after I looked at vythelas
and noticed he has his own lil fingies that he does stretch and move around to cast spells and shit
so naturally the idea of vythelas typing on the keyboard for roathe was too funny to me
and now this exists
enjoy.
Drifter: Roathe, when is your birthday?
Roathe: Why? So you can look up my natal chart? So you can figure out my weaknesses? So you can destroy me?
Drifter:..so I can wish you a happy birthday.
Modern AU!!
Bespoke kisses
Gil-Galad x reader. Modern AU. NSFW!! (moodboard)
*****
You really thought you had made it.ย
โI knew you could do it, (name)!โ your friend Mirdania comments happily as you both walk out of the door, leaving the large building that houses the Arda Fashion Academy, which you both attend as final year students, behind you. She is prettier than ever in her deep green halter dress -personally designed by her, of course, just like you created your shirt and altered your knee-length skirt so that it better fits your body; nothing more natural, for two budding fashion designers like you are! โThat three-piece suit was beautiful, I knew the examination board would appreciate it!โ
You smile, sincerely flattered and happy for your recent success, even though, you have to admit, she is the one who should be congratulated, since the mullet dress she created was enthusiastically received by the board, and was awarded the highest marks among the thirty submissions on behalf of as many seniors, and she was the first student selected for the internship. โI bet the designers came to blow for the privilege of having you as an intern.โ
โOh, come on, youโre exaggeratingโฆโ
You are -just a little- but itโs hard not to feel overenthusiastic in a moment like this. The internship you and your friend have been selected for is an exceptional opportunity, the sort that happens only once in a personโs life; the Arda, the countryโs most prestigious institution in the field of fashion, has established a collaboration with three important designers, each of whom would be be paired with a final year student for a six months collaboration. The selection was to be based, as well as on the hopefulsโ academic records, on the submission of a personal creation: a set of clothing, be it a dress, a suit, a simple trousers-and-shirt combination -someone submitted a bikini paired with a sarong, flip-flops and a beach hat- that a panel of the Ardaโs most respected lecturers would judge.ย
As expected, most of your fellow seniors applied for the internship, and you and Mirdania were among the three chosen, together with a talented student named Elrond, who you know less well. You really canโt wait to begin: not only a period of employment in a prestigious fashion house will undoubtedly improve your resumรฉ, but youโll have the chance to see a talented designer at work, and to learn from them; the pay is low and between the internship and the classes youโll still have to attend youโll end up sleeping three hours per night, but who cares? Fashion has always been your passion, and while being admitted to the Arda was the first step to fulfilling your ambition of becoming a famous designer, you feel this could be your chance - the chance to find new inspiration for your works and learn on the field, rather than in class.ย
And who knows, I would not be the first intern who remains to work for their mentor even after the allotted timeโฆย
โI still canโt believe I am going to meet Celebrimbor, the Celebrimbor, tomorrow.โ Mirdania comments as you both walk towards the metro station, which is where youโll have to part to return home. Your friend has long been an admirer of one of the designers who offered their collaboration to the school, and was ecstatic to learn Celebrimbor had expressly asked for her as an intern, having been favourably impressed by her submission โI swear, I keep pinching myself because I think it might be a dream!โ
โYouโre not dreaming; and since he has already proven to appreciate your work, Iโm sure youโll enjoy working for him.โ
โI think so too. What about you? Looking forward to putting a face to Gil-Galadโs name?โ
You have to admit you are more than a little curious. Unlike Celebrimbor and Cirdan, the designer Elrond will intern for, your allotted mentor, Gil-Galad, is a mysterious figure in the world of fashion, well-known for his sense of style that has been appreciated, and worn, by celebrities all over the world, but very few people can say to have met him. He is probably the only fashion designer in the world who does not attend his own shows, nor does he give interviews in person - only by phone or mail. No official, proven picture of him exists on the internet, and you have heard that his closest collaborators -an inner circle among which, you imagine, you are going to be admitted tomorrow- are required to sign a non-disclosure agreement to swear not to share his personal information with third parties.
All it is known about Gil-Galad is that heโs a male, native of Lindon, and probably on the young side, since he started making a name for himself only a few years ago, soon before you started attending the Arda, and the rest is nothing more than gossip and assumptions; there is even the possibility he is using a pseudonym rather than his real name. The thought that you are going to meet such an elusive personage, whose identity fashion lovers and journalists all over the world would give an arm to discover, is intriguing, but all things considered, the personal matters of your mentor are none of your business; all you want is to learn as much as you can from him, and hopefully begin your career as a fashion designer.
โA little bit.โ
โI can imagine. Weโre celebrating tonight, yes? Itโs Friday, we can go to the Moria.โย ย
The Moria is one of the cityโs best-known clubs; the music is good, the cocktails even better, and you always have a good time there, especially on Friday, when the club hosts its famous theme nights.
โI donโt know, Mirdania.โ you confess as you follow your friend down the steps leading to the metro station, surrounded by a veritable crowd moving in both directions; itโs almost rush hour, and you already know that finding a seat on the train will be impossible โYou do remember we are going to meet our mentors tomorrow, yes? I was planning on going to bed early, to be well-restedโฆโ
Your friend assures you she is as determined as you are to make a good impression, and doesnโt plan on showing up to the Arda for her first meeting with Celebrimbor still tipsy from the night before, her make-up smudged and her breath smelling like alcohol. โBut we do deserve to celebrate, donโt we? Come on, just a couple hours! We have a drink, we dance a bit, and then we return home. Keep in mind how busy we will be for the next six months!โ
She has a point, you have to admit as you adjust the strap of your bag on your shoulder, especially because you havenโt been to the Moria, or to any club or pub for that matter, in ages, since you were so busy with your classes and preparing your submission to the internship. An eight-, or even nine-, hours sleep would do you a world of good, but on the other hand, you do feel the need to celebrateโฆ
By the time you have come to a decision, you and Mirdania have reached the stationโs central joint: from here youโll have to part to take different lines.ย
โAlright; Iโm in.โ
โGreat! Weโll have fun, Iโm sure.โ Mirdania comments happily, her excitement contagious as you find yourself smiling โWe deserve it, (name); we won fair and square.โ
You assure her that you know, and your friend promises sheโll come pick you up at your apartment that night. You had no doubts she would be chosen for the apprenticeship, since Mirdania is undoubtedly the most talented student in your year, but you are happy the panel recognised the value of her work. You were a little less sure about yourself, since there are so many talented designers in your course, but since you got in as well, you have to have done something better than the others, right?
โIโll see you tonight.โ you promise, and Mirdania waves you goodbye as she walks away, her bright blonde hair soon swallowed by the crowd; you linger for a moment, already excited both for the night awaiting you and the day that will follow, and then turn to walk towards your train.ย
*****
You really thought you had nothing to worry about.ย
One of your favourite fashion designers, you read once in their autobiography, used their siblings as models at the beginning of their career, since they couldnโt afford to pay professional ones. You canโt do the same, being an only child, and most of your friends donโt have the time, or the patience, to let you spend hours fitting clothes on them, which is why most of your creations, except those you realise as presents, are tailored on a specific body type: yours.
