I'm so Tired...

Age: 28 years -- Pronouns: She/Her/They/Them -- Orientation: Asexual -- high functioning autistic -- dealing with anxiety and some PTSD -- but I'm still friendly! -- Loves writing, voice acting, music, and more -- My old account: https://www.tumblr.com/goldleafgardenia -- My PKMN IRL account: https://www.tumblr.com/illusions-of-the-forest

[darkforestdreams]

IMPORTANT (Please spread the word, at least!)

Okay, PLEASE LISTEN UP! There are two wonderful women out there who are both going through HELL. If you haven't heard of them, they are TheLostNarrator and Magpiepony. And what I'm about to say may sound corny or cliche but I don't say these kinds of things unless I mean them:

They are two of the most amazing, genuine, fantastic people I've ever had to pleasure of being a fan of. I've been a fan of them for at least nine years at this point, and honestly? They've kept me going when I feel that there's nobody good left in the world. I'm not even a romance-loving person but their real life story is the most romantic and one of the most blessed that I've ever heard.

They really, really have had a powerful positive impact on my life. Lost has inspired me to be a fanfiction reader in the future, Magpie has inspired me to write more--I just can't understate how much they both mean to me.

Aaand if you know what happened to Jacksepticeye recently, you'll probably know where I'm going with this. BOTH of them have been demonetized by the AI Dictator and shitty, ever-changing guidelines of "You"Tube.

Here are the links to both of their videos. I can't promise there won't be triggers involving real life, but please, PLEASE go through both of their videos and spread the word of this. I'm not asking you to share their situations because they themselves already have and it's not my situation to spill.

TheLostNarrator's Video:

And Magpiepony's:

Even if you don't like MLP, or grimdarks, or can't spend the money (I sadly can't...), please, please, PLEASE spread the word and help Lost and Magpie get all the support they need.

Not to compare traumas and issues, but I've had very similar experiences they both discuss in their videos and I can tell you how SOUL CRUSHING it is to have all of this stuff hitting you at once. It feels like your world is falling apart everywhere you turn. Like the world you once enjoyed just turned its back on you, peeling its layers back and revealing the ugly truth.

They don't deserve this on top of all of the other pain and grief and worries they're already dealing with. They're certainly not perfect people--no human is--but they're both fantastic and have worked incredibly hard to make it to where they are today. I WON'T LET THEM SUFFER.

Now, I'm not well-versed in Tumblr etiquette, and I'm deeply sorry if I'm making a mistake with this last part, but I'm going to send this to those whom I feel comfortable sending it to. I don't have a lot of social courage or knowledge, but I want to be as effective with this as I possibly can--hopefully without breaking any rules (I'm looking at the Tumblr guidelines and praying that I'm not missing any rule that could get me or anyone else in trouble).

Please let me know if I'm doing something wrong with this list and what I can do to fix it! If you'd prefer me to to remove your name from here, please let me know! I won't judge; we all have our reasons.

@artistic-shapeshifter @bignoodledave @smileheart110 @coy-lee @urbanqhoul @ayyy-imma-ninja @autemka @shandzii @sonicmega @sapphy-artz @afloofwithmultipleinterests @gentleman-velvet @boycottyt-fuck-corpo

TL;DR: YOUTUBE HAS FUCKED UP MORE PEOPLE'S LIVES AGAIN. PLEASE TELL OTHERS AND GIVE THEM SUPPORT OF ANY KIND!

[darkforestdreams]

… I dunno.

(Posting this from my phone, I’ll put tags and stuff on later.

[scamp-boxx]

⭐ Hey now, you're an all star 👁️

Can we just acknowledge the fact that we spent 3/4 of chapter 4 trying to kill him for his Omni Hand only to lose it like 10 minutes later and that there's a 50% chance that he watched it all happen.

[darkforestdreams]

Somehow, if I ever meet Baldwin Williams Jr. (Harley Sawyer's voice actor), I need to ask him if he could say this quote as Harley. XD

[sisan-art]

Just watched the game trailer for chapter 5 of Poppy playtime so I drew Lily Lovebraids

[darkforestdreams]

Beautifully made! You really caught her mix of "oh she's just a cute, happy little doll" and "uhh... she's a freakin' LIVING DOLL".

