Just trying to find my place

Indie Heba Motou (OC) rp blog. Selective. Anon friendly. 15+ years rp experience. Mun: 30+

[secondtrumphet]

;; Thinking "but this" or "but that" when you've celebrated the murder of someone? NO! Disgusting! You're demonic, a freaking psychopath and sick!!! There is no reason to celebrate a man who was a father and husband losing his life! In front of his WIFE and CHILD! YOU ARE disgusting and demonic and never EVER filth I wanted to ever follow me! PLEASE BLOCK ME! I don't want to see you, I don't want to speak with you, PERIOD! That goes for anyone on either side of the political aisle! Are you even HUMAN?? That's what I want to know, because if you have a single iota of humanity how could you celebrate a life snuffed out forever??!!!!

[secondtrumphet]

PSA

;; If you're the filth that celebrates someone being murdered. UNFOLLOW NOW! I'm just going to say it. If you're one of them, you're disgusting, you're demonic, and you're cruel and I DON'T WANT YOU FOLLOWING! PERIOD!!!

[thesilvermoonraysarchive]

@darkenedtogray Said: From what he understood, Yugi tended to think little of himself even more over time. Not just because of the bullies from his past, though that was the major reason. Another had to do with the fact that it turned out they were both princes of some kind.

Rather than giving his brother a boost of much needed ego, it seemed to have done the opposite. He was once again pulled free of his thoughts a moment later though and found himself snickering. And even after the amusement faded, the smirk remained.

He agreed, it was stupid how people could pick on who they deemed as weak. And for what? Some sick thrill? Psychos all of them.

"A few of them have mistaken me for him. They learned the hard way that we're twins," he shared, a pleased and smug smirk curling his lips up.

That smirk remained as well even when he arched a brow and turned his full attention to the dog man beside him. It seemed he'd been right about him getting it. Lived experience maybe? He could see that in today's world. A guy that looked like him would have a lot of heads turning.

"That's a generous offer for a complete stranger," he couldn't help but point out. "But sure, if you're ever in Domino and see a guy that looks like me, but paler, that's my brother."

For some reason, it made him think of his own brother.

Or, half brother. They still hadn't spoken. They weren't (quite literally) at each other's throats anymore, but they still hadn't spoken. He wasn't sure he'd ever be ready to talk to him. Just the thought, what was it like to have a protective brother? A brother who went this far out of his way to help you out? And this guy was a twin, so they must have been the same age. Sesshomaru was his older brother. ...Half brother. Was it different to be related someone by full blood? Would Sesshomaru had been protective of him, if he were a older half demon brother?

...Well. None of these thoughts matter. Can't change what is.

The way this man spoke, Inuyasha wasn't sure how to take the expression, and tone. Yeah, scaring people was fine when they were doing bad things. Pushing them down was as far as this half demon would go, he'd never harm a human. He protected them. When they did stupid things like that, a rough shove was all they would get. Or a smack to the head, that was pretty effective too. Wasn't actual harm, just a show they needed to cut what they were doing to someone out. But he never smirked about it.

Inuyasha didn't take pleasure in hurting others, quite the opposite. Although... he'd never deny the thrill of slicing through a demon threatening the lives of others. That was a different subject entirely, demons didn't follow the same mindset as humans. For him, it was a constant struggle, a strong feeling of both mindsets. That's what it meant to be of mixed blood.

That's not weird at all.

Frown softened, Inuyasha's expression was more stoic than anything else. No real emotion, didn't have any reason to show anything. Only a gaze from those golden eyes, nothing behind their depth. Maybe it was disinterest, he didn't really think about it. He could remember a description like that. Hard not to, when it was the exact same person he was looking at, only with paler skin.

"I don't call it generous, I call it doin' the right thing. Don't need a reason for doin' the right thing, ya just do it when it happens. Never heard of the place, but if I'm there, I'll keep my eyes, 'n ears out."

Speaking of...

"...Ya got anything of his on ya? Somethin' that smells like him. 'Cause that'd help me more than anything else. Gotta nose that can pick up an individual person's location if I know what they smell like."

Humans didn't seem to notice, he'd never met a human who could do it. Distinguish another human's individual scent. Maybe their noses just weren't strong enough.