Wearing the three-piece suit that won you to the internship for your celebration night felt like the most natural choice, and as you observe your reflection in the full-length mirror of your bedroom, having already taken care of your hair and make-up, you have to admit you do look good; more importantly, you feel good, and are quite proud of your creation.ย
A quick honk outside your window announces Mirdaniaโs arrival. You go out to meet her, and when you find yourself face to face with your friend, both of you burst into laughter: like they say, great minds think alike, and Mirdania looks amazing in the mullet dress the internship panel awarded full marks to.ย
โI doubt this is the Moriaโs style.โ you point out, amused.ย
โI donโt care; come on, I need one of Durinโs drinks.โ
You happily sing along with the radio during the short ride to the club, and finally the Moria appears in front of you. You leave your coats at the entrance, and as you predicted, almost every person present turns to look at you and Mirdania as you step in the room, intrigued by your clothes; you and your friend share an amused smile, and you privately have to admit how flattered you feel, even though as a fashion designer what you enjoy is creating clothes, not wearing them yourself.ย
โOh, itโs you guys; and here I thought two top models were gracing my humble club with their presence.โ the barman and owner, Durin, jokes when he sees you approach, already busy preparing drinks behind the counter โYou really put the rest of my clientele to shame tonight.โ
โThank you, Durin; we made these ourselves!โ
โYou both look lovely, truly. I wish I had worn a suit like yours on my wedding day, (name), rather than looking like a penguinโฆโ
A grand piano is set on the stage at the centre of the room, a young musician playing a classic piece you vaguely remember hearing before. You and Mirdania decide to sit at the counter for a while, nursing the drinks Durin has already prepared for you. You let your gaze drift over the room, the people sitting at the small tables surrounding the stage, the soft notes soaring from the piano, the few couples who have already started dancing, gently swaying in the arms of their partner. You should feel happy tonight, relieved for your success and excited to begin your internship, and you do! You are happy, even though at the same time you canโt help but feel a bit wistful, and worriedโฆ
Mirdania is asking Durin about his wife, Disa, who recently gave birth to their first child, but then she notices your expression, and preoccupation colours her lovely face. โ(name), are you alright?โ
โYes, yes; Iโm just thinking.โ
โAbout what?โ
โAbout the future. About where I will be, nine months from now.โ
By then, barring accidents, you will have graduated from the Arda, free and at the same time forced to begin earning your living. โI thought you planned on finding a job in an important fashion house, just like me.โ she points out; that is the most natural choice for a person with your education, unless they are exceptionally talented -or exceptionally wealthy- and are therefore able to get the funding to open a fashion house of their own.ย
โI do. Itโs justโฆ I donโt know if I can actually manage that.โ you confess, to Mirdaniaโs open surprise; while you like to think you are not as presumptuous as some of your fellow students, who already imagine themselves as top selling designers, whose creations grace the covers of magazines and fetch top dollars among celebrities and members of the elite, itโs not like you to doubt your talent and potential, not to mention your chance of turning your passion in a profitable career.
โWhy shouldnโt you? You are one of the best students of our course, you have obtained a prestigious internship, and many alumni of the Arda went on to become famous designers.โ
โYes, but not all of them; in fact, I bet many former students ended up doing something else, and not because of lack of talent. Fashion is one of the most difficult fields in which to break in; why should I succeed where so many others have failed?โ
โ(name)...โ
โIโm sorry.โ you murmur, suddenly melancholic, and scared, for a reason you canโt quite describe. Rationally speaking you have every reason to be happy, satisfied, and even hopeful regarding your professional future, given your excellent academic record and the prestigious work opportunity you just obtained, but thinking that at the end of it youโll be only a few weeks away from your graduation led you to reflect on your future, which you have never felt more pessimistic about โI donโt know whatโs wrong with me tonightโฆโย
Who says your academic successes will be enough to guarantee you a career in the field of your choice? So many aspiring artists, actors and singers and writers, wait years and even decades for their big break, which never comes, no matter how good an education they have received, and even how objectively talented they are; itโs the same, or even worse, in the field of fashion, where maybe one out of a hundred or more hopefuls reaches some level of notoriety.ย
You already knew when you enrolled in the Arda how hard it would have been to actually become famous, or even just earn your living, as a fashion designer, and you donโt regret choosing such a difficult field to work in. Fashion has been your passion, your only ambition, ever since you watched shows on television with your mother and your grandmother taught you to sew when you were ten, and there would be nothing shameful in having to get another job to support yourself while you wait for your shot to stardom. But if you think that while you wait might end up meaning the rest of your life, and that your years at the Arda, and all the time and effort you have dedicated to your dream, all the hopes and the ambition, might amount to nothing, and you will have to work maybe a steady, even prestigious job, but that you find no joy or even just interest in, just to pay your rent and billsโฆ
Oh, God; what am I doing? Maybe I should stop while I still can, and get a job at aย supermarket or as a bank teller, itโll be less exciting but at least I wonโt have to fear any disappointmentโฆ
โYou want to return home? I can drive you, itโs not a problem.โ Mirdania proposes, an offer you actually consider but that you donโt have the heart to accept, given how excited your friend was about tonight.ย ย
โNo, Iโm fine; itโs probably because of the stress of these past weeks.โ you try to reassure her, forcing yourself to smile โI just need to relax.โ
โIf you change your mind we can leave; I donโt mind, truly.โ
You thank your friend, sincerely grateful, and do your best to relax and enjoy the music and your drink, both of them actually good. You turn your gaze back to the piano, the musician having now switched to a melancholic jazz pieceโฆย
โฆ and then, almost casually, your eyes meet those of a man sitting across the room from you, and time seems to stop.
He has dark hair, and is wearing something black; that is all you can see of him, given the distance and the soft light permeating the club, but itโs his gaze that compels youโฆ a gaze intense and open, even blatant, proper of a person who feels no shame in expressing their thoughts and feelings.ย
He seems to have stared at you longer than you have been aware of; the man smiles at you, and you smile back, suddenly shy, and force yourself to look away to talk to Durin.ย
A few minutes later a man your age approaches the two of you: itโs Malendol, a friend of Mirdania you know she has a particular interest in. You chat for a while, and soon after your friend is invited to dance.
โIโd like that, butโฆโ
โNo buts; you go and dance.โ you tell her, well aware sheโd decline in order not to leave you alone; you actually donโt mind, and the last thing you want is for your bad mood to ruin your friendโs night โCome on, off you go.โ
โAre you sure it doesnโt bother you?โ
โAbsolutely sure. Malendol, keep her away for at least half an hour.โ
He nods, grinning at you, and a moment later your friend is walking towards the dancefloor, her dress once more attracting the attention of whoever she walks past.ย
Durin smiles at you, his arms resting on the counter. โThat was kind of you.โ
โNo one wants to be the third wheel with a friend and a potential partner; and I donโt want to infect her with my bad mood.โ
โSomething bad happened?โ
โNo, and thatโs the worst thing of all. I should be happy, butโฆโ
โHello.โ
You realise itโs him even before looking; you remain still for a moment, suddenly struggling to swallow, and then turn, offering your best smile. โHello.โ
The first thing you notice, as natural for a future professional in the field of fashion, is his suit; expensive, clearly tailored to the body of the person wearing it, emphasising the width of his shoulders and his narrow waist, and paired with an elegant golden-coloured shirt.ย
And then thereโs him, his face, and no matter how much you like his clothes, that is what makes your heartbeat accelerate suddenly.
โI hope you wonโt consider me too forward, but I noticed you from my table, andโฆ I saw your friend left to dance. May I sit?โ
โOf course.โ you answer happily, and a moment later the man has occupied the stool next to yours. Like you had noticed, his hair is dark, and longer than most menโs, a soft-looking, lucid mantle falling to his waist; he has a classically beautiful face, the sort you usually find on marble statues or antique paintings, bright dark eyes, and a friendly, open smile.
He is handsome. No, you correct yourself as you move your legs away to make space for him, too slowly to avoid his knee brushing against yours, heโs absolutely gorgeous, without a doubt one of the most attractive men you have ever met -and thatโs saying something, with all the male models you have seen at the various fashion shows you have attended- and the way heโs looking at you is making you feel as if Durin had turned the heating to the maximum.
โMy name is Ereinion.โ he introduces himself offering you a hand you shake; he is wearing several rings, even though not, you notice with relief, the one that suggests he may have a spouse waiting for him at home.
โI am (name), good to meet you.โ
โ... you said (name)?โ
โYes, why?โ you ask, surprised; is there perhaps something wrong with your name?
โ... nothing. The pleasure is all mine, (name); may I say I really like your suit? Itโs very smart, I like the embroidery on the lapels.โ
โThank you.โ you say, sincerely flattered โSo, uhm, is this your first visit to the Moria?โ
You spend a few minutes talking, the conversation flowing free and relaxed like it rarely happens to you with a person you have just met. You tell Ereinion you are still in school, but when he ask what you are studying you propose to change the topic; youโre usually more than happy to talk about your studies, and the Arda, and all that concerns fashion, but at the moment the less you think about your future, and how little chance you have to actually earn your living as a fashion designer, the better.ย
โNo problem.โ he answers easily โCan I buy you a drink?โ
You gently refuse, since two drinks per night is usually your limit and you donโt want to lower your guard in the company of a man you still donโt know you can trust. You and Ereinion end up talking for more than an hour, discussing everything from movies and literature, to travels and even politics. Your new acquaintance is an endless source of interesting facts and ideas; he has told you heโs self-employed -which, you gather, means heโs a businessman- and he travels much for work.
