𝔎illjoy’s 𝔑etwork

:: ꒰⠀ ⠀did sys.  ⛌ 8teen ⛧ audhd   ◡◡   bpd 𓈒 𓈒 𓈒  our doe ♡

[de4dairwaves]

⠀” LOOK ALIVE, SUNSHINE. You're tuned into Killjoys Network... “

Introducing 𓈒 𓈒 𓈒

Our name is Ray—we also go by Ronin, whichever fits best. By the names of our headmates works too.

You’re welcome here… whether you meant to arrive or not. Either way, you’re here now. So stay awhile. It’ll be fun. We are bodily 18. We are omniromantic, demiromantic, aroaceflux, and genderflux/transfluid.

Pronoun(s) :: ⠀he/him ⠀,,  she/her⠀,,  they/them⠀,,  it/its ⠀,,  nonhuman terms ⠀,,  any pronouns

We are taken by our beautiful wife... and we don’t plan on being anything else. < 3

Boundaries 𓈒 𓈒 𓈒

⠀⠀DO NOT INTERACT :: ⠀ Basic DNI criteria ⠀,,  fakeclaimers ⠀,,  if you are just going to be an ass for no reason don't even bother.

Anyone under 16–17 DNI this is a mature space, not for younger audiences. Anyone 21+ DNI as well.

Do not flirt with us. We are taken, and we are not comfortable with people attempting to flirt with us who aren’t our partner. If you are close to us, it may be allowed only with prior permission. Otherwise, do not.

Just like flirting, the same applies to nicknames and pet names. Do not call us anything other than our name or the name of whoever is fronting at the time, unless we give explicit permission.

⠀⠀BEFORE YOU INTERACT :: ⠀

Use tone tags with us, as we often can’t always tell tone or when someone is joking—not even internally at times. If we ever seem off or come across a certain way, it’s likely nothing serious.

Keep in mind we are sensitive and often have difficulty processing things, so if we don’t understand something right away, do not rush us, as we will not take kindly to it. The same goes for coddling, sugarcoating, or babying—we absolutely hate it. Do not do this.

We welcome those who are interested in interacting with us—we do enjoy meeting new people. Especially those with similar interests, though that doesn’t mean we shy away from learning something new. So feel free to say hello… we don’t bite. Usually. Questions or asks about us, our source, or anything else are always welcome. Just keep our boundaries in mind when you do. We may get back to you—if not, you’ll likely be ignored or blocked.

Things we're into 𓈒 𓈒 𓈒

What we like :: ⠀⠀our wife < 3⠀,, ⠀demonology⠀,, ⠀horror⠀,, ⠀supernatural/paranormal⠀,, ⠀ witches/witchcraft⠀,, ⠀werewolves⠀,, ⠀vampires⠀,, ⠀psychology⠀,, ⠀biology⠀,, ⠀anything related or to do with animals⠀,, ⠀listening to music⠀,, ⠀hanging out with friends and playing games⠀,, ⠀all sorts of different things. Fandoms we're into :: ⠀⠀hazbin hotel⠀,, ⠀helluva boss⠀,, ⠀the freak circus⠀,, ⠀killer chat⠀,, ⠀14 days with you⠀,, ⠀you make this house a home⠀,, ⠀homicipher⠀,, ⠀my chemical romance⠀,, ⠀the vampire diaries⠀,, ⠀supernatural⠀,, ⠀forsaken⠀,, ⠀regretevator⠀,, ⠀the walking dead ⠀,, ⠀criminal minds⠀,, ⠀law & order⠀,, ⠀scream⠀,, ⠀saw⠀,, ⠀call of duty⠀,, ⠀the pumpkin rabbit⠀,, ⠀the walten files⠀,, ⠀five night's at freddy's⠀,, ⠀the kid at the back⠀,, ⠀pressure⠀,, ⠀tgcf ⠀,, ⠀mdzs⠀,, ⠀what in hell is bad⠀,, ⠀obey me⠀,, ⠀diabolik lovers⠀,, ⠀deadplate⠀,, ⠀creepypasta⠀,, ⠀the amazing digital circus⠀,, ⠀⠀and so so many more things. Feel free to ask about them.