[darkenedtogray]

Doing the right thing huh? That was a concept that was still pretty new to him. For him, he wouldn't step in to help a stranger unless their lives were threatoned. To him it was none of his business and therefore, none of his concern.

The only one that he'd step in to take a blow for or deal blows of his own for was his twin. Yugi with his tender heart would likely never do it for himself, so that left it up to Heba to do it for him. And well, he'd only recently got his twin back. Like hell he'd let some psycho with a God complex or something do anything to take him away.

Apparently, it had been that way in his previous life too. It was a relief to know that carried over into this life too. There was a rage that burned hot and vicious through him when he saw him picked on or being hurt. But beyond it was a panic he couldn't explain. Truthfully a part of him was even afraid to explain it. What caused that soul deep panic in him was something he was almost afraid to discover.

As for his smirk about laying the hurt on someone. That was only because he knew that those people in particular wouldn't be back to cause more trouble for Yugi. Though he was brought free of his thoughts when he was asked about something that had his brother's scent on it.

"I have a bracelet he gave me.. But it may have more of my scent than his by now," he answered, but after a moment of hesitation, still took it off to offer to the dog man.

@thesilvermoonrays

[noctisday]

He couldn't blame the man for going on the defensive. After all, he had just seemingly shown up out of no where, and it was clear the other had known, or at least felt, him watching for a time. Oberon couldn't help thinking back to when he had first found Yugi again, and how poorly that interaction had gone.

The mistakes he had made.

He didn't want to make those mistakes again. So he stood still, eyes softening when he had thought he meant his brother. Though a small smile tugged at his lips. "You remain twins? Even now… That… That is good," he said, nodding. A sort of comfort fell over his heart at that.

Knowing that these two were so interwtwined with one another that they found their way to be reincarnated still as not just brothers but twins. It was nearly impossible odds. But then, he shouldn't have expected anything different from these two.

They were always stubborn.

"Ah no… No I am not looking for Yugi." He said, lifting his hands to show he meant no harm. "But it is good to see you still so defensive over your brother."

[darkenedtogray]

Heba's brow arched, but that was the only change in his expression as he sized this man up. He gathered at least that this person must be a fae from what he heard him say about he and Yugi being born as twins again. That meant that this man had known their previous lives in some capacity then, not surprising since they'd apparently been princes back then.

The tingle of magic and how the guy appeared as if from thin air told him that the man wasn't human anyway. But the way he spoke of he and his brother with such softness in his voice and eyes.. It had him stiffening further rather than relaxing.

"So you know me and Yugi obviously," he stated, the cogs in his brain already drawing conclusions.

No conclusions as to their familial ties or anything of that sort. But he wondered if this man had been a friend, maybe a vassal. Maybe even a family member of some kind like an uncle or even a man from another of the fae courts. Someone who had heard of their rebirth and came to see for himself.

But that just brought more questions. Wasn't Heba the heir back then? Why wait until now to show himself if he had known of he and Yugi's rebirth? He couldn't see his brother keeping it from any of them.

What the man said next had him concluding that this man was indeed family of some kind though. He knew of his protective nature toward his twin. Something he had apparently been in his first life as well. Rather than relax him, that had him even more tense though.

Only the family he had recently found had shown him what family love was supposed to be. But if this was the new heir to a throne neither he nor his brother truly wanted, he and Yugi could be seen as a threat of some kind. He wouldn't put it past Yugi not to tell him of such things for fear of worrying him. And well, fae were known to be tricksters if the mood struck them.

"Who are you?" he asked, his tone demanding this time. The raised hands, the universal sign of surrender meant nothing to him. It could be a ploy to get him to let down his guard.

[darkenedtogray]

Seeing a guy randomly show himself as if out of nowhere wasn't nearly as shocking as it would have been even a few months ago. He had already seen things that couldn't be easily explained even before he left Egypt and came to Japan. It just continued after that though.

Apparently, youkai for example were supposed to be extinct. But he saw more than a few of them. Then there was also what his brother told him about the fae realm and how they both apparently had fae blood in them.

The only thing that Heba was unsure of was who this guy was. Even the ping of familiarity deep down didn't soften his expression. If anything, it hardened even more from what he heard.

