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12/28/2025: "Oh.......Right"
Adam: You know, I don't think I've ever seen you stand up for yourself. Like seriously kid, what is it with you and confrontation?"
Abel:.....My last confrontation ended with me getting my skull caved in, Dad."
Adam:......
This reasoning for Abel not liking confrontation is (most likely) not canon at all, but if it was, I mean........yeah that'll do it
blorbo = youโre holding them captive
The Character = THEYโRE holding YOU captive
always reframe your mindset !!!! and never stop thinking about the character
"things are getting bad again" -> "im just like the character"
"i dont feel like myself" -> "the character is here"
"i dont feel connected to reality" -> "i am immersing myself in the character's world"
"who am i" -> the character! the character.
i dont know where i was going with this . have you ever thought about riding horses.
yk what?
normalize non systems using simply plural. its a great app! people with physical/mental illnesses can use it to track their symptoms, you can use it to track sleep, genderfluid people can track if they feel femme/masc/nb, you can ADD FRIENDS and they can SEE this stuff and even get notifications about it
people who make ocs can keep track of their ocs, you can literally do all kinds of stuff
but the most important thing is that it will destigmatize the app
now if someone glances over your shoulder and sees simply plural on ur homescreen they cant just assume ur a system. now people who are scared to download the app because of stuff like that can. it will be so cool
โzach
Communication in systems is rarely super clear and easy to talk to everyone!! a lot of the time it isnt even verbal!! sometimes its vibes or images or all kinds of things!
i asked another alter if he wanted to try front to listen to taylor swifts new album, but he'd have to also make dinner cause it was getting late. I did not hear a yes, he didn't tell me anything. But he did project an image of himself cooking dinner and listening to taylor swift as confirmation.
tbh thats actually way better communication for us than normal. this post is just a reminder that you dont have to hear alters talking, be able to have conversations with alters, even think in words at all to be a system and communicate.
โYou canโt be a system!! You and ___ both do this!!!โ
We still share a brain.
โYou and ____ LOVEEE this!!โ
We still share a brain.
โYou and ____ talk very similarly!!!โ
We still share a brain.
Shoutout to fictionkin & fictives that enjoy their source as a coping mechanism for the exotrauma you went through. People love to hate on victims for enjoying exploring our traumas in a safe (often fictional or roleplay) space, and this combined with how intense &/or "abnormal" exotrauma can be can create a lot of shame. It sucks! So let's talk about it
If you like to watch your source even though it was traumatic for you -
If you like to play your source even though the gameplay involves harm to yourself or others -
If you like to write, roleplay out, or otherwise depict your self, your source, your trauma and recovery from it -
If viewing your source or telling details to others brings you comfort and identity euphoria rather than shame or fear -
If you feel the need to vent or traumadump when in source you would have stayed silent -
If your source still feels like "home" no matter how harmful it was -
It's okay to process the shit that happened to you in your own way. Take care of yourself and judge your limits carefully and you'll be just fine. You don't have to throw everything away in order to heal, and your trauma responses DEFINITELY aren't fake for it. We know ourselves best, dammit!
- Ouma
Being a Texas Chainsaw Massacre fan is so hard because most people will be like โMan, Leatherface is so fucking terrifying. What kind of psycho wears human faces? Heโs a monster who wants nothing but to kill and eat people. One of the most horrific slashers.โ
But heโs NOT! Heโs killing for his family!!! Human meat is normal to him!!! Heโs using the masks to express himself!!! Heโs not a sicko, heโs just resourceful!!! Heโs being abused!!! Heโs a people-pleaser!!! Heโs neurodivergent!!! Heโs probably genderqueer!!! How can you watch the first movie and NOT see heโs just a sweetheart trying his best in a fucked up environment???
And also if I say โBubba Sawyerโ outloud theyโll straight up look at me like Iโm crazy.
letโs get one thing straight and i will generously explain this to you people like youโre five. rape is not about sex, itโs about enforcing power and control over another person, taking their autonomy and agency away from them in one deeply impactful and life-altering act, and if you analyze the rape scene in decay where ashley sexually assaults andrew through a lens where this was them โhaving messed up dubcon incest sexโ as if it had anything to do with sex, youโve completely lost the plot before you even started writing your rape apologist thinkpiece.
stop watering it down and call it what it was: rape. go unpack why youโre allergic to using the only appropriate word for what played out on screen, and why youโre so disinclined to validate a male victim of rape and a female sexual aggressor. nemlei shows you an unconventional abusive dynamic, quashes the lie that only men abuse and rape and women are incapable of it right in front of your eyes, rubs your face in how this works out in ashleyโs favor a dozen times, and you miss the whole message because challenging society-wide misconceptions about abuse and gender stereotypes would put you way out of your comfort zone.
i have deep appreciation for both of these characters, individually and together, and the sexual assault scene was shockingly unambiguous and very hard to watch. it was uncomfortable and upsetting and presented to us as anything but sexy. and yet here you people are, talking about how the siblingsโ first time together was a disaster, framing it as barely more than a messy drunken mistake between dysfunctional codependent individualsโ toxic, tragic, angsty. youโre denying andrew victimhood in a situation where he absolutely is one, piece of shit abusive sick creep whoโs going to hell or not, and cushioning ashley from the fact that she added rape to her long list of morally appalling offenses.
