The irony in his statement was deep, but likely ( knowing Firo ) quite purposeful. It wasn’t rare for the boy to meditate upon his new-found immortality, but when he spoke of her, there was something different about it. He spoke as though, rather than feeling uncertain of his future, for once he was eager for that endless time and what it may hold. A thin hand turned perpendicular to the table upon which his elbow rested, his palm upturned to cradle the gentle curve of his chin as his doeful eyes watched her alongside Firo’s from across the room. She seemed quite blissfully unaware of their observations, let alone the topic of their quiet conversation. He envied it --- that trust in those surrounding her. Czes himself was far too paranoid to allow such indulgence. Even in the monotonous task of folding laundry, her expression wore the smallest of smiles, and for the life of him, Czes couldn’t comprehend precisely where the nature of it lie. To wear a smile when someone felt happy was nothing unnatural, but happiness ( true happiness ) was often brief, and fleeting. Happiness could be found in a moment --- in the heart of a compliment, or the thought of something amusing, or the embrace of a loved one...but in Ennis seemed to smile for no reason, alone ( to her knowledge ), and doing chores, no less. Perhaps it was possible that she was happy in her life as a whole...but that thought left a heavy, hollowing ache in his stomach, and the taste of bitterness souring at the back of his throat, and so he pushed it to the darkest corners of his mind, where the spirit and image of Fermet lived. It wasn’t safe, to search for such joy. Still...perhaps, for her, it was different. After all, she had someone who would move the heavens and the earth to protect her, and her happiness. --- It was strange...that he knew beyond the shadow of a doubt that Firo would protect Ennis, that he would never abandon or desert her, and never once did the thought cross his mind with any sort of hesitation...but when asked the same of himself, rather than Ennis, he was left with that same empty pit in his stomach. Why? Firo hadn’t changed...so perhaps it was that the true problem...was himself. Realizing that he’d been silent for too long, he tore his focus from the seam of the shirt between her fingers, and murmured lowly. ❝ Well, you’ve got a thousand lifetimes to see about that. Funny enough...I’d say she thinks the same thing about you. ❞
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