[holleratsarahh-deactivated20170]

[keybladesandbowties]

[b-rainrot]

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[dearambuh-blog]

you know when you're finally able to go home without falling completely apart and then your dumbass of a boyfriend does something lovely and ruins that for you.

[i-live-in-your-fridge-deactivat]

“You know when you’re drowning you don’t actually inhale until right before you black out. It’s called voluntary apnea. It’s like no matter how much you’re freaking out, the instinct to not let any water in is so strong that you won’t open your mouth until you feel like your head’s exploding. Then when you finally do let it in, that’s when it stops hurting. It’s not scary anymore, it’s… it’s actually kind of peaceful.”

(via i-live-in-your-fridge)

[dearambuh-blog]

It's the saddest people who try their hardest to make the people around them happy, because they know what it's like. What it's like to feel: hopeless, lonely, suicidal, and helpless. They know that they,themselves, are too far gone to be helped, so they vow to help everyone else.

[dearambuh-blog]

things amber's not allowed to do (that everyone else is):

1.) have bad days. 2.) Keep secrets for friends.

[jacknicholson]

[huglifekiyoko]

what did i come on to?

[rebmadraeh]

kiiiiiiiiko

[huglifekiyoko]

yes amber?

[dearambuh-blog]

miss you.

[dearambuh-blog]

today went from bad to worse really really fast. i shouldn’t feel guilty for debby being miserable as hell but i do. and it’s not just “I’m sorry” guilt. It’s the kind that eats at you along with everything else. i tried to make her leave, but she’s stubborn as hell and no matter how many times or how many ways i try and convince her i’m fine she gives me every reason that she can’t believe me. and i’m done, i give up arguing with her because it’s only piling on. and i’m hanging to a very thin thread as it is. i just…

[dearambuh-blog]

when life throws you lemons. make a lemon drop martini. edit: make a few lemon drop martinis

[dearambuh-blog]

yesterday was a good day. like actually good. i spent it with the girls and dad. we had funn, a lot of it. never in a million years did i think i would want to stay in Texas but honestly anywhere is better than LA right now. I don't even know what I'm saying right now. But in other news, Disney World is next. I don't think there's a thing that could go wrong at Disney World so all positive attitudes about that right now. And I'm going to try. and not worry about Debby and Hayley so much and try and stop them worrying about me as much as I can. until next time.

[dearambuh-blog]

just try and remember the alternate of this was being in that house.....

[dearambuh-blog]

it's thursday...

[dearambuh-blog]

it’s getting too close to thursday.

[dearambuh-blog]

hey again,

i really don't know where to start. or if i should start. but basically, i'm done. yesterday was the best day, i've honestly had in awhile, even before i ended up here. and then this morning i wake up to debby and garrett at each other's throats. i didn't step in, but there was an apology from debby, and garrett stuck around here. only for me to fall asleep again and wake up to world war 3. and i can't do it....right now i honestly just want to get up and run and never stop. but i can't. so i'm gonna put on my big girl face and act like everything's okay.

[permanently-mindfucked-blog]