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evertestati

raiindown

me: *is laughing, feeling happy and having a good time*

my mental illness: you have been faking me all this time for attention

me: *immediately shuts down for a week and talks to no one*

t4tsupremacy

Unique Bipolar Feelings

• *feeling slightly happy* am i manic?

• *cant sleep* am i manic?

• *extra irritable* am i manic?

• *does something impulsive* am i manic?

• *is interested in things again* am i manic?

• *is finally not depressed for once* am i manic?

diploglottis

Anybody else ever get into ‘sorry spirals’ where you can’t stop apologising and it gets to the point where you are apologising for apologising because people have told you to stop apologising?

blurrrybaby

you know that sinking feeling after you've been so good and so happy like that feeling that you feel deep in your stomach and in your throat and behind your eyes the feeling of knowing it's going to crash down again and that youll fall apart all over again and you'll cut again and youll be so far away from all you love just as to not damage them in your reign of terror you're about to unleash upon your damned body you fall silent as to not wake them from the dream they're having of you being finally

ok

buffysummers

MISTRESS AMERICA (2015) dir. Noah Baumbach

healinglilia

the worst part though is that i’m not passionate about anything and i’ve completely lost my imagination

robopitcher

bipolar disorder? did you mean

-I have a strong interest in obscure topics that I learned while manic at 4am on wikipedia and/or youtube -strong mood change?? hunger time -boredom inbetween mood swings means going crazy ahhh -Rage 2: the fuckening -try me bitch im manic and also more correct than you. consequences are not a thing for me specifically -oh fuck depression has kicked my ass. I can never do anything again -what the fuck is an emotion/im feeling every emotion and you all have to put up with me

recovering-and-healing

“Killing oneself is, anyway, a misnomer. We don’t kill ourselves. We are simply defeated by the long, hard struggle to stay alive. When somebody dies after a long illness, people are apt to say, with a note of approval, “He fought so hard.” And they are inclined to think, about a suicide, that no fight was involved, that somebody simply gave up. This is quite wrong.”

— Sally Brampton

bob-belcher

Good Omens (2019)

sadiepickles

As mentally ill people, keeping a stable sleep schedule is important. If somebody asks you for a chore early in the morning, if your friend wants to stay up late, if you apply to a job that starts hours too damn early (I’m looking at you, bakeries), you might feel a little tinge of hesitation. That’s your warning sign. Yes, your sleep is more important.