Heโs interested in you, you can see it in his eyes, the feeling blatant and open even though heโs acting like a perfect gentleman, and even though this has happened to you before you feel both flattered and a little intimidated. Ereinion canโt be much older than you, but his suit, the heavy watch at his wrist, and something in the self-confidence he exudes suggests he is a man of wealth, which is as different from your situation as it can be, since you are attending the Arda on a scholarship and still have to rely on your parentsโ help to pay rent. You seem to have hit it off, but you doubt you and this man have much in commonโฆ
โ... and then my cousin, Galadriel, took offence, and threatened to carve that manโs face with a steak knife; had I not intervened, physically lifting her to carry her outside, she probably would have.โ
โOh my God!โ you say, unable to stop laughing as Ereinion tells you about the latest disastrous family reunion he attended โI canโt believe she really threatened him!โ
โShe did. I am very fond of Galadriel, but sometimes I wish she had more self-control.โ he admits with a soft smile; he remains silent for a moment, as if debating his next move, and then his hand covers the one you have placed on the barโs counter, the touch feather-light but enough to make you perceive the warmth of his body โWould you like to dance?โ
You swallow. โIโd love to.โ
Durin looks approvingly at you as you let Ereinionโs hand at the small of your back guide you to the dancefloor; a moment later you have joined the couples gently swaying to the music, his hands resting on your hips, your arms circling his neck. He is the one leading, which is good, because by now you have completely stopped listening to the music, too focused on the firm, warm body embracing yours.
โWhatโs wrong?โ Ereinion asks after a few minutes, his murmur caressing the shell of your ear.ย
โNothing!โ
โI can feel you are tense; is something bothering you?โ
โIโm fine, really.โ you try to reassure him as you meet his gaze, but you donโt seem to succeed, because a moment later, with a jolt of panic, you feel him pulling back.
โ(name), if I haveโฆ made you uncomfortable somehow, I am truly sorry.โ
โYou havenโt; really, err, itโs not your fault. You canโt help being so terribly handsome, after all.โ
You hadnโt meant to say it out loud, but you have, and blushing and covering your mouth with your hand doesnโt help. Ereinion grins, openly flattered.
โYou really think so?โ
Despite your embarrassment, you find yourself smiling. โOh, donโt be coy; I wanted to ask you if you ever considered a career as a model.โ
โIโฆ havenโt, actually; but thank you very much. I think you are extremely beautiful as well.โ
โWell, thank youโฆโ
You share a smile, the tension between the two of you dissipating. The next two hours pass quickly; you dance, you talk, you drink -a non-alcoholic for you- and in the end Ereinion accompanies you on the clubโs tiny veranda for a breath of fresh air. You have met Mirdaniaโs eyes a couple times, as she danced with Malendol or sat with him and his friends, and youโve seen approval in her eyes; clearly neither of you is disappointed her friend has found someone else to spend the evening with.ย
โI like this place.โ Ereinion comments as he rests his back against the wall by your side, his eyes focused on you rather than on the sky full of stars above you; he has already offered you his jacket to wear, in case you felt cold, and you declined, secretly flattered by the offer โIโll have to thank the people who recommended it to me.โ
โYou have a favourite place here in the city?โ
โA few. I, err, havenโt been to a club, or any other place really, for a long time. Iโve been very busy with my work andโฆ people say that I donโt know how to relax.โ
Itโs a feeling you know well. โAnd they are right?โ
โThey are. But Iโm feeling very relaxed right now, which is pleasant.โ
Ereinion smiles; and you thought he couldnโt look more gorgeous. โWhat are you thinking about?โ he asks, and you hesitate only for a moment before answering in the only way you can: truthfully.
โIโm thinking that even though this is one of my favourite clubs and I had been in the company of my friend until a minute before I was feeling pretty down, so I really have to thank you for coming to talk to me; I feel much better now.โ
โGlad I could help.โย
A moment of silence as Ereinion turns to look at you; his hand cups your cheek, and you forget how to breathe. โDo you want to know what I am thinking?โ he asks softly, and you not imperceptibly, heart pounding in your chest โIโm thinking that you must be the most beautiful woman I have met in a long time, and Iโm dying to kiss you.โ
Itโs as if you had been holding your breath ever since your gazes first met; and now, finally, you can exhale. โYes.โ
โAre you sure?โ
You are surer of this than you are of your name, and you donโt care how desperate it makes you look to say it. โI am absolutely sure; please, I want it too, I want it so muchโฆโ
A moment later Ereinion has claimed your mouth in a searing kiss; you wrap your arms around his neck, pressing your body against his, and whatever he feels seems to please him, because you hear him moan in your mouth. His body is large, warm, powerful, and you lose yourself in the intensity of his embrace; your hands move up and down his chest, and Ereinion holds you by the hips as his tongue takes possession of your mouth.ย
The next ten minutes pass as if in a dream. Ereinion is now kissing your neck, the sweet caress of his mouth leaving goosebumps behind it, and you moan out loud, well aware that whoever among the clubโs clients -or worse even, Durin- felt the need for a smoke or a breath of fresh air could see you, and physically unable to care.
โOh, Godโฆโ
โGood?โ
As if he could doubt it! โMore than good. Please, please donโt stopโฆโ
He has no intention to, and he proves it by holding you tight as he moulds the shape of your body with his hands. You can feel him smiling against your mouth as he kisses you again, and for some reason the sensation fills your heart with joyโฆ and then you jump, when Ereinion lifts your leg around his waist, pressing his hips against yours.ย
โFuck.โ you murmur. You can feel how hard he is, and you barely know him, way too little for something like this to be the smart, or even just the safe, thing to do, but caring, reminding yourself of the rules you have set for yourself when you started dating as a teenager, is suddenly the hardest thing you ever had to do; youโve never felt so aroused in your life, you want this man desperately, you need to feel his body against yours and in yours as soon as possible, you need to feel his hands on your skin and his mouth kissing every part of youโฆ
Ereinion groans as he feels you rubbing yourself against him, desperately searching for some relief, a raw, blatantly erotic sound that makes you wish you were truly alone, naked, on a bed or whatever other surface sturdy enough to support your combined weight โGod, you feel amazingโฆโ
Your heart is pounding; your mind is spinning; your body is begging for contact, and if you donโt do something about it now youโll end up on your knees in front of him - which will be undoubtedly amazing, even though not completely satisfying. So you meet his eyes and
โCan we go somewhere else?โ you ask, and Ereinion grins.
โDo you want to come to my place? My car is outside.โย
โYes, itโs fine; I just need to tell my friend, and take my coat.โ
He nods, clearly happy, and you return inside together, his arm resting on your shoulders.ย
*****
Ereinionโs car is exactly like you had imagined, and exactly like him; large, elegant, powerful, and you feel yourself shivering with pleasure as you lower yourself on the leather seat, after he had chivalrously opened the door for you.
He drives unhurriedly among the city streets, focused on the road ahead but looking away to meet your eyes once in a while; you share a smile, no need for words between you.
Youโre not at all surprised that, when the car finally stops, you have reached one of the most upscale neighbourhoods of the city, and the building in front of you must cost more per square meter than your yearly tuition at the Arda.
Ereinion once again opens the door for you, and offers you his hand to get out; you smile, secretly flattered. โCan I ask you a very straightforward question?โ
โOf course.โ
โYou are rich, arenโt you?โ
He laughs, sincerely amused. โIโmโฆ comfortable.โ he admits โI am fortunate enough to have a job that pays well, even though I do work hard and have paid my dues.โ
You assure him that he has no need to justify himself, even though you must admit you do feel a little intimidated; most of your friends, and former partners, are or were students like you or people who work to support themselves, and while Ereinion looks only a few years older than you and doesnโt seem the sort of man who boasts about wealth, you have already perceived there is a huge gap between the two of you. Would he think less of you if you told him you still need your parentsโ help to pay rent, donโt own a car, and still buy most of your clothes at the mall?
