Dear Jared

Breaking up is hard to do. Especially when they're an abusive piece of shit. Here is where I write all the things that I wish my ex could understand. It's helping me to cope with the break up, and hopefully it will help someone else who finds them self in a similar situation. Don't ever let anyone treat you that way.

[dear-jared]

I’m only a shell of the person I was before I met you, and I’ll forever hate you for that.

[dear-jared]

No one will ever love me the way Jared did.

[not-listen-ing]

My high school ex-boyfriend was a sociopath

At Anodyne

[dear-jared]

Like it’s nothing 🙄

[dear-jared]

[anime--irl]

anime_irl

[dear-jared]

Hahahahahahaha this is what Jared and i looked like standing next to each other

[dear-jared]

Dear Jared,

I hope you're fucking happy. You dead ass fuck. You convinced me that you're the only person who will ever love me, and it's manifested. No one will bring me the happiness you brought me. Even as fucked up as it was, it was at least real. You never used me or faked anything.

Asking for a love as real as yours is so terrifying, but it's all I want.

Fuck you for leaving me here on this planet without you.

[dear-jared]

Dear Jared,

Talking about what you did to me never gets easier. Even if it's the abbreviated version ("A Brief History of Jared" I call it) that I squeezed into a 4 minute phone call so I can finally see a trauma therapist. I already was having a rough day. That didn't help. Holding back the tears burned my eyes.

Somedays I'm glad you are dead. That way I can't go back to you.

Other days it's the most heartbreaking. Because I can't go back to you.

You still have me convinced no one will ever love me as much as you did. I still really believe it.

You were the best and worst thing that ever happened to me.

I love you. I hate you. But most of all, I miss you.

[j-rad-dreams]

Waiting to hear back from Jared. All I want to do his hang out with him. We don’t even have to do anything. I would be ok just laying next to him and watching movies. We don’t even have to talk. I just want to hold him. I never want to let him go. I thought I would be fine without him, that I would be better off even, and boy that was a mistake. I haven’t been that heartbroken or cried that much since my mom died. I’m sad it took THAT for us to get to this spot, but I’m glad that I have him back. I’m scared though just because of how rocky things have been the last month and a half, but I want to make things right. I never want to lose him again. He’s a terrible person, I know, but he makes me so happy. I feel so comfortable and safe when I’m with him, even though he does scare me sometimes. I can’t help but smile when he says “I love you too.”

[j-rad-dreams]

I had a dream I was giving my boyfriend a bj at his work and he said “why would Bruce Jenner want to turn into a woman and give this up?! It feels too good!”

So uhh don’t read articles about Caitlyn Jenner before taking a nap. Especially on days your boyfriend tries to get you to have sex in the elevator at his work.

[dear-jared]

Hahahaha

[deadgirlonsteroids]

[dear-jared]

STOP CALLING ME OUT

[dear-jared]

This would be funny except I would give anything to see your stupid face right now. Dick.

[dear-jared]

Dear Jared,

I wish you were still around so we could go to the casino. We never got to spend a night together in a room there.

I miss you. I’m mad you left me behind. I wish you could have taken me with you.

[nicolezaridze]

starting has been very difficult

support the series here

[dear-jared]

My Grumpy 😞

[dear-jared]

Dear Jared,

I love you.

[dear-jared]

I can’t sleep. I can’t stop thinking about him. The anxiety is making me sick. I miss him so much. I hate that he’s gone forever now. I wish I could just snuggle up to him right now. I loved him more than anything. 😞💔🐠