The Ways of The Almost-Jedi @darthxandra - Tumblr Blog

#keepgoing #striveforgreatness

This is GOALS. I hope I marry somebody who will sing Disney sings with our daughter. Real men love Disney.

#relationshipgoals #disney #tangled #cover #dad

Confidence is the only key. I know a lot of people who aren’t traditionally ’beautiful’ – not symmetrical or perfect-bodied or perfect-skinned. But none of that matters because all that shines through is their confidence, humor and comfort with themselves. I can’t think of any better representation of beauty than someone who is unafraid to be herself.

I have already accepted the fact, that I am always going to be somebody he is not afraid of losing.

#darthxandra #quotes

And you tried to change, didn’t you? Closed your mouth more. Tried to be softer, prettier, less volatile, less awake… You can’t make homes out of human beings. Someone should have already told you that. And if he wants to leave, then let him leave. You are terrifying, and strange, and beautiful. Something not everyone knows how to love.

Warsan Shire

Random Fact About Me #1:

I listen to instrumental Disney Songs when I am am lonely.

#randomfact #darthxandra

“If they ask me ‘what are you guys, really?’, what do I tell them?”

“Just say we’re friends.”

That’s what K told me. These screencaps of 500 Days of Summer put together with the subtitle “We’re just friends.” make so much sense. Then being tiled all together seems to have shot me a powerful message. That this is the bullshit hole you are stuck in.

#friends with benefits #500 days of summer #darthxandra

There is not a single day, that I forget to remember you.

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🐞

With him, you never wake up next to the same person you fell asleep with.

My Heart Raced as My Bike Did

Last Sunday, I won my first Bike Race. I finished 2nd amongst 4 lady mountain bikers. It was a criterium where we had to do a 30 minute endurance ride and 2 laps to finish.

I knew I was going to see K.

I prepared myself because for sure all that I can remember seeing him was all the hurt he has caused. And of course the love which has still not died one bit.

His friends were mocking me as I was doing my warm up. Because I couldn’t go near him. I was a laughing stock for 5 minutes.

As the race started, I was the last one to take off. I was already travelling 40kph while the ones ahead of me, well who knows, around 45kph most likely. His friends laughed at me because I was last.

I managed to catch up in the first stretch and first turning point and before I reached their spot, I was already running for 2nd place. Nong Pido was screaming “Nice ‘ya, Winks!”. And it gave me nothing but a sudden boost in my pedaling.

I finished the race in a consistent pace and ended up bagging Silver.

I am not sure of how K felt about that.

After the awarding ceremony, there was a party. The organizers had Manila-based DJs playing us mashups and remixes. I was there. Waiting for somebody I knew. I hung out with other bikers I just heard about. It was fun socializing.

But then I saw K, He was with his jackass friends. They sat behind me. I can see him staring at me.

Then Nong Pido arrived. I gave him a hug. He positioned himself near me. I could heard K’s voice somewhere in the back. Turns out he gave Nong Pido, a bottle of beer. Which was unlikely because they weren’t close friends; and he could give that bottle of beer to just anybody who doesn’t have one. They just know each other by name and don’t usually talk.

I left the party with a heavy heart. I could hug him really tight, but I couldn’t. It’s just too late for that now. Even though I still loved him.

Then I remembered he made a little note for me on my pin board, a year ago. When we were still together.

(Teardrop.)

Have confidence in God and not in your own strength.

As I was going home from an endurance ride as part of my training for next week’s criterium, I thought about the possibilities. Of what could go right and what could go wrong. The shame on my face if defeated or the joy of my heart when I finish in victory.

People will be watching. Some don’t know me, some know me very well. My friends, my team mates, casual spectators, my antagonists... and there’s God.

As I was riding home, I don’t know what made me look to the right side of the road. And as I did, in perfect timing, I saw a painting of David and Goliath. That reminded me that even the greatest warriors can be conquered. Bullies, non-believers, fierce contenders, setbacks and fears.

I almost forgot about that parable. My parents and my Christian educators used to tell me that story. It warmed my heart upon seeing that painting. I cried. God was there to remind me of His miracles. It was God telling me to trust Him.

I am still afraid but that doesn’t make me a coward. I have fears but I will now choose to face them in prayer.

I hope by whatever result will come up with my hard work and training, I can bring glory to our Father. That as I gain recognition, I will bring Him recognition.

#david and goliath #parable #God #bible #biking #bike #fatih

Roses are red, violets are blue. If You were the Force, then I’d be with you.

My wedding vow.

You are no more powerful than you make yourself. If you see yourself as having weakness, you are simply increasing the problem. It's a self-fulfilling prophecy.

Lord Mal'kith, Book of Sith

#inspiration #sith code #star wars #geekery