The sense of inferiority feels like a heavy and unpleasant weight on your stomach: still, he did not ask for your bank statement before bringing you home, and as you take his hand to be led inside, any fear and anxiety you may have felt disappears, leaving behind only joy and desire. Mirdania, who you have left in Malendolโs excellent care, asked in a whisper if you were sure of what you were doing, and you are, you are like you have rarely been of anything before.
You want him; and you only need to look at the handsome man now opening the house door -after you, miss- to know he wants you too.ย
โCome, make yourself comfortable.โ Ereinion invites you kindly as he guides you through the door, which is as elegant and refined inside as it looks outside, all marble and fine furniture โSomething to drink?โ
You tell him youโd be happy to have a glass of water, since anxiety has dried your mouth, and he leads you to the kitchen, where you find out that, as was to be expected, Ereinion does not live alone.
โThis is Aiglos; Aiglos, meet (name).โ he introduces you, fondness evident in his voice, as the beautiful German shepard that stood from his bed near the fridge approaches and starts sniffing you; the inspection must yield satisfactory results, because a moment later the dog is licking your hands โIโm sorry, I should have asked you if you have problems with dogs.โ
You assure him that you donโt, even though you have never had a pet in your life, and briefly play with the animal, a beautiful adult specimen with black and brown fur and bright, intelligent eyes, while Ereinion takes care of your last drink of the day.
โSo itโs only you and Aiglos?โ you ask then, after you have quenched your thirst and his dog has gone looking for his toys in the living room โLiving here, I mean.โ
โIs this your way of asking whether I am married?โ
You blush, unable to hide it behind your water glass. โNo, Iโฆ Iโm sorry, I was just thinking that this house seems too large for a single personโฆโ
โItโs fine.โ he reassures you with a smile โAnd it probably is, I have come to realise since I moved here. And I am free as air, I swear.โ
You believe him; you have no reason to, all things considered, but you just do. โI am single as well, in case you want to know.โ
โI doโฆ even though I donโt doubt you have several admirers vying for your attention.โ
You donโt, actually, even though the main reason you have been single for more than a year, after your latest partner cheated on you, is that you have been so focused on your studies, and the upcoming internship, to have much time to dedicate to relationships.ย
It bothered you, at times; but right now, you couldnโt be more relieved.ย
You place your empty glass in the sink, and smile as Ereinion takes you in his arms once more. โGod, you really are gorgeous.โ he murmurs; heโs holding you close, not hurting you but tight enough you would probably be unable to wiggle out if you wanted to.
Good thing, then, that I donโt.
โI havenโt done anything like this in at least five years, you know?โ Ereinion murmurs; then, as if realising his words could be misunderstood: โTaken someone home, I mean.โ
โIf youโreโฆ uncomfortable in any way, we donโt have toโฆโ
โNo, absolutely; itโs just thatโฆ the last time that person stole my wallet and my dog while I was asleep, so itโs not exactly a good memory.โ
โOh, God, that is horribleโฆโ
โWell, I was able to find Aiglos at least, a few days later.โ
โThatโs good. And in any caseโฆโ you murmur as you slip your arms under his jacket, feeling the firmness of his torso against your body โ... I can promise I want nothing from you, if not what you are willing to give. Iโฆ I had never felt like this before; I need you, Ereinion, I just need you to take meโฆโ
He sighs, as if overwhelmed by what he feels. โThen I will.โ he murmurs, before cupping your face in his hands once again โYou have my word.โ
You keep kissing as he guides you to his bedroom, where a huge bed, its dark-coloured sheets soft to the touch, is waiting for you. You start taking each otherโs clothes off, and once both of your jackets have been abandoned on a chair, you hear Ereinion groan as he unbuttons your waistcoat. โI just wish I could tear this off youโฆโ
You pout. โI think you liked my suit.โ
โI love your suit; itโs very elegant and you look amazing in it. I just wish it was easier to take it offโฆโ
In the end you manage, and within a few minutes your clothes are scattered around the room, and youโre both in your underwear. Ereinion guides you to the bed, kneeling on the floor between your legs as you kiss senselessly; his hand moves up and down your thigh, but a moment later you have unclasped your bra, and he is pulling you close by the hips to kiss your chest, whispering words into your skin that make you thank God the room is bathed by the pale moonlight, because you donโt want him to see you are blushing.ย
You murmur his name as you arch your back, waves of pleasure running through you as he kisses and licks and sucks as if your breast were the last glass of water in a deserted world, hungry and reverent, almost worshipful, and your fingers play with his dark locks as you murmur how handsome he is, how good heโs making you feel, and how you canโt wait to feel him inside you.ย
When he stops, you can see heโs grinning. โUp.โ he orders, and you lift your legs and then your hips to let him take your panties off.
You are naked, naked on the bed of a man you have known for four hours, and youโve never felt so happy in your life. Ereinion kisses your legs as he opens them, and then heโs standing, taking off his black pants to expose his strong, sensual body, which is even more handsome than you thought, so perfect you struggle to breathe as you admire him.
โYouโre beautiful.โ you murmur, and Ereinion smiles at you as he reaches you on the bed, looming over you.ย
โIโm going to make you feel good.โ he murmurs before kissing you once more โJust tell me if I hurt you or you want to stop.โ
You appreciate the thought, but you know already nothing heโll decide to do will make you want to stop. You sigh as you feel his body pressing against yours; your heart is pounding, desire tensing your muscles as every fiber of your being screams begging to be fucked, but at the same time youโre relaxed, at ease and safe as if you were in your own home, with a person you had known all your life, and with whom you shared something deep and real and destined to last.
It might be a sign; and it might be not. You donโt care about the future, just like you donโt care about the past, and the differences between your lifestyles. All that counts is the present, and what youโre living together, and oh God heโs started pushing and it feels so good heโs so bigโฆ!
โYouโre so wet for me.โ Ereinion groans; he smiles at you, eyes full of desire, and a moment later he is fully inside you.
Your lovemaking is slow, soft and intense, Ereinion hiding his face in the grove of your neck as he relentlessly pushes himself in, and in your delirium part of you fears heโs going to split you open, but you donโt care, because it feels so good, heโs so warm and strong and hard, and youโre moaning and crying and digging your nails in the flesh of his back -painful, theoretically, but Ereinion seems to appreciate- and begging him not to stop, because you love this and you love him tooโฆย
World dissolves in ecstasy; you stop thinking, hold on to him, and let your body join his in the dance.ย
*****
You really thought you had found something beautiful.
Itโs the sound of water falling that wakes you the next morning, coming not from outside -the sky is clear, with no sign of rain- but from the room adjacent to the one you are in, a large, pristine bedroom with elegant modern furniture and a beautiful view of the city out of the windows. You have only a few minutes to observe it, since you were too busy for it last night, and to enjoy the quiet happiness bubbling in your heart, before the water in the en-suite bathroom is turned off, and a minute later Ereinion, wearing only a pair of dress pants, his hair still wet after the shower, enters, immediately walking to you.
โGood morning.โ he greets you softly as he bends on the bed to kiss you; he is happy, and does nothing to hide it โSorry I woke you up.โ
โItโs no problem.โ you answer happily; you are now sitting on the bed, not bothering to use the soft blankets to cover yourself as you savour the honey on his lips, and the warmth of his body still enveloping your skin. It has been the most amazing night of your life, and while you have no intention of saying it out loud, you know itโs the same for him โCanโt you stay a little longer? Please?โ
โI really wish I could; but I have to meet someone soon.โ
โA woman?โ
โYes; but itโs not like you think. Itโs for work.โ he hurries to explain; he cups your face in his hands, clearly anxious to convince you โI told you I wasnโt seeing anyone, and Iโd never lie about something like this.โ
โI believe you.โ you assure him; you have no right to be jealous of him -nor he of you, clearly- but you canโt deny, at least in your heart, that knowing he is single is an enormous source of relief. Only a few hours, albeit very intense, after your first meeting you already feel Ereinion is a drug you could easily become addicted to, but at the moment you are too happy, and sated, to worry about it โIโm sorry, I donโt want to sound possessive.โ
Ereinion assures you he is pleased to know you still desire his company, and youโre free to remain in bed as long as you want - and as long as you donโt take Aiglos with you when you leave.
