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Drinks

I like to drink, always have but this last time something happened that keeps me questioning. I couldn’t think, I didn’t know what was happening or what I was doing. I said, “I won’t have sex with you” but we kept kissing. Everything is a blur. I was so dizzy. Confused. It was as if I left my mind and my body acted as it wanted. We had sex. Words were hardly exchanged. I don’t know if then I wanted it, but if I did then why do I keep questioning.

25 years of age and I feel utterly stupid

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Words

Just wanted to spill my heart out

Don’t care if you ignore or pretend

Needed to say what I had to say

I wrote those words

And now I’ll forget

No need to fear

Just cherish and move forward

What is done is done

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I won’t let go

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I wonder how many people I’ve looked at all my life and never seen.

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Listened to "Hello" by Adele for the first time -- my heart ached well over 3 minutes

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Csun

I find it quite beautiful to be a student. To walk to classes back-and-forth bumping into one another. Rushing to be on time or rushing to unfold at home. There is something magical about being a student. No matter what major, what hobbies, worries or strains are occurring, for a fragment of time we all have the same intentions.

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I just have this happy personality and a sad soul in one body. It feels weird sometimes.

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And every so often I think about you, cry for you, long for you.

Above all, hope someone loves you like I never could, care for you like I should have and continues to hold on like I no longer could.

Many great men have entered my life yet my mind can’t seem to erase you. My heart feels cold, an open wound being struck by air.

I never knew pain until now.

The man I love is gone, and yet I am unable to believe it. Catching myself living through memories: driving home, hearing your voice, talking about the silliest things. I remind myself I can no longer have that. I remind myself how better I am, how better it feels. I try to comprehend why I feel this, what it means and I can’t seem to have answers.

Every day I hope, pray, wish that one night a loud noise will wake me and shake me out of this awful nightmare. I will call you, describe in detail what I dreamt and laugh, while I hear you say to me, “you’re so silly, my peanut.”

I miss you darling, blue eyes </3

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A love that should have lasted years

Your day breaks, your mind aches You find that all the words of kindness linger on When she no longer needs you She wakes up, she makes up She takes her time and doesn't feel she has to hurry She no longer needs you And in her eyes you see nothing No sign of love behind the tears Cried for no one A love that should have lasted years You want her, you need her And yet you don't believe her when she said her love is dead You think she needs you And in her eyes you see nothing No sign of love behind the tears Cried for no one A love that should have lasted years You stay home, she goes out She says that long ago she knew someone but now he's gone She doesn't need him Your day breaks, your mind aches There will be time when all the things she said will fill your head You won't forget her And in her eyes you see nothing No sign of love behind the tears Cried for no one A love that should have lasted years

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One year later

One year later and I miss you. Your quirky sideways smile. Your blue eyes. Your pale soft skin. One year later and you're still so present in my mind. Each memory of you - of us - takes over every inch of me. Aware of the reasons Aware of the mistakes Aware of the need to be Fully conscious yet you continue to linger in my mind. I don't understand Should I understand No more can we be No more can I see those eyes, touch that skin, kiss those lips No more One year later and I still miss you, more and more each passing day.

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Feeling

I used to be afraid of walking outside. I used to be afraid of unlocked doors. Today a small walk from the office to my car made me realize I walked without fear. That is not to say I didn’t catch myself jumping or looking around but what I found most shocking was I could sense my fear being diminished; the fear being less than what it was. These are the moments that mean the most to me. The seconds, just a fragment of time in which I am able to feel, to see, to catch myself and understand where I am. It gives me strength. It gives me hope. What I once felt, I no longer feel - at least not to that gravity - and then it makes me wonder: if I feel the way I felt today, then perhaps tomorrow, I won’t feel what was felt one day.