dottore

park that car, drop that phone, sleep on the floor, dream about me

[dcttre]

icon & header

dottore, headmate sideblog. he/they, fictive & caretaker. 18 collei yume

my headmates might post. posts tagged #- 💉 are mine. follows & likes are from sc*****bu

[dcttre]

being a caretaker

[tokyorun]

(by miyuklm)

[moonsoon-art]

playing through nod krai made me miss sumeru a ton

[dcttre]

there was one piece of dtlei art that i really liked but the artist deleted it and i have no idea who it was :(

[scarakabu]

true love is when your girl sees you burning down the tree that ties the world and its fate together in her dream

[dcttre]

> try to be productive by cleaning and studying

> watch as the host sits down on his bed and starts scrolling on tumblr

[sach-sach]

When host brings me up in conversations

[ps1]

神田川

[dottore-and-segments]

Alone on a Friday night? Pathetic.

Invest in cloning technology today.

[pluralskeepliving]

it will get better. find the people who'll support you, be there for you, and by your side. or learn to try and support yourself. please take care of your body and mental health. you matter and deserve to be loved and cared for.

reason to live #56

[dcttre]

The whole "Fictives aren't their source" "No, some fictives are their source" argument I see around sometimes feels silly to me. Whether a fictive wants to be seen as or associated with their source is entirely up to them. What's more important to vocalize, in my opinion, is that fictives, even if connected to their source, are still people with their own thoughts and feelings.

Maybe we've just had bad luck, but somehow, even other plurals we've met have insisted on treating us as if we're nothing beyond a fictional character they admire, instead of, you know... people.

[slightly-sigilant]

Plural Experiences Ask Game

I keep seeing people say that they wish the plural community would focus less on labels and slapfighting and more on the experience of living as plural, so I decided to make an ask game about it. All systems welcome to participate as long as you respect the spirit of the post and don't drag discourse onto it. Feel free to copy and paste this wherever with or without credit, a bunch of these questions were lifted from other places anyway.

I tried to pick or at least phrase questions to be as inclusive as possible, but I've almost certainly missed things - plurality is diverse and my system only experiences a small corner of it. I encourage people to make their own ask games!

🌱 (seedling) - How did you discover you were plural?

💐 (bouquet) - What analogy would you use to describe your system to a curious stranger?

🌸 (cherry blossom) - What things were major influences upon your system? (e.g. life events both positive and negative; meaningful media; other identities)

🌻 (sunflower) - If you can communicate internally, what is that like? If you can't communicate internally, do you have other methods for communicating with each other?

🍁 (maple leaf) - If you can switch, what is that like? If you can't switch, is it something that you're interested in?

🪴 (potted plant) - If you have a headspace, what is that like? If you don't have a headspace, where do system members normally hang out?

🍂 (fallen leaves) - Do you experience yourselves as individuals, as parts of a whole, or some secret other thing?

🌴 (palm tree) - Is there anything that you do to spend time together?

🌿 (herb) - What tools, if any, do you use to navigate life as a plural system?

🌲 (evergreen tree) - What kinds of relationships (familial, romantic, platonic, etc) exist between members of the system?

🌵 (cactus) - Do system members have disagreements with each other? How do you resolve them, if so?

🌺 (hibiscus) - Is there a "common" plural experience that you don't experience?

🌾 (sheaf of rice) - What does your average day look like? How does plurality intersect with it?

🎍 (kadomatsu) - Do you decorate your space or keep mementos of/for yourself and other system members? (e.g. perfumes, clothes for specific people, art, jewelry)

🍎 (apple) - What advice would you give to a singlet looking to be an ally?

🍀 (four leaf clover) - What advice would you give to a newly selves-discovered system?

🌹 (rose) - Is plurality, overall, a net positive or a negative for you? (Or neither?) If given the opportunity to become singlet (whether through fusion or everyone getting their own body), would you take it?