โNo, itโs fine; I have things to do as well.โ
And you really do; according to your phone you have little more than two hours to go home, shower, change, and then go to the Arda in time to meet your mentor for the internship. Had things -specifically, your evening- gone differently, you would be trembling with anxiety; instead, you feel perfectly calm, excited but in control of yourself, ready to make a good impression on the famous designer youโll be working under for six months. And after that, and after your diplomaโฆ well, youโll have time to worry about the future in time, you decide; doing it in advance is pointless.
You take a quick shower -the bathroom is, just as the rest of the house, enormous, but itโs the sort of luxury that evokes cosiness, rather than unease- and by the time you are wearing your suit once again and have joined him in the living room, Ereinion has put an elegant white shirt on, filled Aiglosโ bowl with food, and prepared two cups of coffee, one of which he offers you with a smile.
โSomething tells me youโre a black coffee sort of woman.โ
โI actually am!โ you confess, impressed โHow do you know?โ
โJust a talent I was born with.โ
Ereinion grins; he places his cup on the counter to kiss you once more, hard, loving, intense enough to make your head spin as you enthusiastically kiss him back. Youโve had sex three times already, but youโre not sated yet; part of you has already begun thinking you might never be, a thought that is both terrifying and exhilarating.ย
โTell me I can see you for dinner.โ
โI can see you for dinner.โ
He moans, even though not in the particular way you have already come to appreciate. โ(name), pleaseโฆโ
โSorry, sorry.โ you murmur, raising your hand to touch his soft hair; you have spent the whole night making love but God, that simple contact is enough to make you tremble โIโd really love to. Believe me, if what I need to do today werenโt extremely important, Iโd remain here waiting for you to come back.โ
Another of those beautiful smiles, and then Aiglos comes in to reclaim both of his food and a bit of cuddles from you, both of which are readily offered to him.ย
โHe likes you.โ Ereinion points out as he observes you playing with his dog; then, softly: โAnd I do too.โ
โI like you too.โ you readily admit, standing to look at him; again, you share a smile.
You leave the house together twenty minutes later. โThe metro is that way, only five minutes away.โ Ereinion informs you, pointing the direction with his finger โI can drive you home if you want, I need to take the car in any case, but I guess you wouldnโt accept, would you?โ
โI appreciate the offer, but I wouldnโt.โ you say; he doesnโt seem the sort of man who stalks a woman after she broke up with him, but one can never be too sure.ย
โItโs fine. Iโll see you tonight, then.โ
You assure him he will, and that you really canโt wait for your date; you share a last, long kiss, and then Ereinion is looking at you as you move a few steps away, turn, and wave your hand good-bye before setting out.
*****
And nowโฆ
You walk through the Ardaโs main door -there are no classes today, since itโs Saturday, but a few students come to take advantage of the well-equipped atelier to work on their creations, which means the building is technically open in the week-end as well- ten minutes before the appointed time for your meeting with your mentor at a quick but unhurried pace, wearing your best suit, which you have paired with a blouse of your creation.ย
You should feel tired, since sleep was the last thing on your mind last night, but you arenโt: you feel lucid, excited but in control, ready to make a good impression without letting the fear for the future get you down.ย
And tonight you are seeing Ereinion again. Thinking back to last night, part of you still canโt believe what happened was real and not the plot of a cheesy rom-com; but it was real, it happened, to you, and while you have never believed in love at first sight, you are determined not to let this chance go to waste. He is so handsome, and he seemed to be genuinely interested in what you had to say, and he took care of your pleasure as well as his, which is more than you can say for some of your past partners. There is so much you still donโt know about each other, and the thought of dating a wealthy, already self-sufficient person while youโre still a student relying on her familyโs help should probably make you hesitate, but it does not. You donโt plan on becoming Ereinionโs kept woman, nor to let your relationship, should the two of you actually begin one, divert you from your studies, and you actually donโt care for his economic status either way.ย
Itโs less than twelve hours to your first date; you canโt wait, and youโll need to think about what to wearโฆ even though, you remind yourself as you quickly cross the main corridor, now you have to put aside your new fling, and focus on what could be your big chance to start building a career as a fashion designer.ย ย ย
You meet Mirdania and Elrond in the tiny break-room on the first floor. Your friend, looking very smart as usual in a blouse and frilled skirt she bought expressly to improve it according to her personal style, smiles knowingly at you as he sees you approach. โWell, look who seems in a markedly better mood than last night.โ
โI had a wonderful evening.โ you admit โAnd, Iโm meeting him for dinner.โ
โGood for you. I do admit your new friend looks very handsome.โย
โI agree. What about you? Did you have fun?โ
Your friend, blushing a bit, admits that Malendol did ask her out last night, which she accepted. You are discussing the possibility of organising a double date -at the Moria, obviously- when one of your lecturers enters the room.ย
โYour mentors have arrived, and are ready to meet you.โ they say, before explaining which room each of the designers is waiting in โYou have one hour to make their acquaintance and discuss your internship, then you are all to come to the administration office to sign a few forms. Good luck to you all.โ
You and Mirdania share an excited smile, and whisper good luck to each other before following Elrond out of the break-room.ย
The class where Gil-Galad is waiting for you is at the end of the corridor; you reach it, take a deep breath as you square your shoulder, knock on the door, and open it.
โGood morning, sir. I am your new intern, (full name), and I am very happy forโฆโ
โ(name).โ a soft voice interrupts you, and you blink, stopping dead as the door closes behind you. Then you see the person waiting for you, their hands and back resting on the edge of the professorโs podium, and you stop breathing.
The anguish on Ereinionโs expression is so intense it borders on panic; he starts walking towards you, slowly, like a hunter trying not to spook a doeโฆ before he has time to shoot her.
โ(name), Iโm so sorry.โ he says, his tone pleading โLet me explainโฆ I swear I didnโt knowโฆโย
May I say I really like your suit? Itโs very smart, I like the embroidery on the lapels. This is what Ereinion said upon meeting you, an apparently sincere compliment that immediately charmed you. Not many men would have noticed a detail like that, let alone thought of complimenting it, but a person who knows much about fashion, who works in the field and loves it as much as you do, would have.
You canโt stop staring at him -him. HIM!- as the enormity of the truth comes crashing down on you, burying you alive. Itโs not possible, you desperately tell yourself, suddenly feeling dizzy, there must be an explanation, it canโt be trueโฆ
But it is, the reality too clear and evident to be denied, and it is now standing in front of you, close enough you could touch him.
Ereinion is Gil-Galad. Gil-Galad is Ereinion. The famous fashion designer you couldnโt wait to work for and learn from, and the charming man who seduced you and gave you the best night of your life. They are one and the same, the two sides of the same coin, and they both made a fool of you.ย
โI am sorry, truly.โ he murmurs, kind and anguished as he takes your hands in his, but you have quickly stepped back, putting as much space between you as you can.
โNoโฆ noโฆโ you stammer, barely aware of the words you are uttering; your head is spinning, and your legs a moment away from giving way, as you realise the enormity of the mess you have gotten yourself in โI canโtโฆ itโs not possibleโฆโ
โ(name), pleaseโฆ we can find a way to make things work, if you just let me explainโฆโ
You donโt; you have no interest in whatever this man, whoever he is, may have to say, and you donโt want to remain in his presence a moment more, not to mention your eyes have already filled with tears and you donโt want to give him the satisfaction of seeing how shattered you feel. So you swat his hand away, like you would do with an insect, and
โYouโฆ you bastard!โ you scream in his face โYou ruined everything!โ
before turning and running out of the room, deaf to his pleads to stop.ย
*****
You really thought you had made it. You really thought you had nothing to worry about. You really thought you had found something beautiful. And nowโฆ all of it has disappeared like snow at the coming of spring, leaving behind nothing but shame and rejection.
There is no alcohol in the apartment, since you usually prefer to drink socially rather than when alone, and this is at the same time a very good thing and the worst possible outcome. You spend two hours lying on your bed, crying inconsolably as you hide your face in your pillow; your phone hasnโt stopped ringing ever since you ran out of the Arda, but you didnโt even bother taking it out of your bag. You canโt be fully sure all those calls and texts are his, and not of Mirdania, who might have heard what you did and be consequently worried about you, or someone else, but you donโt care; you feel so humiliated, so completely annihilated, you donโt even bear the thought of talking to your friend or your family.
