[crows-n-conundrums]

no no no they are fading you don’t understand they are fading away but im still here and im still in pain

[dazzed-and-also-confused]

Is it normal to think that you need to go to a rehab centre or is it just me??

[dazzed-and-also-confused]

I stg my family is trying to make me fat. I came back from a run and my brother was making waffles. I don’t eat until 1-2 pm. Then he started going out about how it was almost noon and I haven’t eaten and saved me two waffles. When I came back down My mom was still in the kitchen so I could throw them out so I ripped one up and stuffed it in a napkin and took the other one outside so I could do the same thing. Even when I was ripped and stuffing the waffle into the napkin I felt so diguisted and mad. It was so greasy and buttery and gross. That’s not food, it’s heart disease. Ugh this stupid fucking waffle ruined my mood. Why does my family eat so unhealthy?!

[dazzed-and-also-confused]

Do you ever just want to take a blade and start going up and down your entire body and then cut of pieces of your body you don’t like? Like I slice off my stomach, a slice off my thighs?

[dazzed-and-also-confused]

I’m going FUXKING crazy right now bc i haven’t cut in a month but I feel such a STRONG urge to but I’m going swimming tomorrow

[509depressed]

Hey

Let’s get drunk and pretend we are ok!

[dazzed-and-also-confused]

Whenever I purge afterwards my stomach still feels really bloated and full. I can’t get everything “out” but I’ll still purge until nothing comes out (so most of it- I think it out). Does this happen to anybody else or does anybody has any tips to help bloating???

[dazzed-and-also-confused]

NEED ADVICE!!

I have pretty good endurance since I mainly run 7k and do kickboxing when it’s raining. I’ve been cutting down my calorie intake and my running times have been going down. But this week the weathers been really hot (29 degrees C) and I’ve been struggling to get through my once easy runs. Has anybody else been more exhausted while working out in hot weather???

[dazzed-and-also-confused]

SOMEBODY PLEASE EXPLAIN!!!

I went on a 5k run came home then a 5k walk. All I had to eat today was a banana, coffee, and half of my dinner (my family eats dinner together so I can’t escape it). But I feel so bloated and disgusting??!!

[dazzed-and-also-confused]

SUUUPPER random things but like you know with most SH scars, when they heal they turn white? All of my scars turn a really dark colour like a permanent bruise (I have a naturally tanned complexion too). Does anybody know why my scars don’t look “normal”??

[melancholy---kaleidoscope]

I can't sleep...~

[antimisery-core]

“Please don’t leave me alone, I might do something rash.”

- Something I’d say if anyone cared enough to stay.

[dazzed-and-also-confused]

The facts when i finally said this to somebody I loved, they told me I was overreacting... oops

[morganecdotes-and-poems]

Please don't fall in love with me, because I will inevitably get toast crumbs in your bed. I will drop at least one of your plates, and I will forget to close the lid to your kitchen bin at least once a week, and I will abandon drinks and empty cans in odd places all over your home. And I will always consider it your home, even if I live there, even if I pay rent, even if you let me hang my dumb, nerdy posters anywhere I like. I will want to talk your ear off about my nerdy posters. I never know when to shut up and gentle reminders about that fact will make me cry. I'm ugly when I cry, too, all red blotches and wrinkled-up chin, but I make up for that by crying silently, shaking and dripping with tears, next to you in bed with you none the wiser.

Please don't fall in love with me, because I am crazy. You'll think it's the cute kind of crazy, the kind that just requires a little extra TLC, at first, even when I tell you it's not, until you find me with my arms covered in my own bite marks, sobbing on your kitchen floor because I want some toast but my brain is full of screams about knives and cleaning products. Sometimes, I will need you to tell me where and who I am, and other times, I will need you either to trick me into taking a sedative, or to call an ambulance. Often, I will need you to tell me that you still love me. I will not believe you, but the words sound soothing enough to shut me up for a while.

Please don't fall in love with me, because I will need so much from you. So much sex. So much reassurance. So much care. So much forgiveness. I will struggle to ask you for what I need, too, so I'll also need you to learn me like a language, idioms and nuances included, and you will never quite feel fluent. You will feel even less fluent when you meet my friends, whose native languages are Memes and Mentally Ill Millennial. I will be confusing and unfamiliar to you, no matter how hard you try to understand me.

Please don't fall in love with me, because I am painful to love.

Please don't fall in love with me, because I don't want you to hurt like that.

Please don't fall in love with me, because I love you a little already, and I am terrified for the both of us.

[self-harm-addict]

I wish people would understand how some of the small things they do cause so much distress.

Like shop assistants, jump on you as soon as you enter or make eye contact, and then just watch and hover.

Like cars who rev their engines unexpectedly and unnecessarily and make you jump.

Like strangers, who touch you, to get your attention, because you've spaced out once again.

Such little things, yet they leave me cold and shaken. I know it's not their fault, but I wish they understood.

[angelb1tes]

I haven't cut in like a while. And basically all my scars are healed everywhere. But. I want to so bad recently. Like idk. Everything's bad mentally again. And I just wanna feel the pain of cutting and bleed out my sadness,, I miss it

[bluevapors2035]

she drags her fingertips over the scars on my thighs and she's biting her lip.

i know she has only one thing to ask: "why?"

what else do i tell her?

"it felt good. nothing else did."

[you--broke--all--your--promises]

Someone asked me what my dream job is.

Then I realised I have no idea because I never expected to be still alive at 20.