[guywithvoices]

being in a community without community

(rambling first post. shoutout to a blog, likely wont use it consistently though. cheers to an attempt to find people similar to me?)

i consider myself plural in the sense of being more than one. i hear voices, mainly one, who have "taken" the body a few times but not consistently. the voices started after a traumatic event, but its been two years now and its still here for whatever reason.

ive struggled a bit with community. the voice is older than me, not around all the time, another voice never speaks but i can feel it scrutinizing me, like its just behind my shoulder, watching. it feels like a lot of the online sphere with people-within-people is concerned with discourse, or the sugar-sweet things, or sharing the funny stuff. which is nice, and clearly a lot of people relate to that content, but it does sting a bit to feel out-of-place in a community for, generally speaking, othered people

i try to journal, sometimes i can talk with the voices, sometimes i cant. i dont switch or get triggered, the voices dont have their own parts of my room, we dont have banter and while i have drawn them once or twice when they were vocal and guided me, it feels weird to share what at times feels like guesswork. i dissociate, but i dont have any 'inner world', dont dream anything particular, and dont usually hold conversations with the voices

the voice has been inexpliccably active again after a period of only a few words every few months, or vague dissociation and that feeling of being watched, so here i am. im not sure if the plural space is the right one, given i cant see my own experiences in nearly any of it, but its the closest thing i can think of

i hear voices, but its not outside hallucinations. theyre also not harmful voices. i have had trauma, but not in childhood. i have voices, but not alters. i dont have an 'inner world', we dont 'talk different' -the voices dont talk at all to others as they dont take over unless in crisis. with plural people i feel like an outsider, with singular people i feel like im either seen as insane, lying, or belittled and seen as misunderstanding 'inner monologue'

all this yap, and for nothing. i dont know. words are out there, so thats how it goes. if anyone knows of niché-r parts of tumblr that are more similar to whatever it is i experience, let me know. ill dig around and hope i find something, because there being a rather huge community of plurality where i cant seem to find a little place that i can recognize is a bit rough, given it seems few people outside of plurality 'gets it'

[dcttre]

what you describe is *very* similar to how i (🦋) felt when we first discovered our plurality, and i just want you to know plurality is a wide spectrum. there's no one singular way plurality looks.

i didn't know this when i first questioned if i might be plural because i was always in environments that had a specific, ideal image of what a system should look like. traumagenic, clear memory barriers, (mostly) clear switches and headmates who you can communicate with easily and they can easily identify themselves and know their age and role and whatnot. of course i don't know your situation, and i don't know what plural communities are like on tumblr, but personally my environment put me deep into denial because i looked nothing like that.

i felt like an outsider for a while because i was nothing like how systems looked in these spaces. we had no innerworld, hardly any communication, i couldn't identify anyone and no one could identify themselves either, we didn't switch much but we did dissociate but our plurality wasn't a disorder either. and a lot of the things are still the same! the main thing that's changed is that i just have a better understanding of our plurality and my headmates now. i have a better understanding of how we function as a collective and what exactly what my headmates do, have a vague idea of what things could potentially draw headmates out, understand how to identify people better based on their presence or the vague voices or words they give me.

but at our core we still have no innerworld, we still dissociate, our multiplicity still isn't disordered, we still don't switch much, and so on. somewhere along the line though i finally started to understand that you can't force these things. people are just different from one another and experience things in different ways, and thats okay.

of course our journey and our experiences won't be 1:1; and ultimately your identity is up to you, i can't tell you what you definitively are or aren't. but i did resonate a lot with this post and i wanted to let you know that you aren't alone, and if you do want to consider yourself plural, it doesn't make you any less plural to experience things differently.

i'm not knowledgeable enough to point you to any niché-r communities, but maybe looking into median systems or something like tulpas could be a start?