You still canโt believe it. You were so excited, and nervous, of meeting Gil-Galad, a famous fashion designer whose work you had long admired, and then you end up in bed with him, making love with an intensity you had never experienced before, without even realising.
Is Ereinion his real name, and the one all fashion fans in the country know a pseudonym? Or is it the opposite? Did he realise the woman in front of him was his future intern when you exchanged names at the club, and decided to have sex with you simply because he found you desirable, and to hell with the work relationship you were due to begin only a few hours later, or he seduced you with the precise intent of making you his lover as well as his intern? Did he plan on spending his days teaching you the finer points of the art of fashion, and his nights with you in his bed?
Well, if thatโs the truth, youโll have to disappoint him. A relationship, whether romantic or sexual, between a mentor and a mentee would be absolutely inappropriate, it might get you in trouble should the Arda learn about it, and the power imbalance alone is something you are determined to avoid, because how could you care, and trust, and deal as equals with a man who could make it impossible for you to be hired in any fashion house in the country after a simple fight?
Youโve known him for less than twenty-four hours, and he clearly does not deserve your affection given how he deceived you, but the thought of losing Ereinion, that youโll never see him again and never get to feel the emotions he filled your heart with in the few, precious hours you have spent together, breaks your heart. And thatโs not all: youโll also have to give up on your internship, because since the simple thought of seeing Ereinion again feels unbearable, how can you hope to work closely with him for six months? Despite his undeniable talent as a designer you are not even sure you want to work for him; what if he actually asks for sexual favours in exchange for his teachingsโฆ?
A small part of you is aware you are being too harsh in judging him, and that his heartbroken expression when you met at the Arda clearly suggests Ereinion was as unaware of your future working relationship as you were when you met, but you are too heartbroken to reason. The internship was all you aspired to and worked for for almost a year, you had invested so much on it, hoping it could help you start building a career as a fashion designer, like you had dreamt of doing since you were little, and now all of it was in vain. And last nightโฆ you really donโt believe in love at first sight, but you had never felt so intensely attracted to someone; you sincerely enjoyed the time you spent talking and dancing, and your lovemaking was sweet, intense, even loving; Ereinion had been everything you had ever looked for in a partner and then more: handsome, passionate, generous, able to share his pleasure with you and to take care of yours.
You really thought you could build something together; at the very least you wanted to, desperately, and the loss of that potential future makes you feel more lonely than ever.ย
Only a few hours ago you felt amazing, about to begin a prestigious work experience and pursue a relationship with a partner who had stolen your heart; and now you have neither, you have lost everything, and while there will -might- be other job opportunities, and other men, you canโt help but think this was your chance, he was, as a lover or as a mentor if not both things together, and you have wasted it all awayโฆ
Deep in your sadness as you are, it actually takes you a while to realise the doorbell is ringing, more and more insistently. You ignore it, since you have never felt so unsociable and really donโt want to see anyone, but after a while the shrill sound hurting your eardrums is replaced by a voice, one you have heard for the first time only twelve hours ago but that you canโt help but recogniseโฆ
โ(name), itโs me!โ Ereinion calls for you from outside the door โPlease, itโs not like you think! Let me explain!โ
He came to your apartment! You never told him where you live, which means he must have found it on your curriculum, which the Arda has provided him with. Anger mounts inside you; how dares he? Had you wanted to talk to him you would have answered his calls, or called him yourself, since you exchanged numbers; what gives him the right of coming to bother you at home?
You rise from your bed and walk to the door. โGo away!โ you cry, forcing yourself to make those words sound like an order rather than a plea.
โNot unless you let me talk to you.โ he promptly answers from outside.
โListen, Ereinion or whatever your name isโฆโ
โEreinion is my name. Gil-Galad is my second name, that I use forโฆโ
โ... you have until the count of five to leave, otherwise Iโll call the police to say you are threatening me. One!โ
โYou wonโt do it. Youโre not that cruel.โ
He is not wrong, and the fact heโs still able to see right through you pains and angers you both; you ball your fists, wishing he could see how furious you are.
โAre you really sure?โ you ask in your most cruel tone โIf you get arrested the papers might come to know about it; is this the sort of publicity you want for your brand? Two!โ
โ(name)...โ
โStop saying my name, it wonโt help you. Three!โ
โ(name), I swear I didnโt know!โ
You stop counting, hesitating despite yourself. โIt changes nothing.โ you whisper softly, resting your forehead against the door โWhat is done is done. I canโt work for you after what we shared last night, and I donโt feel comfortable dating you either, since you are everything I wish to be and will never get to become. I am very sorry, but we should both forget we ever met.โ
You hear him grunt. โDonโt I get a saying in this? It concerns me as well.โ he points out unhappily โItโs also my relationship, and my job.โ
โYou donโt. Iโm very sorry, but this is the only thing I feel comfortable with doing. Ereinion, please, if you care for me just go.โ
Silence.
โI know youโre still there. Pleaseโฆโ
โI like the way you say my name.โ you hear him murmur; his voice is hoarse, deep, and damn, you wish it didnโt make you shiver โI like it very much, you know? I wanted to make you scream nothing more all night long, and I almost didโฆโ
You strife a sob as the unbidden memories of your night together fill your mind; your self-control has reached its limit, and you donโt know how much longer you can resist before opening the door and throwing yourself into his arms to beg him to make it all go away.ย
โPlease. Please just goโฆโ
โI will; you have my word. But let me speak to you face to face, please. I swear the next time you say leave, Iโll walk out of this door and youโll never see me again.โ
The thought is terrifying; a moment later you have opened the door, and moved silently aside to let Ereinion, who looks as tormented as you feel, walk inside.
The door closes, and the two of you can do nothing but stare at each other. You must look horrible -half dressed, puffy eyes, make-up smudged- but there is nothing but tenderness in Ereinionโs eyes as he looks at you; tenderness and heartbreak.
โI swear I did not know.โ he starts after a minute โI know the matter is more complicated than that, but I want you to know. When I met you last night, I had no idea you were my trainee. Remember you never told me you attend the Arda, or even just that you study fashion; there are so many universities and schools in this city, how was I supposed to know?โ
Once again, heโs not wrong. โBut had the school not given you my curriculum? (name) is a pretty uncommon name, didnโt you remember reading it? Thereโs even my picture on it!โ
Openly embarrassed, Ereinion admits he didnโt - not properly. โI received an email from the school yesterday morning, with the data of the student I was going to mentor. I was actually excited about it, but I was busy with something else at the time and, err, I just read the text real quick, without opening the attachment. Your name did sound familiar, but I didnโt make the connection. I only realised what was happening fifteen minutes before you arrived, when I finally opened that blasted -Iโm sorry- email.โ
โI see.โ you murmur, and while you are relieved he did not try to deceive you, as he said, the problem at your hands is much bigger than a simple lack of goodwill.ย
โThe suit I wore yesterdayโฆ I made it myself, you know?โ you murmur as you hug yourself; itโs pointless to mention it, but you want him to know โItโs the piece that won me the internship.โ
Ereinion smiles; you have no way of knowing, since youโve only met yesterday, but his closest associates would marvel at how often heโs doing it while heโs with you. โI should have known; it is lovely. And I went to the schoolโs atelier, I saw your creations; you really are talented, (name). I would be proud to work with youโฆ and I would have thought the same had I not met you last night at the club.โ
It is a beautiful thing to say, beautiful enough to fill your eyes with tears. โThank you; I would have been happy to work with you too.โ
โThen letโs do it. I have a new collection coming out next year, I want your input, there are so many things I want to discuss with you, people I want to introduceโฆโ
โBut we canโt. Ereinion, Iโฆโ you sigh, because nothing is harder than making a case while at the same time desiring the opposite โItโs always been important for me to keep my private and work life separate, which is why I would never date one of my lecturers, and itโs the same, if not more, for a mentorship.โ
โBecause you think I could fire you if you refuse to sleep with me?โ
โI donโt think you would; but it wouldnโt be fair for you either. What if I make a mistake you would dismiss someone else over, or I am up for some promotion someone else deserves more? I would never ask for any special treatment, but I donโt want you to have to choose between making me happy and treating me fairly. Becoming a fashion designer has been my dream since I was ten, but I donโt want people to say I have built my success because I slept with someone.โ
You both reflect on the matter for a minute; Ereinion folds his arms to his chest, as if he had to physically stop himself from reaching out and embracing you. โAnd I guess you would not want me as a partner, since you canโt have me as a mentor.โ
โI wish it was that easy. I do want you; I want you desperately. But knowing how successful you are, and the fact I havenโt even started my career, and this whole mess with the internshipโฆ I donโt think it would work; I need to be in a relationship where there is no power imbalance, and Iโm afraid this is not our case.