"Oh, you mistook me for Yugi huh? Wrong twin. But exactly do you want with my brother?" he replied, eyes narrowing further as he folded his arms.

cont.

@noctisday

[splinter-sister]

Hey fellas.

There's a blog named @/fucktrpc that's putting posts of dead animals in tags used for rpc. I'd recommend blocking that blog asap as they seem to be a troll blog looking to get some sick kicks.

Please feel free to reblog this to spread awareness.

[game-weaver]

Yugi glanced at him, but he saw that hard gaze and knew that Heba was starting to dig his feet in. He bit his lip, about to respond when Atem came in. "Ah…" But Heba spoke again and he flinched at his comment, stated so bluntly. He wrapped his arms around himself, eyes downcast.

"I've always had imposter syndrome, this isn't anything new," he muttered, starting to feel cornered, wanting the defensive feeling of needing to close himself off creeping up.

He sighed.

"Listen, it's fine. The feeling will pass, it always does."

[darkenedtogray]

Atem looked at his fiance at Heba's answer. Oh, so it was this again? He should have known it was something like that. Aibou seemed to always struggle with this since he first learned of his first life as a prince. He had tried to help him through it too since learning of it himself, but it kept coming back..

And also there was barely anything that would have Heba staring Yugi down like he was now since their very first meeting. He had come to know that much from the fiery twin of his aibou. But rather than say anything on the topic, he sighed and turned to his partner completely.

"I'll leave you two to talk," he murmured to Yugi and bent to give him a short peck. "I'll just be in the living room, alright?"

Hopefully, Heba could finally get through to him where Atem couldn't. For now he went to sit on the sofa, just far enough to give them space, but also close enough to hear everything as he chose and opened a book.

As for the brother in question, Heba didn't even make a teasing comment as he normally would when the two of them displayed their affection for one another. But his frown at least softened as he too sighed and he went back to sit at the kitchen island.

"Yugi these things don't get better if you just ignore them. They're like a poison that just gets worse and worse the longer its there. What exactly makes you think you don't belong here anyway?"

[darkenedtogray]

The brat is back and wanting to cause chaos apparently.

[game-weaver]

"No I...I know," he sighed, pausing in tidying up for a moment. "It isn't that I don't like it. I mean, it's a bit much, even after the last couple years getting used to all...All this." He gestured to himself. "But it can be fun."

He cleared his throat. "It's just hard to feel...I don't know. Like it's normal. Like I belong there. Because I don't. I don't belong there anymore than I belong here." His voice turned to a mumble by the end of that. "But it's fine. I always make it through, now is no different. And it'll be fine."

[darkenedtogray]

Heba paused with the glass of milk halfway to his lips before lowering it right back to his side as his gaze hardened. Feeling like he didn't belong there in that other realm, he could see after living a good portion of his life as a human and nothing else. To suddenly be told different, it would throw anyone into a tailspin of an identity crisis.

It would have them questioning and second guessing everything they thought they knew about their lives and about themselves. Heba should know. He's had that moment not once, but twice now in the matter of a few months in between. First finding out he had a family from Japan he didn't know about and a twin brother he didn't know existed until a chance meeting.

Then to find out the man he thought was his abusive father wasn't actually his father. Apparently a fae king was which made him half along with Yugi.

But not belonging here either? What kind of bullshit was that?

"Explain." That simple word brooked no argument, as his free hand clenched at his side. "How exactly do you not belong here, Yugi?"

It was that same moment that the door opened again and the once king stepped through it. And following the voices, found his fiance and his twin brother in the kitchen. And going by the tension in the air, looked back and forth between them.

"Is everything okay here?"

"Apparently not," Heba answered, his eyes not leaving the back of Yugi's head. "It seems someone is suffering from imposter syndrome."

[game-weaver]

"I'm sorry, I didn't know I was. I shouldn't have been," he sighed. He was still getting used to the whole twin thing. But he just shook his head as he pulled out the fresh pastries to cool and slid in another tray. "Really, it's nothing. I'm always stressed around the Solstice. There's just a lot to do and decide."

Yugi shrugged, though he didn't meet Heba's gaze, just kept himself busy as he started to clean. He had to, he didn't want to be still with his thoughts.

