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5 years after... 7/30/20

Hello there, old blog!

It’s been more than 5 years now since my last blog post and I can honestly say that it’s been a crazy journey! Well, that’s just the understatement of the decade considering that we are all experiencing a global pandemic now. (wow.. imagine reading that in 2015. So crazy!!)

I’m actually here because I accidentally forgot my password to my other tumblr account and I tried to retrieved it by email but apparently I had this one opened instead haha. Anyway, just wanted to check in and update this. It feels good reading a post from your past self. :)

Now I just realize that time heals (some) of your scars and problems. I am actually embarrassed by how little my problem was last 5 years ago compared to now. But it doesn’t mean that I regret feeling those emotions. It’s still part of me somehow, I guess my world just got bigger and I grew older too. Hence, bigger and mature problems lol. Anyway, this is me hoping that everything would go back to its normal state.

I can’t even fathom and explain how your country is doing at this current time. Your government feels like a joke and your country’s debt have been just extended to your grandchild’s grandchildren :( It’s sad that at this current time, press freedom is being limited, corruption is highly prevalent and health workers are being degraded because they do not seem to be the priority of the government. People are currently dying but you can’t see/feel the hope that your government would help you. It came to the point where you’re paranoid to walk outside of your own house afraid that you may caught the virus.

I don’t even know how we can survive all this without the release of the vaccine but I just hope and pray that it is soon enough. 

But thankfully, 2020 got a little better because this was also the week tswift released her folklore album (5 days to be exact) and I’ve never been more distracted to my work (haha I honestly can’t think straight). This may be her best work/album/lyrics to date and I’m honestly so thankful for her!!! I am so inspired that I could literally cry for ages. Have you ever experienced that? Idk.. I just love her and her ability to connect with other people all over the world!!!

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There goes your update for this year. Here’s to the rest of the year spent in a quarantine :(

To my future self, hope you’re doing good or even better! Can’t wait to meet you :) You got this, make us proud x

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03.04.15 Totally forgot about this blog!

So hi! Been up to so many things now and I totally and honestly forgot that I had this blog. LOL I made this blog last year during a time that I was very sad and down about myself and felt like I had no one to talk to about my problems. I don't what happened but I just didn't had any time to keep up with a personal blog (with college stuff and all that) at all. But now, looking at my posts (2 posts exactly) I think I'm in a better state now, I mean I don't feel the way I used to feel back then. I don't feel alone like I felt last year, because I learned to appreciate my family and my new set of friends now. But ofcourse, there are still problems I encounter everyday but I just prevent it from going on to my head, I learned to not overthink every problem you have. Just let them be there, be positive about it and just like how taylor swift would say, just shake it off! Be happy. :) Anyway, I'm thinking of updating this blog now and then, just to share thoughts and experiences. Aaaand ofcourse, I'll be changing my url, bio and theme too next time. But for the meantime, I'll leave you with this post. Byeee! x

[darkvoicess]

Frustrations I can't let out or tell anyone.. except with the tears flowing through my cheeks

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06.09.14 | I seriously don't know what to do with this personal blog.

Hi! So I finally recovered my old account and came up with a personal blog (yay!!) but I've got more work to do before it can actually run smoothly(?). Been trying out some good themes for text posts (yea this blog is gonna be texty) but I'm still looking for the perfect one and I also need to follow a lot of blogs that will suit my theme (maybe a quote blog perhaps) So yea, just wanted to let you guys know that this blog will be active in a couple of weeks. This is darkvoicess signing off bye! x