me and myself

[deaafasa]

[extramadness]

“It’s hard to let go. Even when what you’re holding onto is full of thorns, it’s hard to let go. Maybe especially then.”

— Stephen King (via quotemadness)

[iglovequotes]

http://iglovequotes.net

[deaafasa]

No matter what, you will always be my favourite wine.

[extramadness]

[summersunsetyou]

Hi, little bee

Do you remember all our night walks and our night rides? Do you remember when we sang one of Secondhand Serenade song together? We always sang it loudly in the car while trapped in the traffic jam. Do you remember the burger that we always shared? Do you remember our stayed up night? Do you remember all struggles those we passed together? Do you remember us?

If I am allowed, I want to pass again our darkest night, our darkest paradise. When in this world only me and you, no one else. If I am allowed, I want to ride again the rough long road only with you. It’s hard, yes it is. But we are enjoying everything like we are riding to Heaven. If I am allowed, I want to touch again your body. Silently and passionately. Like I am touching the Galaxy by my fingers.

After all these terms, Would you allowed me then? Would you allowed me to feel again the sweetness of us?

[summersunsetyou]

I want to get those moments again…

The moment when you called me at 02:30am and told me that you’re in front of my house

The moment when you suddenly came to my house then asked me to open the door

The moment you gave my favourite roses

The moment you feed me my favourite chocolate

The moment you kissed my forehead whenever we’re together

The moment you suddenly pulled then hugged me

The moment when I was the happiest girl in the universe because of you

But everything was before, now everything are only in my dream

I only can wish for all those impossibilities to happen again

Even only wish for you to be here, next to me.

[summersunsetyou]

Dear Somebody Else’s Man……

How are you today? You know what, I am wearing you shirt (again) this morning and your pheromone still sticks on it.

Do you wanna know how it feels? Hmm, I think you don’t want to know about it. It’s just a silly thing to remember. Yeah, now you are busy with your new life with new person. Whose billions times much more better than me.

Are you happy now? Of course you are literally happy, your face can not lie. I know you very well anyway. It’s means I took the right decision when I left you with all broken memories and feelings.

It’s okay then. I am happy for you, for your new life. But… am I allowed to miss you this time? Do you ever think about me even a bit? Maybe think about how clingy I am when I was with you.

Okay, let me admit it.

I damnly miss you, Sir.

And this feeling tries to kill me slowly

Do you know that? Have you ever expected about that? You don’t even get any idea how much I loved you.

No worries. Forget about it. I just want to tell you that I miss you so badly right now. Like I miss the snow in the morning while you kissed me slowly. It was a perfect moment, right?

I am not gonna ask you to come back neither to start back our stories all over again. Everything just enough for us. You are happy without me now.

[summersunsetyou]

My Lord,

Why I have to keep chasing person that I love even I love him only a bit? Is here anything wrong with me? Am I not allowed to feel and get just nice love story like other couple? Why I always get these? What should I do?

Please show me the best way to passed all these sadness.

[summersunsetyou]

“Mungkin yang kita perjuangkan mati-matian itu memang tidak ada dalam rencana Tuhan.”

—

Raesaka

(via mbeeer)

[extramadness]

[meeeeeong]

Kamu pernah ditinggalkan karena alasan tidak nyaman? Bagi saya itu hanyalah kamuflase belaka. Jika ia memang betul menyayangimu, ia akan mencari jalan keluar untuk mempertahankan bukan justru meninggalkan.

Jadi jika kamu pernah mengalaminya, mungkin saja ia sedang merasakan nyaman dengan yang lain.

Rumah, 30 Jan 2018

[satukatasaturasa]

Untuk Perempuan yang Sedang Melawan Kesedihan

Sesungguhnya, kau hanya sedang singgah dalam sebuah perjalanan, jika kau lelah, sejenak istirahatlah. Sebab hari-harimu sendiri, tak mampu membuatmu untuk tegak berdiri.

Jika besok atau lusa di kotamu cuaca tiada berubah, pulanglah barang sesaat untuk melepas lelah. Sebab awan-awan yang telah kau lalui, tak mampu membuatmu untuk merasa tidak sendiri.

Pada suatu malam yang gigil, kita memutuskan untuk berhenti mengandaikan diri sebagai sunyi. Barangkali, kita lebih cocok menjadi kata-kata yang saling melengkapi, juga menjadi sebuah cerita yang saling menukar sepi.

Tatkala kau bercerita; perjalananmu seolah tanpa ujung, kesusahan dan kesedihan saling menindih, menjadi sesuatu yang rela atau terpaksa harus kau nikmati. Tapi kau masih mampu menyunggingkan senyum termanis di sudut bibirmu.

Siapa nyana, di balik semua, dadamu adalah denyut yang paling merah dari segala bara. Kau kecewa dengan hidup nyata; tidak adil semua! Begitulah matamu melihat dunia.

Bersabarlah, pada saatnya, semuanya mesti kita tinggalkan, walau sejenak menjadi kenangan. Selebihnya lengang, menjelma kebahagiaan panjang.

__________ Serang, 14 Januari 2018 Sesungguhnya, kau hanya sedang singgah dalam sebuah perjalanan, Dea.

[kushandwisdom]

I want someone who won’t get tired of me.

- Unknown (via thelovenotebook)

[iglovequotes]

http://iglovequotes.net/

[kushandwisdom]

You don’t understand how much I hate myself because of loving you.

- Unknown (via thelovenotebook)

[deaafasa]

I'd rather be a great daughter than a great wife..

[zaidalhourani]