[guywithvoices]

thanks a lot, ill look into those communities! it does feel a lot soothing to know there 'are others out there' who are similar to me. Honestly, opening this site and reading all this, similarities and differences and all, it made me perk up a little. Made my day a bit brighter. im not sure how tumblr ettiquette works (or really how the site works in general, im still working that out), but really just wanted to say thanks for taking the time to answer :]

[dcttre]

of course! even if i couldn't point you to many places, i'm happy i was at least able to brighten your day <3

[guywithvoices]

being in a community without community

(rambling first post. shoutout to a blog, likely wont use it consistently though. cheers to an attempt to find people similar to me?)

i consider myself plural in the sense of being more than one. i hear voices, mainly one, who have "taken" the body a few times but not consistently. the voices started after a traumatic event, but its been two years now and its still here for whatever reason.

ive struggled a bit with community. the voice is older than me, not around all the time, another voice never speaks but i can feel it scrutinizing me, like its just behind my shoulder, watching. it feels like a lot of the online sphere with people-within-people is concerned with discourse, or the sugar-sweet things, or sharing the funny stuff. which is nice, and clearly a lot of people relate to that content, but it does sting a bit to feel out-of-place in a community for, generally speaking, othered people

i try to journal, sometimes i can talk with the voices, sometimes i cant. i dont switch or get triggered, the voices dont have their own parts of my room, we dont have banter and while i have drawn them once or twice when they were vocal and guided me, it feels weird to share what at times feels like guesswork. i dissociate, but i dont have any 'inner world', dont dream anything particular, and dont usually hold conversations with the voices

the voice has been inexpliccably active again after a period of only a few words every few months, or vague dissociation and that feeling of being watched, so here i am. im not sure if the plural space is the right one, given i cant see my own experiences in nearly any of it, but its the closest thing i can think of

i hear voices, but its not outside hallucinations. theyre also not harmful voices. i have had trauma, but not in childhood. i have voices, but not alters. i dont have an 'inner world', we dont 'talk different' -the voices dont talk at all to others as they dont take over unless in crisis. with plural people i feel like an outsider, with singular people i feel like im either seen as insane, lying, or belittled and seen as misunderstanding 'inner monologue'

all this yap, and for nothing. i dont know. words are out there, so thats how it goes. if anyone knows of niché-r parts of tumblr that are more similar to whatever it is i experience, let me know. ill dig around and hope i find something, because there being a rather huge community of plurality where i cant seem to find a little place that i can recognize is a bit rough, given it seems few people outside of plurality 'gets it'

[dcttre]

what you describe is *very* similar to how i (🦋) felt when we first discovered our plurality, and i just want you to know plurality is a wide spectrum. there's no one singular way plurality looks.

i didn't know this when i first questioned if i might be plural because i was always in environments that had a specific, ideal image of what a system should look like. traumagenic, clear memory barriers, (mostly) clear switches and headmates who you can communicate with easily and they can easily identify themselves and know their age and role and whatnot. of course i don't know your situation, and i don't know what plural communities are like on tumblr, but personally my environment put me deep into denial because i looked nothing like that.

i felt like an outsider for a while because i was nothing like how systems looked in these spaces. we had no innerworld, hardly any communication, i couldn't identify anyone and no one could identify themselves either, we didn't switch much but we did dissociate but our plurality wasn't a disorder either. and a lot of the things are still the same! the main thing that's changed is that i just have a better understanding of our plurality and my headmates now. i have a better understanding of how we function as a collective and what exactly what my headmates do, have a vague idea of what things could potentially draw headmates out, understand how to identify people better based on their presence or the vague voices or words they give me.

but at our core we still have no innerworld, we still dissociate, our multiplicity still isn't disordered, we still don't switch much, and so on. somewhere along the line though i finally started to understand that you can't force these things. people are just different from one another and experience things in different ways, and thats okay.

of course our journey and our experiences won't be 1:1; and ultimately your identity is up to you, i can't tell you what you definitively are or aren't. but i did resonate a lot with this post and i wanted to let you know that you aren't alone, and if you do want to consider yourself plural, it doesn't make you any less plural to experience things differently.

i'm not knowledgeable enough to point you to any niché-r communities, but maybe looking into median systems or something like tulpas could be a start?

[dcttre]

oh my sweet angel. she is the only thing still keeping me sane. i hope she gets a cute skin someday

[bugpalace]

Top 10 tips to being plural: Don't

(To be genuine, I do think the stupidity of it snapped me out of it a little, among other things. I do find it funny how this guy can't even do his actual system role though.)

First plural comic anyways, reblogs appreciated!