she dehumanizes her brother so completely that she sees nothing wrong with raping him. thatโs how deep her entitlement goes. andrew isnโt allowed to say no to her, deny her anything she wants, refuse her when she demands something from him, and this includes demanding that he has sex with her. her aggressive emotional manipulation and coercion causes him so much distress and is so indistinguishable from the way she treated him in childhood that he regresses into a flashback from the day he was coaxed into murdering nina. you know, one of the worst things to ever happen to him that fucked him up mentally beyond repair, orchestrated by ashley then used against him as manipulative leverage his whole life.
all of that said, letโs wrap this up by returning to my original point. itโs pretty evident to me that youโre all opposed to seeing this as rape because you think rape is about sexual enjoyment and fulfillment, which ashley was undeniably not getting out of this, and in your heads, her not enjoying the act that she forced andrew to participate in any more than he did means she cannot be a rapist. she assaulted andrew to tighten her metaphorical grip on him when she felt it slipping, to reassert control because she is only stable when she has significant power over him, and he was shifting the scales too much for comfort. there you fucking go.
but to you, if she didnโt exploit andrew for sexual pleasure because she was fucking horny, then it doesnโt fit your false idea of what rape is. youโre neck deep in the myth that rape is about sex rather than power. until you change your frankly real concerning outlook on sexual assault, i suppose youโll keep spewing this insulting garbage in the tcoaal tags and spitting in the faces of rape victims in this space.
I don't think enough people talk about the struggle of having a hyperfixation that's also closely linked with trauma and/or a traumatic period of your life.
I want to engage in this thing so bad but the mere thought of it makes my skin crawl and my stomach drop but also I WANT TO TALK ABOUT THIS THING SO BAD.
This is exhausting.
I feel so dissociated and blurry rn.
'People are panicking about AI tools the same way they did when the calculator was invented, stop worrying' cannot stress enough the calculator did not forcibly pervade every aspect of our lives, has such a low error rate it's a statistical anomaly when it does happen, isn't built on mass plagiarism, and does not obliterate the fucking environment when you use it. Be so fucking serious right now
Shout out to the systems that went through a โIโm fiction kin, oh also im gender fluid, and.. sexuality fluid? My face looks weird but Iโm just gonna ignore it. I just have a bad memory, itโs nothing. Why does my name not feel right anymore? I wish I could just wear wigs everyday.โ Kind of phase
And all the systems that had a โI refuse to call myself anything other than fiction kin until further notice,OR EVERโ phase
being a system is having one of your headmates say the wildest shit known to man and just going "WHAT." while turning around to look at nothing
Funny that this pops up rn because I was complaining about how I had REALLY painful cramps and one of these idiots literally said "man I bet someone punching it would make it feel better" like? No? That's? Not how that works??
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You know whatโs exhausting? Living in a body with a whole damn crowd insideโand having the world look you dead in the eye and say, โThatโs not real.โ
Dissociative Identity Disorder. Other Specified Dissociative Disorder. Fancy words for a brain that had to split itself to survive. People hear โmultiple personalitiesโ and think Hollywood horror. They donโt see the day-to-day grind of lost time, half-finished tasks, waking up in the middle of a conversation you donโt remember starting, or realizing your body has bruises you donโt recall earning. They donโt see the chaos of trying to work, study, parent, or just exist while your sense of self keeps flickering like a faulty light switch.
And letโs not forget the stigma. The smirks, the โAre you like that movie character?โ questions, the therapists who donโt believe you, the doctors who blame everything on anxiety. The disbelief hits harder than the symptoms sometimes. Because when the world insists youโre making it up, you start to wonder if maybe you are. That internal gaslighting is brutal.
Switching isnโt a party trick. Itโs not entertainment. Itโs survival. Each alter carries pieces of pain, memory, or function that kept us alive when one person alone couldnโt. And yet, society would rather call us liars than acknowledge what trauma can do to a developing brain.
Therapy helps, sure. But โintegrationโ isnโt a light switch either. Healing is slow. Messy. It means sitting with parts who are angry, scared, protective, childlike, or numb. It means negotiating with yourself just to get out of bed. It means learning to coexist with a family you never asked for but canโt live without.
So no, DID/OSDD isnโt fake. It isnโt attention-seeking. Itโs a testament to resilience. Our minds broke in the most creative way possibleโto keep us alive. Thatโs not weakness. Thatโs survival.
To every system out there fighting to be heard: I see you. I believe you. You are not โcrazy.โ You are not โtoo much.โ You are the living proof of endurance. Weโre not fractured beyond repairโweโre layered, complex, and still here. And thatโs nothing short of extraordinary.
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Reminder that panic attacks aren't always extremely outward presenting.
Recently got back from a drive and when we passed a very triggering place, I had to try my hardest to keep it together because I was driving.
But that doesn't mean I was fine.
I was shaking, my hands were trembling, my breath was hitching because I was struggling to breathe, and it felt like I was going to sob.
But I didn't.
That doesn't mean it wasn't triggering. That doesn't mean I wasn't affected.
Panic attacks aren't always outwardly presenting. And even though I had small outward signs that I was having an attack, this doesn't always happen. Sometimes I'll feel it all internally and nothing outwardly insists that I'm panicking.
Panic attacks present differently for everyone. How someone is triggered presents differently for everyone.