โSo youโre throwing away everything we have? Everything we could have?โ
โItโs not like I want to!โ you cry out, frustrated; why can he not see how much youโre hurting? โWhat I feel for you, what I have shared with youโฆ I had never felt it before; but I am not going to sacrifice my principles, and my self-respect, for a lover. Not even you, Ereinion; and if you canโt understand it, and accept it, youโre not the sort of man I want to be around.โ
Silence falls; your heart has the time to pound five times before the tall, handsome man in front of you sighs, takes a step forward, and cautiously reaches out with his hand. โMay I touch you?โ
โI am not radioactive.โ
He grins, and a moment later heโs holding you in his arms. โThere might be a way for you not to have to give up on your internship.โ he murmurs โYou could do it with someone else.โ
โ... what?โ
โI could swap interns with another of the designers. Celebrimbor is set on working with his mentee, who I have realised is your friend Mirdania, but Cirdan is an old friend, and when I spoke to him he said he doesnโt mind taking you and letting me take his new intern, Elrond. You would love working with him, Iโm sure; Cirdan is a gentleman, and knows more about the business than any person I know. You would have much to learn from him.โ
You consider the matter for a minute, safely held in his embrace. โYou told him why you canโt work with me?โ
โI told him we are family friends, and therefore it wouldnโt have been proper for us to work together. Itโs not exactly the truth, but I think it was a more appropriate explanation; and he promised heโll keep the truth for himself.โ
Working for a successful designer like Cirdan is an opportunity anyone in your situation would give an arm and a leg to get; and you must admit it, the prospect is exciting.ย
โThank you.โ
โMy pleasure. I donโt want you to lose this internship, (name); you deserve it, and it would be a great opportunity for your future.โ Ereinion murmurs; he kisses your hair, sweet and chaste โI donโt want you to have to give up on your dreamsโฆ but, if I may be selfish just for a minute, I also wish you wouldnโt give up on us simply because weโre working in the same field.โ
โI donโt work; Iโm still a student.โ you mumble; you rest your cheek against his shoulder, and suddenly you feel as if you hadnโt rested in a year.
โYou know what I mean. (name), do you really think I care about that? Because I donโt, and the last thing I want is you to feel you have something to prove, or some standard to reach, in order to be somehowโฆ worthy of me. And you shouldnโt either.โ
Heโs right, and you know it; you never thought Erenion could lose interest in you, or not consider you a partner on equal terms, simply because heโs more successful than you - which is an unfair comparison to begin with, since your career hasnโt even started yet. The problem is you, and your insecurities, which maybe youโll never get rid of completely, but as he said, you shouldnโt allow them to stop you from pursuing a relationship with a person you sincerely care about.ย
You can become a successful fashion designer relying on your own strength; and you can keep your private and professional life separate, like youโve always done.
You feel him smile as you circle his shoulders with your arms, and now youโre holding each other, the intimacy different from what you shared last night, but equally precious. โI should probably go back to the school.โ you murmur โTo talk to mister Cirdan, and the administration office.โ
โSounds fair; as long as you remember you have a date tonight.โ
You assure him you do; you share a smile. โCan I drive you there?โ
โIโd like that. Come, I need a minute to prepare.โ
You share a new kiss, and Ereinion smiles as you take his hand to guide him inside.
hey we saw you throwing down coin from across the tavern and we really dig how quickly you want to be rid of it
Serena x Solas
"You change...everything."
Art Tag
You were my friend.
Thranduil Fluff Alphabet
I'm obsessed with him rn. idk I made this for myself for fun but maybe people will like it?? Just my headcanons. Lemme know if you agree or disagree. I've seen different versions for the alphabet, so I just came up with my own combo lol (Also written with a human reader in mind and gender-neutral)
Affection (How do they show love? Are they touchy, verbal, or more subtle?) He never shows outright affection in public, although he can't resist some subtle touches and comments whispered in your ear. When you're alone in the evenings, he is very loving. Wants to be close to you, either with you in his lap or cuddling close in bed. Strokes your arm, your cheek, your hair while you talk. Gently kisses you.
Butterflies (How did they behave around their partner when they first fell in love?) He appreciates fine jewelry and likes seeing you wear pieces he's given you. They look so stunning on your neck, ears, wrists. The first item was a necklace he gave you before the spring ball. He'd had his seamstresses make you something appropriately formal. He had the necklace crafted to match as a surprise. He told himself he was just providing for his guest, being polite, but when he saw it around your neck, he felt his breath catch. He couldn't help the flutter of delight he felt whenever he saw it sparkling against your skin. That was the first indication of his feelings for you, and the gifted jewelry just kept coming after that.
Comfort (How would they help their partner when they feel down/have a panic attack/etc.?) Will offer anything and everything he can think of until he learns your preferences, after which he'll automatically do whatever that is. Do you want to be held or not touched? Do you need a handkerchief, water, or something to eat? Do you want to talk about it or just sit in silence for a little while? Whatever you need, he'll learn to read you and comfort you accordingly.
Domestic (What is domestic life with them like? Do they take over chores?) Loves his home and puts a lot of thought into furnishing it. It warms his heart when you say you like living there, that it feels like your home too. He does the most to try to make your rooms functional but comfortable. He's never had to do chores in his life, but if he had to, he'd be so thorough and efficient.
Equal (Are they the dominant one in the relationship or rather passive?) There's always going to be an inherent power imbalance between you because he is king, but he tries not to let that overwhelm you. It may take some time as he's not used to it, but he does consider you his equal in your relationship, meaning he involves you in important decisions that affect you. He also does his best to learn your preferences in terms of communication, love languages, etc. Occasionally, he forgets and gives you an order or uses an authoritarian tone, but you give him a look that puts him in his place, which is not above you.
Fight (Would they be quick to forgive their partner? What are fights with them like?) Can be cold and calculated, so he's not someone you want to piss off. Arguments usually arise when he's been working too much and you feel neglected. He might get snippy with you because he's tired, while you might be passive aggressive about how he's been acting. As your relationship develops, you feel bold enough to call him out when he's being more king than husband. He'll realize you're right and apologize, but he won't linger on it. You've only had a serious fight once, and it kind of scared you; you spent the night in your private chambers instead of with him. The next day, you told him he could never speak to you that way again, and he promised to stop if you ever caught him being cruel.
Gifts (What types of gifts do they give their partner? Do they like receiving gifts?) He likes giving you jewelry. Expense is no concern, but he puts a lot of thought into each item, choosing elements with a story or special meaning or that match your eyes or are your favorite color. He also enjoys receiving gifts, regardless of what they are. The fact that you were thinking of him makes him feel appreciated.
Honest (How honest are they with their partner, even when it's hard?) Pulls no punches. He's good with words and able to manipulate the truth to serve his own purposes at times, like during trade negotiations or other diplomatic matters. With you, he's more straightforward, although he may keep things from you, such as matters that are worrying him. Later in your relationship, he becomes more open and knows you can tell if he's not being completely honest. He also learns to soften his words so he doesn't accidentally upset you with his bluntness.
I Love You (Who said it first? How often do they say it? Do they show it without words?) It builds from smaller confessions along the way, such as how much he enjoys your company and how the sight of you brightens his day. Then he's saying things like "I cannot stop thinking about you" or "I cannot imagine my life without you." One day, he lets "meleth nรฎn" (my love) slip; you just look so beautiful and happy and he hardly realizes he's said it until you stare at him. Then you surprise him by saying "I love you" in Elvish. After that, you both say it practically every day. He also shows his love through gifts and spending time with you apart from his duties.