[beardedmrbean]

[frozencometx]

Reclusa Gaming

Bonus

[darkforestdreams]

Him playing multiplayer by himself would be SO him! I love it!

[darkforestdreams]

MARIO AND LUIGI SPOILERS INCOMING

Because I'm a mess right now and have NO idea how the next week is going to pan out and I really, REALLY need this comfort. HOWEVER, THERE ARE "MAJOR MARIO AND LUIGI BROTHERSHIP" SPOILERS DIRECTLY BELOW!

I'm going to pin this for a while because there's so much fantastic art involving this spoiler that I feel like it'd be a crime not to share, not to mention really interesting theories.

And yes, you'll probably do a double take if you know what it is and look. This spoiler is indeed a comfort for me--or, at least, my interpretation of it is. There's a reason it's been living in my head every day since the beginning of summer.

[darkforestdreams]

My typical facial expression: -_-

My mind typically while wearing said expression: OHMYGODOHMYGODEVERYTHINGISSTRESSINGMEOUTI'MSUCHASCREWUPICAN'TBELIEVEIRIPPEDAHOLEINMYNEWSWEATPANTSTHESECONDDAYIWEARTHEMWHYAREALLOFMYPANTSGETTINGSOTIGHTSOFASTRIGHTNOWISITSTRESSINEEDTOEXCERCISEMORERIGHTNOWGODIJUSTWANTTOBEBETTERWHY'REMYPARENTSWEARINGTHEEXPRESSIONSTHEYARENOWARETHEYTIREDIDIDOSOMETHINGWRONGGETMEOUTOFHEREBUTI'MSCAREDOFTHEWORLDANDHATEEVERYTHINGESPECIALLYMYSELFIFICAN'TACCEPTPRAISEITHINKIS"FAKE"THENHOWCANIACCEPTANYPRAISEITLITERALLYMAKESNOSENSEBUTI'MSTARVEDFORITIDON'TWANTTOBEAWASTEOFSPACEBUTI'MSOMENTALLYSCREWEDUPTHATICAN'TDOANYTHINGRIGHTIHAVESOMUCHWORKONMYSELFSOGODDAMNBADLYEVERYWAKINGMOMENTISSTRESSHOWDOIKEEPGOINGWHENEVERYSINGLEMOMENTISPARANOIA--

Aaand repeat~!

Also, side note, I'm currently listening to "The World Has Gone Insane" from Jekyll and Hyde while writing this. It's SO relatable these days~! ^_^

[cipherstext]

it's just the beast under your bed

[dogposts]

Good boy tries protecting his owner at jujitsu tournament

[afeelgoodblog]

This woman was so nervous about flying, so the flight attendant explained every sound and bump and even sat here holding her hand when it still got to be too much for her.

[afeelgoodblog]

Tom Brown, retired engineer, has saved around 1,200 types of apples from extinction over 25 years

[pianokantzart]

I don’t think this required a eureka moment Luigi, your entire idea is just “push him”

[darkforestdreams]

Oh, Luigi... I love the guy but I think it'd just be easier to PULL Ellow out of there. I mean, no offense to the latter, but his head has biiit of a smaller circumference than his body for one thing.

AND THAT'S NOT EVEN MENTIONING THE GIANT BACKPACK LIKE HELLO? XD

[an-apathetic-moth]

A birthday present for my friend @splynter :D I need to get back into drawing again even if it's just sketches for now.

[darkforestdreams]

Lovely drawing! Especially love the way you colored the darker... well, colors!

[afeelgoodblog]

What a wonderful legacy to leave behind

[darkforestdreams]

Ugh (Slight rant, but searching for likeminded people)

Okay, I'm just going to say it now: I HATE TOILET "HUMOR".

As in, I legitimately despise it. Well, specifically I hate the fact that it's SHOEHORNED IN ALMOST EVERYTHING, and the margin of fictional worlds that are clear from incessantly reminding us that fictional characters go to the bathroom is getting smaller and smaller.

That's my issue with it specifically. One; it's freakin' everywhere, and two; it's hardly even an actual joke, it's just "haha characters here fart or go poop remember that".

I mean, I've been playing Mario and Luigi: Brothership every day since I got it on Christmas (MARIO AND LUIGI: BROTHERSHIP SPOILERS, BY THE WAY!), and I've been thoroughly enjoying it. I like how the story is unfolding, I like the characters, the level design is clever everywhere you go, the music is fantastic, etc..

