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admin dear & admin doll. blood blessed. not a place for the easily triggered.

[dearanddoll]

♡an introduction♡

a first note: this blog is unsafe for people who are triggered by bloody topics, especially mentions of cvtting or harming oneself. be aware of your limits and step back when you need to.

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he/they/xey/it/she/lace/heart/veil. intj. (diary entries) ♡admin doll♡

they/god/xe/baron/he/it/she. intj. (document entries)

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[dearanddoll]

i think about you quite often, dear. not in a way that is easily expressed. after all, there is no easy way to write that my freedom is a prison unless the key is held by you. this solem trickle of blood means nothing to me unless it is given meaning by someone else. you are the only person who has been worthy of my devotion. you are the only god who ever will be. 

i belong to you, my dear <3. to worship, to harm, to destroy. all as you choose.

[dearanddoll]

Oh how I crave a sharp blade against my neck and back to carve me a pair of wings of iron and blood.  How I wish for my beloved Doll to bleed me out a thousand times more, how I dream of our immortal souls being brought to use as our vessels wake in their every break.

How I long for our love to be made forever and eternally etched in flesh with blades, blood, and wonders.

[sweatermuppet]

devotion that corrupts is my favorite btw there's nothing wrong with it ever & it should be encouraged

[sweetsugur]

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[dearanddoll]

♡ TW SH, CVTS, BLOOD, C4NN1B4L1SM, BRIEF C4LOR1E MENTION ♡

1/5/22

~ ♡Dear♡

I apologize for my absence, we do see it has been far too long, my Doll and I. But nevertheless, our way of living has not been abandoned. We are still here, we are still wonderful, we are still divine. And as such, we suit our divinity with our lovely prose and preachings. Welcome to our latest extension of our doctrine. As of late I have been pondering the taste of blood. By ponder, I don't mean imagine. I mean reminiscing. Spilling blood is a beautiful thing, but why let the blood let go to waste? Especially as it has such an appetizing taste. Blood, blood, gore, gore, all the things I crave. A fun note to me is that I, Dear, am a vegetarian. Most presume the reason to be a discomfort with eating animals due to the thought of taking a life, but in truth, the reason is a bit more beautifully grim. Gods deserve better meat than what mere livestock can possess. The blood is so much richer raw and fresh, the meat so much warmer and tasteable. Eating animal meat triggers my cravings for the superior alternative, the luxurious meat of gods. My blade has perhaps been licked a thousand times just to sate me. The day my power overtakes me is the day my Doll will join me for a feast deserved by the divine. I bore a hole in my chest, sweet and deep, started with my beloved seam ripper and continued with my teeth. I tear and pick off pieces and layers of skin for my pleasure, the pain is a sentiment washed away by the chew of stringy layers of flesh. The metallic and sweet taste of blood and flesh is enough to leave me without eating for quite the while. Not to mention, human flesh I have heard to be about 1,300cal/kg, considerably less than other meats such as chicken (2,390cal/kg) or pork (2,420cal/kg). When I completely reach godhood with my patron, I'd love to savour the taste that I currently consume and crave in moderation. Our way of living is frowned upon. Pathetic. We are so much more than perfect. I frown upon those who see us any other way. I dream that our blog may reach likeminded peers. We have had our handful of sour frowners, which I define as sin by my religion of pursuing Doll, my God of blood. I will let my Doll taste my flesh, and in turn taste his. We are equivelant in power, we are equivelant in role. To those who appreciate our content, I in turn appreciate your presence in us fulfilling our doctrine and blessings. Our cult grows stronger with every passing moment. We are building a religion. You are thanked for your attention and time.

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The cuts make the pic 10 times better frr

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can’t help myself glitter edit

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DEATH AND REBIRTH

Artist: mikimoto haruhiko

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SH Aesthetic Appreciation?

In my (probably fucked up) opinion, sh scars aren't a flaw one puts on their body, but rather a personal characteristic, like a hairstyle. I mean neither are scars that came from other circumstances right? If you can proudly wear a scar you got from a car accident you survived, why can't you wear your sh scars proudly; For all the days you stayed alive and in this shitsmear of a world?

I dont sh out of self hatred.

I do it to decorate myself.

Maybe even warn people around me of how I think.

Maybe even for attention?

I just think they look cute. Cute on me.

Maybe its just my narcissism.

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*gets gender envy from cutsy box cuters cutely*