Dark Words For Dark Times

Dark, inappropriate, gruesome, weird, stoner, and/or intelligent ponders for us to think about during our pointless existence as we ride on a massive sphere circles another sphere neighbors by nine other spheres.

[dark-words4dark-times]

“The world is so complicated but no one else see’s it for what it really is....”

Just a note about high functioning autism. I don’t seem like I have it. A lot of us don’t. But that doesn’t make it any less real. You don’t feel what goes on in our mind and body. You don’t feel the irritation everyday when people just don’t understand. Or when all the world seems to say is: “your too harsh” “change is inevitable” “others have feelings to” “you have to do things you don’t want to” or my favorite “grow up and start acting like an adult already”

We don’t expect pity or expect you to want less from us. At least I don’t. I just want a little extra time to adjust. Throwing me to the wolves isn’t gonna do anything but make me panic and give up. I’m relatively normal. Socially and emotionally I struggle. I never even knew I was autistic until I was 18. I was sent to a psychologist to be test for bipolar disorder like my father. My therapist had the suspicion I was bipolar and wanted to know so she could make a treatment plan suited for it. But when he (psychologist) diagnosed me as autisic and began to explain things about me and linked them to me as a child it all made sense.

I understand myself now I just have to fight in a world that doesn’t.

[dark-words4dark-times]

Right now all I have in me is all this anger. My world is changing. Having aspergers me and change don’t get a long. The truck I bought with my own money, my first vehicle, is down for the count and needs a lot of cash to fix. I’m under the pressure to just get rid of him but I can’t bring myself to give up on him. Same with my boyfriend. My family is pushing me to get rid of him and I’m not ready to give up. My moms boyfriend is out of the picture and that changes how my home life functions. She’s heartbroken and I feel like a babysitter so she isn’t alone. My job didn’t work out and I couldn’t force myself to stay any longer. It was getting to the point where did physically break down not just mentally.

“I’ve cried so much these last two weeks nothing else comes out but anger....”

I don’t know how to deal with anger. I used prescription meds for it before and I don’t want to rely on it because I know realize they didn’t help me cope but just covered it up and tried to bury it.

“You cant bury pain”

[dark-words4dark-times]

This is my rescue

A year ago in March one of our outdoor cats left what was left of her litter under the plum tree in the sun. It wasn’t the first time she’s done it. 3 hours later the babies were still baking in the sun. 90% of the time the babies were with their uncle Mosby. The mother was neglectful and the babies were unhealthily small for their age because of her lack of feeding them. I made the decision and took them into my care. A little boy and little girl kittens. The boy would later have health issues I could not handle as a human so I gave him back to his uncle and he raised him himself and he did make it. But I kept the girl. I fed her, wiped her little furry bum, and cared for her every 3 hours for 3 weeks until her infections cleared. I introduced her to her aunt who had babies in our back room. She took her in and taught her to eat dry food and use a litter box but she still slept with me every night. She’s my baby. Her name is Graycie. As you can see in the photo her left eye is permanently blinded from feline herpes.

She is evil, she is cunning, but she is also sweet. I just left a man for her (there were other reasons we didn’t work but the main one is this). He did not accept her because she is naughty. Because she is still a kitten and gets little feisty at night. But my love for her outweighs his hate. I can not be with someone who threatens to kill my pets because they are feisty. Is this wrong? I don’t think so. Yes she is just an animal but not to me. She is my child. My fur baby. My ESA (emotional support animal) and I’m her ESH (emotional support human).

[despairing-soul]

[onlinecounsellingcollege]

Steps to Self-forgiveness

1. Take responsibility for what you said or did.

2. Think about how you were feeling at the time, or what was driving you to act in that way.

3. Related to this, try to identify the underlying need, or the motive behind the thing you now regret. (For example, respect from others, approval from others, wanting to feel good about yourself, wanting to pay another back, and so on.)

4. Express your regrets and attempt to make amends if your words or your actions have affected someone else.

5. Think of how you’ll change and will act differently, if the same situation occurs again. This is the real person that you truly want to be.

6. Write yourself a caring and empathic letter where you forgive yourself, and tell yourself you can move on.

7. Remember that your human – and we all have deep regrets; and we’re all on a journey – for there’s non-one who is perfect.

[thegoodvybe]

[thegoodvybe]

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[chickencorp]

It’s Alright - Mother Mother

[fucking-voices-kill-me]

it’s my fault, isn’t it?…I’m so sorry…

[zarathustra-would-be-proud]

[xoblxrryfxce-deactivated2023071]

If you’re reading this, you’ve survived every suicidal thought you’ve ever had.

That is your power.

[dark-words4dark-times]

What about the ones that are in my head right now

[cwote]

Just learn to say no and do so without explanation.

[dark-words4dark-times]

I feel like trying to kill myself is the only way to get “I’ve had enough” apparent to those around me...

[dark-words4dark-times]

Do you ever just see things normally make you smile but all you can think is horrible negative things.

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NSFW will be tagged as #lemon sorta NSFW is #Lime Weird fet shit/ extreme NSFW is #orange reblog to spread awareness that we’re back on the citrus scale

[eroscestlavie]

u know how the tail of a really little brand new kitten sticks right up in the air and how their bodies are kinda chubby

thats good 

[eroscestlavie]

FORGOT to provide Evidence

[afishinspace]

In Austria, we call kittens at that age “Autodromkatzerl”, which translates to “bumper car kittens”, because of the way their tail sticks up. It’s not a really common word, but a very cute one, I think

[eroscestlavie]

this is a genuinely delightful bit of knowledge, thank you for sharing this!! omg

[princesstigerbelle]

More proof!!!!

[knights-of-reylo-reborn]

omg bless this post

[dark-words4dark-times]

“More POOF”