"It's a lot of expectation and I don't even belong in the first place." He mumbled. "It'll be better when it's over."

[darkenedtogray]

"Yeah, no kidding," Heba deadpanned as he looked around at the assortment of baked treats.

This could feed an army. Okay, so that may be an exaggeration, but it would be that much soon if Yugi kept going the way he was. Not that he wouldn't mind taking it off his hands if he had no one else to give them to. Not that Jou and Honda wouldn't be happy to take some of them as well. But that was beside the point.

At least he now knew what it was that had his brother so stressed and sighed as he stood again to get himself a glass of milk. He should have known, of course it would be this with the time of year it was.

"You know, you can just say no," he replied. "If you don't like it, why force yourself?"

[darkenedtogray]

Brother being hard on himself..? Not on his watch. "Hey, stop that. You're awesome, deal with that fact."

[game-weaver]

To say he was startled by his twin suddenly busting into his apartment was an understatement. But the fact that he seemed so concerned was even more worrying. "Heba I-"

He blinked when Heba stated he would kick someone's ass for him. One in particular.

"Walking mum--What, no!" He shook his head and held up his hands before taking a deep breath. "Atem and I are fine, I promise. It's nothing, really. I'm just stressed, that's all."

He said and sighed before turning to go back into the kitchen to check on the pastries he was baking. Had he been baking most of the day? Maybe. He hoped it would relax him.

[darkenedtogray]

Oh, so it wasn't his brother's fiance then.. He needed to be sure to apologize for that "walking mummy" comment later then. Even if he hadn't been here to hear it, Heba had still said it maliciously when he hadn't deserved it. But that could come later, for now, his brother admitted to being worried over something.

"Worried..?" he echoed, frown somehow easing and deepening even more a moment later as he followed him toward the kitchen. "Yeah, I caught that. You were practically broadcasting it at me," he couldn't but tease.

He could guess it was wedding planning or something perhaps. But the anticipation and worry he felt earlier didn't have the under current of giddiness or happiness he'd expect for that. So that meant it had to be unrelated right? So what else could it be then? A tournament he was voluntold to be a part of again?

But would that cause this much stress in his twin?

"What's going on, Yugi?" he asked as he took a seat at the kitchen island and nabbed a baked treat for himself.

[pekesbox]

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[darkenedtogray]

He's okay..

Physically okay anyway, but that was enough to have him relaxing for now as he held up a finger in the universal "just a sec" gesture. He couldn't even remember if he locked his door on his flight out of the apartment before. But it didn't really matter much when it came to what could have been troubling his brother.

"What's going on?" he finally managed after a moment of soft panting. "I can feel your worry, bro," he added, finally coming out of the doorway to let the door close behind him.

Indeed, he could still see the shadows of worry and something else there in the identical violet eyes. What had caused it? Bullying again? If someone bullied him then-

"Who's ass am I kicking?" he demanded, a frown crinkling his brows downward. He noticed a distinct lack of another person as well and his frown deepened. "It better not have been that walking mummy!"

cont.

@game-weaver

[darkenedtogray]

Yuugi all but pounces on him, thrilled he got the drop on him first this time. "Happy Birthday Heba!!!" Of course he brought his twin's favorite treats and a neatly wrapped gift.

Heba laughed as he bent forward from the impact with his back. Almost on reflex, his hands went back to hold his twin steady so he wouldn't fall off as he straightened back up.

"Happy birthday to you too, Yuugi," he answered with a big smile. "I was just about to pop over to your place. Looks like you beat me to it this time."

@mutogamingco

[game-weaver]

Oh...We talking about past deaths?

[darkenedtogray]

"Huh? Who is?" he asked, looking up from his deck immediately.

[darkenedtogray]

"Mm yeah, running is a part of the training," he explained as he wiped his mouth and resealed his bottle. "You need to push yourself to your limit and then push past that limit. But to get you used to it, we'll just do a half mile first."

As he spoke, he pulled his hair back into his usual ponytail, a bit more messy this time though. It was more for necessity than just style this time of course. His own hair however wasn't important. They'd be using a lot of energy doing this, so was glad to hear his twin had eaten well already. Even so..

"It wouldn't hurt to have granola bars and such too, to replenish the energy lost."

cont.

@game-weaver