Jealousy (Do they get jealous? How do they handle it?) He's pretty secure in your relationship, and he would consider himself above jealousy, but it does happen sometimes. Since he's not very public about your relationship, people tend to forget and visitors often don't even know about it. If someone is standing too close to you, laughing too hard at your jokes, or dancing with you in more than a friendly manner, he can't take his eyes off you. One piercing look is enough to make them think twice. Even if they weren't actually flirting, they'll back off. Depending on the situation, he may become more possessive: resting a hand on your lower back, leaning in closer to speak to you. After, you'll tell him he has no need to worry, and he'll deny that he was worried about anything.
Kiss (What are their kisses like? Where do they like to kiss you and be kissed?) He will kiss you anywhere: lips, cheeks, forehead, neck, hands. His kisses are often quick, gentle but firm. Unless he's kissing your lips, in which case he usually doesn't rush things. Slow and sensual is the vibe. But he lets you set the pace, so if you're feeling impatient or in the mood for something more passionate, he's happy to oblige. If you kiss him out of nowhere, you might earn a faint blush, especially if it's on his forehead or the back of his hand.
Love language (What is their love language?) Gifts and words of affirmation. He appreciates the finer things, so he definitely enjoys receiving gifts of all kinds, but he is also a sucker for more personal gifts. If you write him a poem, paint him a picture, or knit him a blanket, he will cherish it like a precious jewel. It's the thought that counts with him. He also appreciates language. He carefully chooses his words, so he likes for others to show the same intentionality. He likes the reassurance of your words so he knows exactly how you feel. If you speak to him in Elvish, he will melt.
Marriage (Do they want to get married? How do they propose? What would the marriage be like?) He is only interested in a relationship if it will lead to marriage, but he will not rush into a proposal. He follows a traditional courtship. From taking horseback rides in the forest to bringing you flowers or reciting poetry, he will always be romantic about it. He might take things so slow that you wonder if you'll have to propose to him, but he would prefer that you wait until he's ready so he can do it properly. Although the wedding will be a large royal affair, the proposal is very intimate and sweet. He asks you in your favorite spot in the palace and reads a poem he wrote for you.
Nicknames (Do they call their partner pet names? What nicknames/pet names do they give their partner?) He prefers to hear his name from your lips. He also frequently uses your name, although he will also say "dearest" or "my love" once he's confessed his love to you. The first time you returned the use of "my love," it warmed his heart; he especially likes when you say it in Elvish.
Open (How open are they with their partner? Do they share everything with them or are they more reserved?) He'll hold onto certain things, like his father's death, until he's very close with you, but he will eventually share. Early on, he also has to keep classified information from you because of the rules but also for your own safety. Once you're married, the kingdom's affairs become your own, and he can tell you more about his work. He doesn't mind sharing other things from the start, but you usually have to prompt him and ask questions. It just doesn't occur to him that you'd be interested in knowing certain things that seem trivial to him, but you assure him that you want to know everything about him. He appreciates how open you are with him and tries to do the same in return.
Patience (How easily angered are they?) He can be quite patient; time passes more slowly for elves after all. But that doesn't mean he's happy about it. He will wait for answers, but he doesn't appreciate it. He isn't kept waiting often, being the king, but if negotiations are dragging on or responses are overdue, he'll be a little huffy about it. He's more patient with you, for example, giving you space and time if you need to process things, but you can tell if he's getting antsy.
Quirk (What's a random specific thing about them?) He is very particular about his wine and has quite the curated collection in his cellars. He knows a lot about how its made and what creates different flavors. He enjoys trying different varieties, and it's one of the items he's most willing to trade for, but he usually ends up preferring his old standbys. If you acquire a bottle of a new kind, he'll be excited to try it. Although he will rave about it, you can tell if he's exaggerating for your sake. If you're less of a wine enthusiast, he will try not to bore you with details, but he'll appreciate any time you try some.
Remember (What is their favorite moment in their relationship?) His favorite memory is seeing you walking down the aisle on your wedding day. He couldn't help but smile more than the rest of the court had ever seen. He felt honored that you chose him and pleased to share his feelings for you with others for the first time. When you met his gaze, he was overwhelmed with love and pride, not to mention admiration of your lovely clothing and jewelry. His second favorite memory is removing said clothing and jewelry later that night.
Security (How protective are they? How do they protect their partner/like to be protected?) Annoyingly protective. It's just that when he realizes how much he cares for you, he starts worrying about something happening. You do appreciate the thought, but it feels stifling when he stops letting you go anywhere without a guard. You have to convince him that it's too much, and he agrees to let up as long as you still have someone escort you if you go into the forest alone. You do feel very safe in the palace and with him. He's a formidable warrior, so you trust him to protect you from any danger should it arise. You worry about him as well if he has to go to battle, and you make him promise not to take unnecessary risks.
Thrill (Do they need to try out new things to spice up their relationship? Or do they prefer a certain routine?) The most daring thing he'll do is swimming in a forest pool under the moonlight. He ensures his guards keep a safe distance to provide privacy. The first time it happened unplanned as you took an evening walk and found the secluded pool. Somehow or other you both ended up naked in the water (after all, you didn't want to get your clothes wet but the water seemed so inviting), and it ended up being quite the romantic setting. It's something you do occasionally when you want to spice things up but nothing crazy.
Understanding (How well do they know their partner? Are they empathetic?) You have some things in common, which is what drew you together, but there are many ways in which understanding between you can be difficult. First, there's the difference of royalty versus commoner. Second, he's an elf and you're a human so there's cultural differences. Besides that, there are other little ways you differ that aren't that big of a deal on their own but add up to potential miscommunication or misunderstanding. It can be hard at first, but he makes a real effort to consider your perspective and listens intently when you tell him about your experiences. If you ever feel insecure about your position or background, he will reassure you that he loves you for who you are and doesn't look down on you for any reason.
Value (What is important to them?) Above all, he values loyalty and privacy. While he does engage in trade and relations with other places, Mirkwood is his priority, and he isn't fond of outsiders. He keeps his circle of friends and advisors close and tight-knit. He appreciates those who care about his kingdom as much as he does. He also loves nature and considers the flora and fauna of his realm to be as important as its people.
Wound (How do they feel about exposing their scars/injuries?) While physical scars are difficult, invisible scars can be hard to heal as well, and he has some of both. Early in your relationship, he prefers that you not ask about his scars. They bring up bad memories, and he's a bit insecure about how they look. His worst is the side of his face, injured fighting dragons, which he keeps concealed by a glamor. It takes some convincing for him to show you, and you reassure him that you think he's beautiful no matter what. As he opens up to you about battles that caused his wounds, he's able to process some of the internal trauma, making the outward reminders less painful.
Xtra (A random relationship headcanon?) The fact you are mortal is a subject he tries to avoid because thinking about it pains him. He knows you won't be in his life forever, but he can't imagine not being with you at all, so he treasures every moment you spend together. If you ever doubt whether you should be together or worry that he'll be in too much pain once he loses you, he'll tell you that it would be more painful to be apart from you now, knowing how he feels about you. The thought has crossed his mind of Beren and Lรบthien, although he's not sure if he could truly choose a mortal life if given the chance. He would rather there were a way for you to be granted immortality. The likelihood of either is slim, so he tries to focus on your relationship in the present without worrying about the future. He just loves you so much that he can't bear the thought of not being by your side.
Yuck (What are some things they wouldn't like in general or in a partner?) He is generally wary of strangers because he doesn't know how to read them yet and isn't sure if they're trustworthy. He won't stand for dishonesty from his court or visitors alike. He also won't tolerate cruelty to animals. One of his pet peeves is being interrupted whether it be during a meeting or a social gathering, especially if it's not for anything he considers important.
Zeal (Are they willing to go to great lengths for the relationship?) He is a very passionate person although he maintains a cool collected exterior in general. He lets his barriers gradually drop with you to the point that his expression of emotions can be overwhelming. He will do anything he can to please you. He doesn't always get it right, but he's always learning from you and improving your relationship. If you ever ended up in trouble, he would take extreme measures to ensure your safety. There really isn't anything he wouldn't do for you if you asked or needed him.
Thanks for reading if you made it this far!
Its been a rough week, I need to take ibuprofen with Tolkien elves
More elvs chiming soon once it's not 1am <3
solas and felassan commission for @evilbunnyking, thank you!
God damn Dragon Age and their god damn beautiful scenery and their god damn heart wrenching tragic romance. I feel compelled to draw all the moments of dialogs that happen in my head but not in the game because I need more of these two ;_;