Extra info :: ⠀⠀We are a multishipper! We enjoy all kinds of different ships, such as: ⠀murdermedia⠀,, ⠀radioapple⠀,, ⠀radiostatic⠀,, ⠀chaggi⠀,, ⠀adamsapple⠀,, ⠀royalradio⠀,, ⠀cannibalstatic⠀,, ⠀radiocult⠀,, ⠀fashionhalo⠀,, ⠀holyspear⠀,, ⠀holyhalospear⠀,, ⠀hualian⠀,, ⠀ and so, so many more. We are open to different kinds of ships as long as they aren’t weird or random, and actually make sense.

[luveost]

They held hands and kissed when they went back home✨

[woodensteaky]

Hoodie Lucifer doodles ✨

[de4dairwaves]

I think the mindset is back. I think that's the problem. We're back to thinking we're too much. If we're anything but fine, then people aren't gonna wanna stick around anymore. We try so hard, so hard to get people to stay, push back everything wrong with us in the moment, and just try harder than we probably should've most of the time. We wanna be fine! We really, really do, sometimes we do it without even realizing it's become such a normal thing to us we don't even realize it's happened until it's already over and done with and then suddenly like opening the gates to a flood they come crashing back over us and then we end up spiraling to the point of needing to vent, to let it out, and we ask, we make sure only to get the bare minimum. If not even that. We try our best to comfort and provide a safe space, yet we couldn't even get that. Instead, we were in constant fear of being screamed at, them getting angry and just leaving despite promising not to. But I guess we aren't worth any of the promises. It's not worth anything you've ever said, and yet here we are blaming us instead of who caused this. I know we shouldn't be blaming us, but it's so hard. Maybe if we'd been better.

[de4dairwaves]

We never feel we're good enough for anything anymore. We always feel like we're attention-seeking every time we do this. We aren't trying to. It just happens, and then people get upset at us for our vents, and then we feel stupid for even doing it in the first place. Because it's like no matter what we did or do, we can never be fully good enough, and we try so fucking hard.

[de4dairwaves]

I think the mindset is back. I think that's the problem. We're back to thinking we're too much. If we're anything but fine, then people aren't gonna wanna stick around anymore. We try so hard, so hard to get people to stay, push back everything wrong with us in the moment, and just try harder than we probably should've most of the time. We wanna be fine! We really, really do, sometimes we do it without even realizing it's become such a normal thing to us we don't even realize it's happened until it's already over and done with and then suddenly like opening the gates to a flood they come crashing back over us and then we end up spiraling to the point of needing to vent, to let it out, and we ask, we make sure only to get the bare minimum. If not even that. We try our best to comfort and provide a safe space, yet we couldn't even get that. Instead, we were in constant fear of being screamed at, them getting angry and just leaving despite promising not to. But I guess we aren't worth any of the promises. It's not worth anything you've ever said, and yet here we are blaming us instead of who caused this. I know we shouldn't be blaming us, but it's so hard. Maybe if we'd been better.

[lucylicious666]

Super early Father’s Day art. More doodles to come, featuring different stages of Charlie’s life!

The two panel’s silhouette are suppose to be old fashion cameras and a journalist from the early 19th century. Was too lazy to actually draw them out, but they look hella confusing without details. Oh well! There’s more to come so stay tuned.

I hope you all like it.

[de4dairwaves]

Wanna cry over dumb shit. We feel so fucking small, I hate this. I hate how our immediate response is that we're fine whenever we aren't. It's hard to talk. I hate feeling so small, so vulnerable, and so weak. I feel like I could've done more to protect us. I probably just need to sleep or something I don't know.

Feeling really emotionally vulnerable, I'm assuming it's because of daily month stuff. Ouh, I hate it.

[de4dairwaves]

FINALLY, okay, we've been needed to do this. I just got around to it. To be fair, we've had shit going on aha