I Want To Suffer In Your Arms

Damn selfshipping blog is what this is Not regularly active anymore trying to get the fuck off this site!!

[deanportmans]

✦ ᴄᴀʀʀᴅ ✦ ғ/ᴏs ✦ ʙʏғ ✦ ᴍᴀɪɴ ✦ ʜᴜsʙᴀɴᴅ ✦ ɴᴀᴍᴇs ✦

ᴀ ᴡᴀʟᴋɪɴɢ ᴄᴏʀᴘsᴇ ɪɴ ʟᴏᴠᴇ ᴄᴀʟʟᴇᴅ (ᴛʜᴇ) ᴍɪɴɪsᴛᴇʀ, ᴄʀᴀᴢʏ ғᴏʀ ᴡᴇɪʀᴅᴏs, ғʀᴇᴀᴋs, ᴀssʜᴏʟᴇs, ᴀɴᴅ sʟɪᴍʏ ᴘᴇʀᴠᴇʀᴛs. ɪ’ʟʟ ʜᴀᴜɴᴛ ʏᴏᴜʀ ᴅᴀsʜ ᴡɪᴛʜ ᴍʏ sᴘᴇᴄɪᴍᴇɴs (ғɪᴄᴛɪᴏɴᴀʟ ʟᴏᴠᴇs) .

ᴛʜɪs ʙʟᴏɢ ɪs ɴᴏᴛ ʀᴀᴄɪsᴛ, ᴢɪᴏɴɪsᴛ, ᴛᴇʀғ, ᴏʀ ɴᴀᴢɪ sᴀғᴇ .

ᴜᴘᴅᴀᴛᴇᴅ: Dec 10th ✦ @endofnihility

[deanportmans]

I made sweet tea :] and took care of two moldy jars that have been in the mini fridge for… over a year… 😔

[deanportmans]

I’m going to eat soooooooo much kale for dinner. And watch stupid horror movies. I need to make sweet tea, though, it’ll elevate everything

[deanportmans]

Remembering I got called ‘sir’ the other day <3 <3 was to take a photo of a couple <3

[sodaneko]

i love your brown eyes. i love the infinite depth to them, the warmth they hold. i love the kaleidoscope of colors when the sun hits them directly and i love the soothing dark of them when the whole world has dimmed down. i love getting to see my reflection in them when you look at me with so much love. i love every hue of brown that they’re made from. i love how they can be both gentle and a wildfire, love how the sun longs to be with you (just like i do). i love your brown eyes, i could lose myself in them forever.

[explorationfour]

HELP FUND EXPLORATIONFOUR'S TOP SURGERY + RECOVERY !!

Hi, I'm Elias (I'm in the middle of photo 2), and I'm looking to crowdfund my top surgery! I've been on T for about 3ish years and counting, socially transitioned for several years, and have been actively dreaming of and wanting top surgery since I hit puberty. My friends and fiancé can both attest to my chest dysphoria and how my chest currently negatively effects every aspect of my life. I have done what I can to alleviate it but since my chest is always there it has consistently weighed on me, and as of late, my dysphoria has been particularly bad.

This year, I started the journey to actually obtain top surgery. I absolutely need help in attaining this. Top surgery is extremely expensive and while my insurance should cover some of it, it will not cover all of it.

I need money to cover the following: The surgery itself and enough money to compensate the 3 of us not working to pay my rent + utilities [1450 for rent, which will then be 1,500 in August. Utilities are about 300ish per month]. To make sure I have some flexibility if something arises I am asking for 8,000.

If you can afford to help me, I would greatly appreciate it. I cannot stress enough how freeing this surgery will be for me and how greatly it will affect my quality of life.

This post will be updated as often as I can with any information. If I hit the funding goal, any additional money will be put into my savings or otherwise used to pay for anything else that might come up during recovery.

If you cannot donate that's okay!! Sharing this helps just as much and I appreciate it 💜

Thank you all so much!

[40/8,000]

G.OFUNDME LINK

Last updated: 6/9/2026

[whoreiaki-kakyoin]

Thinking about a love that insists on sinking teeth and claws into them and holding on with every fiber of your being. Something filled with deep adoration but laced with desperate want as you cling to them fiercely. Lovers whose affection holds an almost frantic need to clutch their beloved tight, to drop anchor in safe harbor and never, ever, ever draw it back up. Lovers whose need for constancy and steadfastness intertwine with a very real and potent affection. I think about it often for characters who have known grief or loss or abandonment, where the intensity of their love becomes something almost violent in its neediness, something fierce to mask the fear underneath. Things have slipped through their fingers before. Please don’t let this be one. Please stay. Please let them make a home here, without fearing what comes next.

[deadlyr0s3]

can i come over and smell your neck

[magicalmutants]

Need a man to smile fondly at me while I throw a dramatic hissy fit over a minor inconvenience

[deanportmans]

I don’t know maybe don’t include a character in your imagines slash scenarios if you’re going to half ass them. Don’t try to appeal to a niche if you have literally nothing to offer

[deanportmans]

The wink gets me more than y’all know. Oh my god

[deanportmans]

Sometimes you see a man on screen gently caress someone’s face and suddenly nothing else matters except for the eternally unnamed pull in your soul

[mewnbuns]

straightening up their suit jacket just so you can pull them in by the collar for a kiss

[deanportmans]

Widows bay ep7 spoiler. Just a photo

It’s even better when you see him hunched over hauntingly in the dark with his beautiful sexy voice rumbling low. Oh my god. I really need more undead and half dead men in my life there’s a hole in my heart that needs to be filled </3

Nothing is coming of this btw I just needed a moment

[deanportmans]

Caught up on widow’s bay I was suuuch a stupid giggling idiot I was trying so hard to act normal. Fucking actor crushes driving me crazy

[dilucsbeloved]

a man who always treats you with the utmost gentleness but also knows when to be stern with you because sometimes that’s the only way to get you out of your head;;; a man that doesn’t wait for you to open up because he knows you need to be cracked open. he comes to you first and grabs your jaw firmly (never firm enough to hurt you) to force you to face him when you keep avoiding his gaze and insists that he wants you to tell him what’s wrong because he knows you won’t say anything otherwise. his eyes are serious—hard with a look that grips the seeds of doubt in your mind before they can take root like weeds—but his fingers still careful as he wipes away the tears you try so hard not to let spill past your lashes. he’ll grab your wrist and pull you into his lap when you try to run away, trapping you there with his strong arms and won’t let you go no matter how much you squirm and want to hide. he won’t let you isolate yourself because he can’t bear the absence of your presence, he’ll make you listen to his reassurances, his voice so authoritative you can’t bring yourself to protest.

[deanportmans]

I’m having a catastrophic Luigi moment *head in hands* what if we eloped