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making sense of the senseless and expressing the inexpressible F.Welch

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hii, my artworks might be a little bit blurry on my feed so you might wanna click on them for a better and sharper quality. Just wanted to say this since I myself got a little bit anxious why was it blurry😅.

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🖥️: be the best version of urself

me: 🗡️

anyways...

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never take advice from someone who's falling apart 🗡️🖥️

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It's been a year, I guess, since I held a real pencil. I'm really a traditional artist in any sense, always preferring something that I can touch. I used to draw every single day, and I can finish a piece in just one sitting. But that's until I have to leave my home to find a job in the city. It's already been two years in the corporate world, and I haven't let go of my creative spirit. I won't let my whimsical ass die. Though my current situation won't let me touch a real pencil and draw on a real paper, I have to find another way to express my whimsical side or else I'd go crazy. That's when I transitioned into digital art. Though at first I'm not having it, it seems like I've still convinced myself that it's fine. I thought that the digital medium wouldn't satisfy my itch, but I'm rocking it now. So yes, it's not really about what medium you're using. As long as you sit on your ass and be as whimsical as you can, your creative spirit will still thrive.

In Ode to My Old Dusty Sketchbook, here are some of my original pieces. Hope y'all enjoy it.

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And this one. I really work my ass off on this project seriously and it took me forever just to finish this abomination. I don't know what I'm trying to get with this one. I'm just trying to prove to myself that I can finish another shitty film for one last time 😭.

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Had to post this one too. It's just a girl combing her hair... nothing cool tho. Just love the filipino vibe going on this one🇵🇭🥥🌴.

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This is the first animation I've ever completed last year of 2024. There were few other attempts and I couldn't get through it. But I pushed my shit and felt like I could finish this one. Well it looks junkie shitty but I felt good doing it. It looks cool to me I guess 🫀🗡️乁⁠[⁠ ⁠◕⁠ ⁠ᴥ⁠ ⁠◕⁠ ⁠]⁠ㄏ

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I should really stop scrolling

And as I reach for my phone, it is rushing down my throat

I let it in

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it's already engrained deep within me but I'm still reaching for it

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gaslight me right, tell me 'keep quiet', I'll go along, di-di-dum

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it's me, I'm Cathy...

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