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How do i let him go ?

At first, you don’t.You’ll hold on to everything that reminds you of him.You’ll sleep in the shirt he left at your house just to torture yourself even more.You’ll check his social media 200 times a day just to see if he’s already met someone else.You’ll suffer. Alot.

And one day, you’ll find yourself sitting infront of your best friend, drinking hot chocolate and it won’t remind you of that one cold winter day when you and him sat on the floor wrapped in blankets. You won’t be ready to start over with someone else yet, but you’re getting there. You’ll feel it.You’ll miss him like crazy, but everyday it gets easier to live without him.

So, I think we never really let them go, we just learn how to let go of the heartbreak. At some point we just find peace. And in that moment it won’t hurt anymore.

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“I opened my heart up for you, and the world came confusedly in.”

— Hertha Kräftner, tr. by Beth Bjorklund, from “Litanies,” wr. c. January 1948 (via violentwavesofemotion)

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The bar

He never showed

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“Nostalgia? No, something else, sometimes an inexplicable sadness.”

— Ingeborg Bachmann, from Three Paths to the Lake; “Word for Word,”

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There is nothing more disappointing than making drunk plans that don't come to be.

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I make people love each other.

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“You hurt me, but you were the one who made the mistake. It’s not like I stopped loving you the minute I found out. I just stopped trusting you.”

— Jodi Picoult, Mercy (via simply-quotes)

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Anti anxiety.

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Always important xx

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“The past should be left in the past because it can destroy your future. Live your life for what tomorrow has to offer, not for what yesterday has taken away.”

— Posts of Wisdom

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Starting New

After 11 years of working in the same industry I am taking a leap of faith and starting new. I am saying goodbye to the life style and the titles. It is time to work at something that makes me happy and not just a pay check. This past month has been one of the hardest in my life. Stay humble they say. I didn’t realize what that meant until now. 

I have started to get healthy in more ways than just emotionally. I don’t know that I will post every day but I am going to start writing again. I stopped when I entered into a relationship five years ago. It was out of respect for my partner. He was and I am assuming still is a wonderful person. You see we don’t speak any longer. This breaks my heart. I am partly to  blame for this failure in communication. I let anger get the best of me. Last night I had a dream about him and his son. I miss them dearly but I also know that our relationship ending is just another chapter of my life coming to a close. 

I wish I could say that things have been wonderful since starting new but that truth is it is terrifying. By November I should be done with school and onto a new career. 

Questions plague my mind... will I marry again? Will I have a child? What will my life be like in six months? A year? Will I still have my car or will I have to trade it in for a cheaper vehicle? Can I afford to live on my own? All of this doubt seems to tell me that my faith is not strong. 

So I come here to keep sane as I can’t afford to see my shrink any longer. 

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Tonight

I cry myself to sleep

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My insecurities are winning today

I'm trying

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I take the meds as prescribed and here I am still fighting to breath

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Anon please

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Anyone awake?