And then I came across the sidequest where Chilliam and Burnadette are worried about their fathers, and for Burnadette's father... it soured my mood a bit. Chilliam and his dad arguing about puns right after was helpful, though. That helped soothe the burn (ha! See, I can do it too!).

That's not even going into the Extension Corps! Last night I found out about the jokes when (BIG SPOILERS) you gain their Bond to help fight Reclusa. I checked it out online because I don't like surprises like that, and just the way they draaaag it out, especially during such an important scene... it flat out made me uncomfortable and when I reach it I'm just going to get through that cutscene as fast as I can. It actually turned me from mostly apathetic of the Extension Corps to outright disliking them except for Shun (also kind of realized how flat they are as characters, too. I mean, with Zokket that's kind of on purpose, but I've seen WAY more entertaining and layered minion characters.) (BIG SPOILERS END)

I DO NOT WANT TO THINK ABOUT CHARACTERS I LIKE BY PROXY DOING THAT STUFF, OKAY? GEEZ! IT'S FINE IF YOU LIKE IT, I DON'T MIND, JUST DON'T TRY TO MAKE ME LIKE IT.

Maybe it's the autism that makes me feel so strongly about this. For me, these reminders feel like tripping and falling face-first into a cold mud puddle. It's jarring, sours my mood, and just completely breaks the immersion for me.

Most of the time with the franchises I like, I try to ignore that stuff and headcanon that they don't need to do that--I don't know, they all have special antibodies that eliminate the waste in their systems, or something. And I try to replace the scenes that gross me out with something else, but even then it's hard to get past that uncomfortable feeling because, like I said, it's IN ALMOST EVERYTHING.

And YES, I get that Mario and Luigi are plumbers, the "joke" happens in every game (except maybe Galaxy and Odyssey, but I could easily be misremembering), but what's so bad about wanting to see their job as fixing the travelling pipes instead of normal plumbing? I think the idea would give them a good reason for some their adventures and experiences, too. What's so bad about that?

And there are some things I like where I just have to accept the jokes and that it's canon, like with Adventure Time, for example, because it's just so common there. What else can you do in that case?

But can we just tone it down for some other franchises a bit? And if we have to have toilet "humor", maybe put actual HUMOR into it, please? I'm personally very tired of everything I watch, read, or play having those gross-out reminders shoved in my face ever since I was a kid.

Okay, that's about it. Just one more reminder: I DON'T MIND IF YOU LIKE IT, TO EACH THEIR OWN. I DON'T THINK YOU'RE STUPID, OR LOWBROW, OR WHATEVER. THERE ARE SOME VERY INTELLIGENT PEOPLE THAT I LIKE THAT HAVE THAT SENSE OF HUMOR, AND WHILE I DISAGREE IT DOESN'T MAKE ME THINK LESS OF THEM.

I'm just hoping there are other people out there that feel the way I do. I don't want to end this... humor, I just want to balance things out and feel a little less uncomfortable. If it's fiction we can do whatever we want with the characters' needs, so why do we need to be reminded of real life so much?

And please, before comment on how I'm being a prude or pretentious for wanting what I consider to be better humor, ask yourself how my personal opinion can POSSIBLY hurt you if I have no hard feelings over you and what you like.

[xitsensunmoon]

I hate how fast paced the internet made our lives and how it's actively ruining fandom spaces

"Oh I can't be in this fandom, it's literally 5 years old! Obviously no one participates in it anymore"

"Oh will it be weird to comment on a post that's a year old already? Surely that'll annoy the op"

"It sucks that the author haven't updated their creation in months, surely they abandoned it"

I'm gonna skin you alive!!!!!!!! Old things deserve as much attention and love as "trendy" and new things do! Art doesn't fucking have an expiration date!!! Old fandoms are alive and well ONLY because people continue actively engaging with every piece of content in them no matter how old it is! If you're just going to be moaning and groaning about it instead of supporting the creators in your fandom it for sure will die faster!!

[dantedemondino]

Agreed. As someone who prefers to be late to fandoms (weed out the crazies) it makes me sad that just a slight moment of inactivity means they are fucking dead supposedly.